Attachment Issues - Blog Posts
As someone who would probably act the same way as Miles if i was in love with my rival its been really cathartic playing Ace Attorney 🥲 just finished the second game and yeah..
I think I've realised I'm bad luck. Everyone I meet every person I interact with as soon as I come into their lives. It all seems to turn to shit. Every second everyday I'm tourmented with paranoia that gets worse with people and I've found that that it manifests itself and fucks up other people's life. I feel like everyone would be better off without me, and I honestly wish they'd see that too, I think I have attachment issues because as soon as I befriend or come close with someone, I instantly desire to leave them, somtimes for selfish intent and somtimes for altruism but none the less I always do. I wish I had the guts to cut people of cold because as soon as I enter somones life as nice as I try to be I fuck up everyone around me without trying. I don't think I want to do that again. I dont think anyone deserves that, and I dont think I deserve anyone else. No one seems to be able to see that eventually, I'll just end up dragging people down. I'm a very avid reality thinker I often think of every conceivable reality where maybe things could be different but I know everyones life would be better if I wasnt in it, I'd rather they pain staklingly get support then wallow in their sadness while I coddle them, I've given up on myself and so should they. Im the losing dog that people bet on, and unbeknownst to them, they shouldn't.[Not my art] [Oc writing read desc for context]
"I never even liked you"
THEY REPLACED ME
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they said i was their favourite
they said they loved me
they said that IM their number one
WHY DID THEY REPLACE ME
DID I JST MEAN NOTHING TO THEM
DID THEY JST LIE THIS WHOLE TIME
IF THEY WERE TELLING THE TRUTH, HOW DID THEY REPLACE ME SO EASILY
am i rlly that replaceable?
no, I cant sleep without your goodnight.
no, I can't sleep if we argued.
no, I cant sleep if you're mad at me.
no, I can't sleep if i miss you.
no, I cant eat if you're mad at me.
no, I cant eat if we argued.
no, I can't take care of myself if we argued.
no, I cant stay more than thirty minutes w/o you.
no, I cant function without you.
no, I can't be ok if you're not ok.
no, I can't stop depending on you.
I js need one person in my life to be my rock and i could move mountians for them
Can you help the hopeless?
Well, I'm begging on my knees
Can you save my bastard soul?
Will you wait for me?
I'm sorry, brothers, so sorry, lover.
Forgive me, father, I love you, mother.
Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel my heart?
Can you feel my heart?
I'm scared to get close, and I hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.
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Love this song. Its my comfort song since years, seemingly to perfectly describe how i feel.
Me after not seeing him for 2 days 😍 (I don’t need help I need to see him)
It’s a bit concerning and bitter that I can picture myself a few years from now, on a plane on my way to move to France (my tc is French and teaches French) after graduating and just thinking about him on my way. Will the whole city remind me of him? Will I find a glimpse of him on the streets of France? Will I be able to forget him or will this longing always remain? Will I never see him again? :( I don’t even have his number or anything but there’s a while until I graduate and maybe I’ll ask sometime. It’s just so distressing for me.
would you still want me if you realise that i’m just a melancholic girl with issues and weird interests?
sometimes i wonder if my father ever thinks about what he has done and how his actions affected me.
Perks of Polyamory: nobody has to be alone!