sam is the ultimate doomed by the narrative character not only bc the most fucked up things to happen to literally anyone in the history of ever happen to him but bc the literal narrative he exists within alters the reality of these situations so that he becomes less and less justified in his sense of anger and betrayal. like not trying to be dramatic bc i understand this is all just the result of lazy writing but the way sam and the viewer are being manipulated into believing the circumstances of the gadreel situation and the subsequent fallout are entirely different than what they were to begin with is CRAZY. and i think the reason it's bothering me so much is bc possession throughout the entire show and this season is such a one to one allegory for rape. but let me calm down bc this is literally soup or natural.
tbh sam is way more punk than dean, it's just that nobody considers it because he spent all his time away from home being a lawboy and making his own citrus water bc he's a huge fucking freak like that
like it literally makes me rabid. i want to see sam angry so fucking bad. they never let him be angry with dean like real ugly out of control below the belt fury after the kripke era and it makes me insane. i can only watch sam take the high road while dean gets to be immature and self absorbed and Plot Relevant and make mistakes and never have them held against him so many times. over and over after season 5 we just watch sam get more and more ground down while the people around him treat him with less and less respect and still bring up mistakes he made years earlier that were never entirely his fault and that he's more than atoned for and for god's sakes all i want is for him to get MAD again. not tired not understanding not sad i want to see him snap and catch everyone who is used to him being the doormat off guard and get ANGRY. on his OWN behalf. because god knows i am!!!!!
i know we’ve talked abt this before but the fact that free to be you and me and the end are one after another is sooooo mindboggling. free to be you and me is like hey dean here’s some time away from a codependent relationship with your brother that can actually be healthy for you. and here’s some good time with a great new friend. and then BOOM if you let your little brother even a little space he’s gonna go off and say yes to the devil and your new friend is gonna be forever corrupted by your mere existence. chew on that.
Spn is like yeah monsters are redeemable yeah most of them don't want to do this and would choose a life otherwise yeah we're actively implying they want to be better yeah we could write a redemption. anyways shoot them.
thinking about how Sam could stop hunting things, but never stopped helping people. how in his sophomore year, when Brady seemed to be losing his way, Sam put all of his own shit on hold to help someone else get back up. even a demon had to be a bit admired by how good a friend he was. and thinking about Sam’s good deeds never went unpunished.
version of spn where dean is openly bisexual the entire time and definitely fucks a priest during a job and sam is does his judgmental little "dude" and dean is like "i already went to hell once man,, what's the worst that could happen" and everytime there's a new bad guy or apocalypse sam is like "this is bc you fucked a priest" and eventually he says it in front of Cas who does his little squint and head tilt and just
"You what?"
Sam and Dean were literally conduits for each other’s abuse at John’s hands. Dean was deputized into enforcing john’s mistreatment of Sam and Sam was dean’s ball and chain. They’re also weird best friends who never got socialized. This is why they’re like that
if sam tried to get a normalcore job he would land in one of those everyone’s a family startups and things would actually probably go okay until they did their first friday “bonding event” and went to the nearest axe-throwing bar and despite having already drunk like seven beers which is making all of his coworkers start calculating bmi to blood alcohol ratios and coming to the conclusion that this guy can drink sam manages to hit a bullseye with every one of his axes and even break the target a little from the force of his throwing. when asked how he was possibly able to do that he absolutely fumbles the bag and laughs out “just got good at chopping off heads, you know?” which makes everyone think maybe that WASN’T a joke and it’s only because his coworker ethan hit “reply all” on an email talking about how one of the ladies in HR is pretty sure this guy’s real name is sam winchester and he’s wanted for pretty much everything that sam doesn’t show up to work on monday where an FBI team is hanging around his cubicle. once he’s moved to a new state he leaves them a one star review on glassdoor
I just looove Sam having anger issues more than dean having anger issues cause deans anger is just a tragic response like a kicked dog being approached and it lashes out and there’s no real fun in it for me but Sam as the angry one! So fun! The first few seasons where Sam just lashes out makes soo much sense with his character like he was a self conceited bratty child but he was entitled cause he felt so alone throughout his childhood and he didn’t even have his brother because his brother was also his dad so he constantly walked this line of taunting and sibling jabs/having to show them the respect you show your parents and he’s so complicated! Why did they drain my Sammy of character development and personality!