Su1c1d3 - Blog Posts
wow, i jst ruined another friendship
should i jst kms atp yall?
welp
were getting to the point where im ghosting ppl i love n care abt again
fuck
(chat, is it weird that i feel an attempt coming?)
im a bad person
i only hurt those around me
everyones lives would be better if i was dead
i only ruin things
i shouldve died a long time ago
i shouldve never made it this far
im not going to get further in life anyways
im going to die before im 20
either from su1cide or from my illness
i hope i die soon
everyone would be better off that way
(sooner or later im gonna sl1t my throat or ove3d0se on my meds or h4ng myself from a tree in my backyard)
me when i promise i wont kms but my 20 minutes of happiness pass n i wanna do it again:
i think im feeling it now
jst like u do
if god doesnt to it, im taking matters into my own hands istfg
i hope this is my last year
fr, yall will never understand how disappointed i am of myself rn, bcz i was actually getting kinda better n now im thinking abt the fastest n easiest ways to commit again
The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful
literally my healing era rn:
(im switching from being completely healed n from being on the verge of su1c1de <33)
Constantly switching between healing and complete self destruction
my intro !!!
charlie!!
they/them [non-binary, afab]
pan aroace [demiromantic+aceflux]
in a relationship!! my amazing dear darling wife: @vodozemacc350
teen [not comfortable w sharing my age, but my age range is 13-16]
4nor3xia, depression, anxiety, sh add1ct (cvtter) + other undiagnosed mental health illnesses (undiagnosed autism n borderline personality disorder)
im chronically ill, but i dont like talking abt it a lot
i talk a lot abt my sh n 4nor3xia, so if u feel uncomf w seeing that, block me, dont report
scene + indie
please use tonetags 4 me ToT
my dms r open, talk to me please TvT
u can ask if u want any of my other social
DNI LIST:
p3dos, z00s, any other ___phile (this is a kinda-dni, im ok w interacting w u as long as u dont say/do anything bad bcz i have trauma from multiple p4rapl1les i met in the past)
h0mophobes, r4cists, tr4nsphobes, m1sogynist, ect.
ESPECIALLY trump supporters
fandoms:
arcane
mouthwashing
pjo
hp
icp
fear street [both books n movies]
mlp
sally face
scream
+ many more that i dont remember rn-
my 4n4 info!!
hw/sw: 45 kg
cw: 44.6 kg
gw1: 42 kg
gw2: 40 kg
ugw: 38kg
thatz it <3 bye ^^
Nah, actually.
Thank you and bless you for ending my pain
I'm sewerslidal but not in a "I constantly want to kms" but more of a "I won't avoid deadly situations but I'm nit looking for them either"
shaving over my old scars feels so weird like blades of the razor are going over my scars without actually causing harm. does that make sense lol
can someone please tell me if the urge to relapse ever stops like when I'm 30 am I still going to be cutting myself 🙏🙏
