Trans Man - Blog Posts
this is actually the reason WHY i didnt come out for so long
i used to say shit like that before i realized i was a dude, my “friends” used to say shit like that, my mom used to say stuff like that
i was scared of realizing that i was a man due to the way everyone talked about them around me
i was nothing like the men they were saying men acted but was scared so badly of being seen that way that i boxed my thoughts of being trans up and sent them to the back of my mind
it was only until i finally felt comfortable (after i dropped all my those shitty people i called “friends”) that i finally let myself discover who i was
i genderfluided myself into a man and never changed back
this comment is also something i picked up on too
ive literally had a trans woman tell me (who used to act the way listed above) that she and many trans women who act like that are insecure about masculinity due to their transition so take it out on people who want to be masculine
im just tired of the queer community hating me for wanting to be a man
im so tired of radfeminism being the main feminist movement in social media
it isnt actual feminism its hatred in a trench coat wearing a mask with the words “feminism”
Yeah probably if you haven't lived the life of a trans man seeing people go "I don't like when people joke about hating men" or something along that line, it probably sounds mra ish.
But in my everyday life, people only address me as a man when they are using it to insult me. I forgot to do XYZ? That's me being a dumb man. I'm talking too long? I'm mansplaining. Etc etc. These are the only times in my real life that people will address me as a man. That's why we use the term 'malgendering', that's why many hate those "trans inclusive misandry" jokes. Because that's the only thing people are trans inclusive in.
it genuinely disgusts me with the amount of hate that tmen/mascs go through in the QUEER COMMUNITY
so many in the same community that claims to be accepting just hate on us
trans men/mascs are so villainized and forgotten within the trans community and for what?
and the thing is,
the way they often hate on us is the *exact* way homophobes and transphobes act
i once saw a tweet saying that trans men aren’t minorities and benefit from the patriarchy COMING FROM ANOTHER TRANS PERSON
its almost as they forget that the same way that cis people dont see them as their gender ALSO DONT SEE AS AS OURS
its almost as they forget that some of us have uteruses and are currently being affected by the political climate that tr🤡mp and red states are doing to remove abortions and things that generally protect us
just because you believe that every fucking trans man thats comfortable saying afab is a theyfab doesnt give you the fucking right to be a dickhead
plus, youre wrong too LMAO
there are certain situations where someone may use their agab acronym to explain something because, SHOCKER, some people dont KNOW a better term to use that outright explains what they mean
ie: ME. when I didnt know what to use/say, i used to mention my agab!!! now that i KNOW what to say (i was raised as a woman), i dont fucking treat others like shit for NOT SAYING THE SAME THING
this isnt the fucking oppression olympics, its being aware of the things that trans people go through and being THERE FOR THEM
NOT devaluing their experiences AND the current things they may go through just fucking because theyre a man
you arent apart of the LGBTQ+ with the rest of us if you invalidate ANY of the letters. INCLUDING TRANS PEOPLE
INCLUDING SUB GENRES OF TRANS PEOPLE (ie: tfem, tmasc, nonbi, agender, genderfluid, etc)
like anyone who does this fucking sucks
genuinely
youre a shitty person if you treat another trans person like shit just because you don’t understand them
because that’s exactly like how transphobes act LMAOO
people who think that transfems are inherently "unsafe" around transmascs and that transmascs are a "threat" to transfems:
are t4t transhet transfems a joke to you?
are t4t bi, pan, poly and omnisexual transfems a joke to you?
are transfems who have transmasc family members a joke to you?
are transfems who have transmasculine children a joke to you?
are transfems who have transmasculine friends a joke to you?
you HAVE to acknowledge we exist. you can't keep pretending we don't.
i don't know how else to break it to you that there are many, many transfems who love transmascs for a lot of different reasons, but if you seriously can't take a second to consider how you're hurting a ton of transfems by shitting on transmascs, i really have no other words for you. care about the transfems who love transmascs. we exist. stop pretending we don't. we are out here and and the transmascs we love don't deserve to feel like shit. it doesn't empower transfems to make them and the transmascs they love feel like shit. stop this.
I WANNA BE SOMEONES BOYFRIEND I WANT A BOYFRIEND I WANNA BE IN AN MLM RELATIONSHIP I WANNA BE GAY I WANT SOMEONE TO SAY IM THEIR BOYFRIEND I WANT TO SAY I HAVE A BOYFRIEND 💔💔💔
i get really upset whenever my “friend” (will get into that at a later date) or family who im out to whos aware that im trans uses the wrong pronouns for me
i used to think i wasnt upset by she/her pronouns, actively thought that i might be comfortable enough with them that i would use them but not identify as a woman but, im not.
im not comfortable with them being used on me
even some feminine terms im not comfortable being used on me
its more like im comfortable conforming for others, something i need to unlearn since its the reason why i detransitioned back in 2022. to make others comfortable.
im actively aware that it gets some getting used to so i dont complain about it at all, especially since my mom makes an active effort to correct herself
but i feel like the “friend” should especially be aware to at least try to use the correct pronouns for me especially since we spoke about my ex and the reason we broke up was due to my transition THEN spoke about the heinous thing he did to me after our breakup and she was so angry, literally saying that he doesnt see me as a man
my stereotypical trans name was elliot with the nickname as eli when i first came out back in 2020/2021
(i detransitioned due to transphobia but again, story for another day)
and it stuck with me
it isnt the name i use today but i use it in other ways
like the email i made when i came out includes it
i dont like it for me anymore but it was the name that helped me discover who i truly am
so
i dont mind the name elliot / eli
if i planned on changing my middle name,
id probably make it that
what i’ll probably do is tell people that my middle name is eli but not change it
my middle name means too much to my family, especially my mother that i cant imagine changing it
(but thats a story for another day)
some of yall should try transgenderism
IM SO JEALOUS OF GUYS ON HRT I WANNA BE ON HRT SO BAD FUCK WHY DID I HAVE TO PROMISE MY MOM I WOULDNT START UNTIL I STARTED THERAPY THERAPISTS ARE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE IM HAVING SO MUCH GENDER ENVY GOD I WANNA LOOK MORE MASCULINE SO BADLY OH MY GOD
just got gender envy towards two youtuber and male singers :/
i GOTTA start hrt soon bruv 💔 i want my voice change badly 😭
ever since i came out/realizing i was trans, i started to hate my room decor so im changing it from pastel danish (base white w pops of pastel colors) to gothic and its SO hard when your room walls are white and when youre also poor because college is so stressful so you had to cut your hours 💔
before i realized i was a trans man (genderfaun), i was genderfluid
my plans for my persona was whenever im masc for him to be a siren whilst my fem align would be a fairy
i might still do this but have the fem align be for my agender identity as i still want the fairy
dont wanna give too much away for what my plans are but its gonna be COOL!!!
yesterday, as i was going to my driving lesson, i realized that the random pair of sweats i picked up were the pair of that make my thighs very apparent (im curvy) and it almost made me break down crying 😭
like i love how curvy and fat my thighs are but hate anyone seeing them or any outfits that make it apparent because they cause me dysphoria/dysmorphia because people will see them and go “oh! woman.” since men typically dont got curves like this 😔
normalize big booty men 💔💔 normalize thick thighs men 💔💔💔
❝a vampire hidden underneath the oceans surface…❞
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welcome to my blog!!
⌗𝜗𝜚 Soren ! ☆ he/him/they/them ☆ 18!
>> vampire siren living in a hidden forest who comes out once in a while
my carrd!!! donate to help me get my top surgery!
>> black (🇯🇲🇺🇸) tboy !! genderfaun (agender+demiboy)
>> EST (nyc area)
>> infp/tp, 5w6, ☼ virgo ↑ libra ☾ gemini, 🥮🐕 (狗)
>> pansexual, acespec, demiromantic
>> anxiety riddled and possibly depressed
>> pre-t! hopefully starting late feb or early march!
>> pre-vet student ! (college freshman)
>> animal science, mycology, fungi, plant, bug, marine biology lover!!!
>> i have multiple aesthetics !! (mains are goth, vampire, cottagecore, fairycore)
>> i do art sometimes!! also play video games
>> i fb if i think youre cool…
>> DNI LIST: general DNI. zionist/pro israel (ew). maga / trump supporters. terfs+radfems (hating men isn’t feminism!! xx). misogynists. pedos (or “MAPs”). homophobes. transmeds. transphobes (babes youre on a transmans blog rn… leave). nazis (cannot believe i have to say this). if i think of more ill add more lol
>> my tags!!
> #🪼🦇 : all my posts! > #🪼🦇🐈 : my posts including my cat, Baby! > #🪼🦇vents : my vent posts > #🪼🦇 rants : my rant posts > #🪼🦇🏳️⚧️ : my experiences as a trans man! > #🪼🦇📔 : digital diary entries
ill add more as i think of more
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the only good thing about being on it is that wearing a thick pad makes it look like i have a slight bulge
im so happy being on tumblr rather than twitter since its easier for me to see/interact with other trans men and transmascs
on twitter the only stuff i ever see about transmascs are people denying our existence and experiences and, very rarely, artwork
helllooo!! decided to make a blog since someone recommended me to do so for my mental health :)
hello!! im soren!!
im a pre-t trans man who was blessed by a random rock i found to be able to go on land as human !!
i suffer with really bad anxiety and possibly depression (? going to try to get diagnosed with it)
im acespec, demiromantic, and pansexual!
my gender identity is genderfaun as i go inbetween demiboy and agender
i have found a random cat who i have taken and named Baby :)
i think that is all..
goodbye now!!
i just found out merriam webster has a time traveler feature that tells you some of the words that were “born” the same year as you. it’s pretty neat yall should do this
Dysphoria is an interesting beast, but if you find a way to combat it, then it's worth it to give that kind of thought a try. (click on images for higher detail, individual panels under the read more) Posted 20th July 2024
Damn, I can't feel so sad and alone, like I've fallen into a well, I really want someone to be by my side.
The Demigod and his Lover
You can't convince me Jesus wasn't queer. And Judus was a jilted lover. Both destined to die because of one another. "You betray me with a kiss"
I also totally personally headcannon Jesus as a Trans man.
And like Jesus wouldn't be the best lover. What I mean is he is a giver. Like sure, it's good to be generous, but he wanted to change the world by hand. He was also constantly getting himself in trouble. He threw over the tables of the taxcollecters. He mocked monarchs and said fuck capitalism, everybody gets to eat. He believed in the fundamental good of humanity but was also a chaos gremlin.
He is the half son of one of the biggest narcissistic bipolar gods. And as much as he uses it to his advantage,(like he'd use the "do u know who my father is" for threat and excuse) he also goes around trying to clear up some of his dad's messes. Trying to spread peace and love whether people wanted it or not.
I fucking hate being trans I wish my relationship with my family could be the same as it used to be
I think all men and trans men should take a class about toxic masculinity and how to prevent doing/being it because even if you make fun of it and tell yourself your not gunna be toxically masculine, You Just Might Catch Yourself Doing It. (From personal experience. Unlearning is hard)
“what if kids identify with something and it ends up just being a phase-?” good. stop teaching and expecting kids (and adults honestly) to formulate permanent traits and ideas of themselves. everything in life is a phase. that doesn’t make it any less legitimate while you experience it. let people explore themselves and know it’s okay if what you think about yourself changes.
Best thing about being transgender and also a theater kid is being able to sing both parts in a duet
Alexa play me and my husband by mitski
Am by names of Shamim ,am aged 23years and am a transgender man who lives in camp of refugees in Sudan .
I ran from home after my parents found out that am an lgbtq member ,in this they wanted even to kill me because in islam following in love with your fellow gender mate is Hallam.
In this they chased me out of home and they said that am no longer there biological child at all in this may parents said that l might be cursed .
So l had to move to Sudan ,where l found a certain camp and its called Gorom refugee camp settlement.
In this camp l found alot of people ,and children ,l joined the camp but situation was not good on my side ,no food ,no shelter ,no clean drinking water,still to me as a transgender man l faced discrimination ,homophobic attacks ,still no access to any work because of my gender appearance ,.
Now am in the month of Ramadan and l would love to fast because me am a moslem,but unfortunately as have told u about the situation am passing through some times l fail to fast.
Kindly in need of food ,drinks at least so that l can get Daku .
I wish l could get support from anywhere in this fasting period InshaAllah🤲🤲
Okay but...YES AMELIO SLAYYYYY 🏳️⚧️🇲🇽🏳️⚧️🇲🇽🏳️⚧️
And actually,exist a book called;“Amelio Robles,my colonel” (I don’t know if the book Is also in english), Its Amelio talking about his live to His (sentimental) partner Ana (or somthing like that),and she Is who start to talk about Amelio,then,he start to talk all about His Time in the mexican revolution,His before and after that and how difficult was to him,being who he Is in that Time,also,some histories about the persons what he know and very much things More.
I need a brother like Mario,one who help When the dysphoria kicks my ass so badly 😭
Ok, listen. Trans guy Luigi!
You really wanna play with emotions, huh? Fineee.
So, Mario was the first one to know and the first who supported Luigi's identity.
Luigi suffered a lot, locking himself into the bathroom mostly, when gender dysphoria kicked too hard. He didn't want to bother his brother with it at all.
There were moments when bullies told him he will never be a true guy and Mario made sure, Luigi never forgot how much he supported him and how much of a guy Luigi actually was.
Mario went to each doctor's appointment, supporting his little bro's fear of needles and the doctors. And even witnessed Luigi's first Testosterone injection.
And of course Mario was the first one to be there when Luigi woke up from his top surgery.
Support your local trans bro!
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