Transmasc - Blog Posts

IM SO JEALOUS OF GUYS ON HRT I WANNA BE ON HRT SO BAD FUCK WHY DID I HAVE TO PROMISE MY MOM I WOULDNT START UNTIL I STARTED THERAPY THERAPISTS ARE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE IM HAVING SO MUCH GENDER ENVY GOD I WANNA LOOK MORE MASCULINE SO BADLY OH MY GOD

just got gender envy towards two youtuber and male singers :/

i GOTTA start hrt soon bruv 💔 i want my voice change badly 😭

ever since i came out/realizing i was trans, i started to hate my room decor so im changing it from pastel danish (base white w pops of pastel colors) to gothic and its SO hard when your room walls are white and when youre also poor because college is so stressful so you had to cut your hours 💔

before i realized i was a trans man (genderfaun), i was genderfluid

my plans for my persona was whenever im masc for him to be a siren whilst my fem align would be a fairy

i might still do this but have the fem align be for my agender identity as i still want the fairy

dont wanna give too much away for what my plans are but its gonna be COOL!!!

yesterday, as i was going to my driving lesson, i realized that the random pair of sweats i picked up were the pair of that make my thighs very apparent (im curvy) and it almost made me break down crying 😭

like i love how curvy and fat my thighs are but hate anyone seeing them or any outfits that make it apparent because they cause me dysphoria/dysmorphia because people will see them and go “oh! woman.” since men typically dont got curves like this 😔

normalize big booty men 💔💔 normalize thick thighs men 💔💔💔

tumblr KNOWS what i am

like yes i do like the two men kissing how did you know 👅

❝a vampire hidden underneath the oceans surface…❞

𓇼 ⋆｡˚ 𓆝⋆｡˚ 𓇼 ˙✧˖° 🫧 ⋆｡˚꩜🪼🦇⋆.ೃ࿔*:･𓆝 𓆟 𓆞𓆝

welcome to my blog!!

⌗𝜗𝜚 Soren ! ☆ he/him/they/them ☆ 18!

>> vampire siren living in a hidden forest who comes out once in a while

my carrd!!! donate to help me get my top surgery!

>> black (🇯🇲🇺🇸) tboy !! genderfaun (agender+demiboy)

>> EST (nyc area)

>> infp/tp, 5w6, ☼ virgo ↑ libra ☾ gemini, 🥮🐕 (狗)

>> pansexual, acespec, demiromantic

>> anxiety riddled and possibly depressed

>> pre-t! hopefully starting late feb or early march!

>> pre-vet student ! (college freshman)

>> animal science, mycology, fungi, plant, bug, marine biology lover!!!

>> i have multiple aesthetics !! (mains are goth, vampire, cottagecore, fairycore)

>> i do art sometimes!! also play video games

>> i fb if i think youre cool…

>> DNI LIST: general DNI. zionist/pro israel (ew). maga / trump supporters. terfs+radfems (hating men isn’t feminism!! xx). misogynists. pedos (or “MAPs”). homophobes. transmeds. transphobes (babes youre on a transmans blog rn… leave). nazis (cannot believe i have to say this). if i think of more ill add more lol

>> my tags!!

> #🪼🦇 : all my posts! > #🪼🦇🐈 : my posts including my cat, Baby! > #🪼🦇vents : my vent posts > #🪼🦇 rants : my rant posts > #🪼🦇🏳️‍⚧️ : my experiences as a trans man! > #🪼🦇📔 : digital diary entries

ill add more as i think of more

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the only good thing about being on it is that wearing a thick pad makes it look like i have a slight bulge

im so happy being on tumblr rather than twitter since its easier for me to see/interact with other trans men and transmascs

on twitter the only stuff i ever see about transmascs are people denying our existence and experiences and, very rarely, artwork

helllooo!! decided to make a blog since someone recommended me to do so for my mental health :)

hello!! im soren!!

im a pre-t trans man who was blessed by a random rock i found to be able to go on land as human !!

i suffer with really bad anxiety and possibly depression (? going to try to get diagnosed with it)

im acespec, demiromantic, and pansexual!

my gender identity is genderfaun as i go inbetween demiboy and agender

i have found a random cat who i have taken and named Baby :)

i think that is all..

goodbye now!!

Finally feeling confident enough to take selfies of me, here are some 🫰

reblog if you would hug a trans boy

and if the trans boy doesnt want physical contact, youd give him a sick air-high-five

reblog if you support:

• pre- or non-hrt trans people

• genderfluid/non-binary people who want hrt

• genderfluid/non-binary people who don't want hrt

• pre- or non-op trans people

• tall transfems

• short transmascs

• fat/plus size trans people

• fem trans men

• masc trans women

• transmascs who don't/can't/won't bind

• transfems who don't/can't/won't tuck

• transfems with wide shoulders

• transmascs with wide hips

• genderfluid/non-binary people with facial hair or tits

• genderfluid people whose presentation is static but their gender is not

• non-binary people whose desired presentation is how society says their agab should present

• transmascs who bind but still have a visible chest

• non- conventionally-attractive trans people

• non-conforming trans people

• non-"passing" trans people

• non-stereotypical trans people

We don't all fit into cisnormative society's bullshit stereotypes!

I'm trying to prove a point to some transphobic relatives. Back me up tumblr.

I wish someone would hug me and want to spend the days with me in a special way.

There is a fic (about a fandom i am not part anymore) about a young trans girl figuring out she is trans and coming out to her brother and it just aways hits home

In the fic there is a moment she is explaining to her brother why lesbians are cool and she says "have you never wished to love girls the away girls do?" And it spoke with me. It bring back a memory i didn't remember having

Twelve years old me, that would just lie there thinking and dreaming and wanting something they couldn't shape yet

To want to love boys the away boys do and don't understand why

Because i would read about two boys and know there's something there that i just wants so bad. Being a boy wasn't even a option on my mind and i already liked boys, so there had to be something magical and special about the away boys loved each other

God i wish i could tell little me that we do it now. We love boys that love boys. We got to love boys the away that boys do. And twelve years old me was fucking right, it do have something magical on it.

“what if kids identify with something and it ends up just being a phase-?” good. stop teaching and expecting kids (and adults honestly) to formulate permanent traits and ideas of themselves. everything in life is a phase. that doesn’t make it any less legitimate while you experience it. let people explore themselves and know it’s okay if what you think about yourself changes.

does anyone knows the feeling when you're a transmasc and has a boy name and all, uses both he/them and doesn't like being misgendered BUT is ok to be called a girl or girl compliments if you're doing it yourself?

im completely fine calling myself someone's girlfriend and saying I'm pretty, I'm ok if I wear fem clothes and let my hair grow out a bit and wear make-up but when someone else calls me a girl or say feminine things to refer to me I feel really weird and kinda sad

idk I'm weird and usually this wouldn't bother me but it's bothering now

Every four months for the past three years, I have been like "i think I'm transmasc" for a week or two before coming up with some reason why I'm not. Unsurprising revelation: I am, in fact, a dude. Yay, I guess

realized i never did an intro post on myself here hi

first things first here's my linktree

ok so uh my name is riku, some people call me ricky or roo for short. im 21 years old born on the summer solstice, Brazilian Japanese Romany, transmasc enby, demipan and partnered to a cis dude (emotionally intelligent black excellence tyvm), mentally disabled (ADHD, high functioning autism, cptsd, BPD, fragmented identity symptoms, etc etc), and physically disabled; my mother's family was a performing arts troupe in São Paulo and Registro and i had an accident that my leg didn't heal from correctly - that and spinal/hip injuries from my childhood have left me with a limp since i was seven years old. i walk with a cane now, as i may have mentioned in other posts.

im a full sail graduate, i majored in rhetoric composition/literary studies and minored in abnormal psychology, i'm planning to going back to get my journalism degree - right now i'm a TA for my old prof.'s rhet. comp. course and i also help grade papers for an elementary class, i have a CSR day job but i get it all done.

this next bit is gonna sound a little batshit bananas but roll with me here

there is a sort of alter ego or other consciousness in my brain named Onryoko who is a separate individual from me, as well as a spiritual entity that was said to be demonic in origin that takes up space in my psyche - It doesn't want me sharing It's name yet. my pronouns are i/he/they, Onryoko's pronouns are ele/elu/one/oneself, and It's pronouns are It/Itself - sometimes if one is more alert one will use we/us as pronouns as well. let me be clear - i do not have a dissociative identity disorder diagnosis, nor do i feel the need to get one as i interpret the two of them as manifestations of my higher consciousness and links to the spiritual world - i'm in control and i choose when i allow one or the other to be conscious with me, i don't black out or have amnesia or anything like that. if i am crossing any boundaries or anything or if u know of any communities on here i might relate to please let me know, this is simply how i was raised to deal with this.

Onryoko is whats called o receptáculo for the demonic entity that my grandmother (obatian) on my father's side clocked and neutralized when i was a baby cuz she serves cunt like that, and with that comes being a 3rd gen shaman - Onryoko essentially is our higher self? is how my obatian explained it. i found Chaos magick when i was 15 and the rest is kinda history. Onryoko has another blog dedicated to all that and we're working on content creation for spirituality and occultism; one does free tarot readings right now until i get our shops figured out, if ur interested in that kinda thing come meet us up here ----> @onryoko 🔮

other than that uhhhhhhh i main magik on marvel rivals (ps5 handle is onryoko963, rivals handle is ONRYOKO) im a Cancer sun Leo moon Cancer rising, andddddd i rlly like swimming cuz its the only exercise i can do where i dont die immediately. im very sarcastic and ive been told i have a very "fuck u" energy irl so idk if that will translate here. i dont mean to be mean and if u tell me im being mean i'll make sure im not asap :) ok thats it thanks byeee

Found this absolute gem on Pinterest

genuinely confused on why people think transandrophobia doesn’t exist like seriously it isn’t clicking for me and I want an objective perspective I just don’t wanna talk to people in the comments of posts anymore because I really don’t wanna get in an argument

Felt really shitty and gender dysphoria was being a real pain tonight so here’s a venting doodle I did to try and feel better,

While also introducing my human sona, Riptide! He’s who I what to look like in the future, just imagine a mix of a Goth surfer boy and you get them-

I went from being Pansexual, to Pan/ace, and now Cupid-romantic and asexual.

But for gender I went from She/her to gender fluid, then He/him now he/they leaning towards nonbinary

Everyone introduce yourself by what you thought your OG queer identity was and what you currently identify as

Ill go first: hi I was bisexual now I’m a pansexual aroace

There are few things in this existence as perfect as a McDonald's sprite

I beat a game with only 4 jokers

I feel like a man when I play balatro. "Yeah, I'm a dude, with a poker addiction/gaming addiction."

Balatro is a trans ally

Why do I always wake up at 4am and have to piss??? Not cool.

Finally won the blue deck with this setup

My fat-ass cat has the audacity to cry bloody murder even after getting his 2.5 meals of the day

I painted my nails red and I feel so slutty