Tc Crush - Blog Posts
ngl I think that one of the most stressful things about having a tc is that you really have to be the one to show that you’re friendly and interested in getting to know them to make the relationship grow. like yeah they can initiate a conversation with you every now and again but it’s really up to you to show that you’re not just another student taking their class to pass it, and having to be the one to make that initial connection is so weirdly difficult sometimes.
sometimes i just pull up to j’s room in a free period and start talking … she said i can come talk to her anytime but usually i come in with a question or something to start the conversation about - recently it’s been university applications but i’ve finished applying now so i literally don’t know what to say to her now to start a conversation. i feel like it’s too weird to come in and start talking about something not school related - advice pls !!!!
she said talking to me is always pleasant and that she thought about me yesterday ??????
the feminine urge to only study to make her proud
"She's going to sit alone. Right at that same table where she built it all. Her happiness, her courage, her perseverance, but most importantly, where she met all of her friends. Now it's all crumbling down to her fingertips. She closes her eyes and tries to dream herself away into a reality where all of that still exsists, but she can't. It's all blank without the real thing... Without the real them. Complete nothingness. She can't even remember their voices. Everything is fading away from her. And everytime, she blames herself for something that she couldn't control. They've all left now; her friends. The girl lifts her head and stares at them. They're all happy. They all prance around, discussing random topics she used to talk about with them all of the time. She even sees her crush holding hands with her best friend. They don't even notice her. All of them go sit at their new table, completely forgetting about what once was. She weakly smiled as tears fell down her cheeks. Her heart ached for them. For someone. But she had no one. She put her head back down and waited for an escape. She pulled her sketchbook and poetry journal closer to her. They may only be objects, but they are all she has now. She pours her heart out crying. She couldn't hold it in any longer. Her fears were reality, and she somehow had to stay strong in this. But how could she stay strong when she wasn't going to be remembered by any of them? Was it all pointless to make memories in the first place? She just wanted to disappear. She then heard whispers all around her. It sounded like her friends, but that couldn't be. She lifted her head up and rubbed her eyes. A boy with a pretend smile and a sympathetic gaze pulled me into a hug.
"You're going to be okay, we're all going to be okay. I promise."
She cried into his chest until they all gathered around her and tackled her into a group hug.
Her friends.
They were here.
"I'm sorry for the mess I've created," She shyly whispered, "haven't you forgotten me, yet? I would've."
"How could we forget about you?" A raven haired boy asked, "We've been right here the whole time."
- Dreaming of Wolves//Vent
(I just... Sobbed while writing this.)
It's killing me how I love him so much yet I can't even talk with him properly.
Y’all please help me. What do you guys even talk about with your tc’s one on one (except asking them to explain a question etc.) I literally have so many opportunities to just go up to him and talk and I have so much I’m curious about but the problem is I don't have any idea what to talk about, I don't want to bother him and I’m so nervous & shy. Any suggestions? My messages are always open pls help someone in need 😭
I was checking my exam with my tc (which unfortunately didn't last very long since I made like two mistakes) and after we were done he just flashed me the cutest smile and said “the highest mark so far” LIKE SIR OMG NEXT TIME I’LL GET 100 CAUSE WOW OMG
Me after not seeing him for 2 days 😍 (I don’t need help I need to see him)
I really wanna see him can the weekend and exam week please just be over already😭
Someone Like You by Adele literally describes it. I know it’s impossible for us to happen but maybe one day I’ll find someone like him closer to my age.
It’s not certain which teacher will enter my class’ French lessons next year. What if it’s not him? Oh my gosh. I literally wouldn’t be able to take it. Please please please let him be my French teacher next year as well, this is one of my biggest wishes right now. There is a high chance that another teacher might enter therefore I’m really scared. I’d be devastated because I cherish every moment of his lessons.
It’s a bit concerning and bitter that I can picture myself a few years from now, on a plane on my way to move to France (my tc is French and teaches French) after graduating and just thinking about him on my way. Will the whole city remind me of him? Will I find a glimpse of him on the streets of France? Will I be able to forget him or will this longing always remain? Will I never see him again? :( I don’t even have his number or anything but there’s a while until I graduate and maybe I’ll ask sometime. It’s just so distressing for me.