"It's your voice, it's your face, it's even your clumsiness All of it... Now I know I hate them all"
- εͺι Dried Flower, Yuuri
Dear friend, dont try to explain me why you think he likes me secretly, beacause I know that he doesn't. I love him, which is the reason I know you dont treat someone you love like the way he treat me.
Love is not love, which alters when it alteration finds or bends with the remover to remove. O no, it is an ever-fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken
I know my live isn't a manga shojo. Its not like when he kiss you unexpectedly and the tension is high and you know they are going to get together at the end. But I was just at that page where the tension was high but you run away from my story like if death was chasing after you. That kiss was life chaging for me but you decided it to be your biggest mistake. I was your biggest mistake.
My heart don't fall again, we promised we won't. Didn't we learn through the pain? Was that not enough? My heart we just come back from heaven and hell. We need to make a decision. One that willl hurt a life time.
You wanna know why I won't come back to you? Because today I'm the adult that needs to protect the little girl that cried yesterday 'cause you broke her heart.
Even when it's bad when you are here, it's worst when you are not.
I don't know what to do.
Talk about my feelings, ask you for space, try to ignore you and forgive and heal myself. Or make as this doesn't matter, like I'm crazy for no reason and get with it for the rest of the year.
I only have this year left with you and I feel if I choose myself, I'll regret no choosing you. Maybe for the fact I know you won't fight for me nor try to stop me of leaving, just like the way you are, the way you feel safe. You said that you don't know what I'm talking about when I try to talk this situation with you, that it's just my anxiety again, that it's all in my head, but we are losing each other...
We both know this has to happen but deep down ww don't want it to end, we prefer to be uncomfortable with each other than to be alone, we are the same. But hating, blaming, hurting myself, makes a lot of people I love worry and you are not what I remember, like if last year was a lie. And I think when I grow up I will try to remember those sweet touches, kisses, hugs and wispers as what we were and not what we have become. I don't want you to blame me for leaving, I want you to stop me and change, but that just a foolish girl dream, it's not like those romantic dramas where they do what they can to be together, reality it's complicated, relationship are complicated, we are so complicated. And I want to make whats better for us withot hurting each other. I just don't know whats that answer yet
Even if somebody else have said o written this already, It's the first time I feel this words very deeply.
"I'm not over him, I'm over our situation".
I try to swallow up my words but they hurt so much, but telling you how much I loved you that I can't never do
even if you're are the reason I cry, I still want you to dried them, please.
i know what I did.
I Want You to hug me, touch me, kiss me, caress me one last time, but my greedy self will ask for more. How does anyone controls this desired to be loved when they aren't for you?
i'm sorry I know you are trying to be nice but if you hug me or pat my head, I didn't care your hands were cold, I know I will fall for you all over again. I just want to save myself from more suffering.
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What's between you and I, it's just a comfortable lie.
I hope you be happy with her even if I dont mean it. I want to see you cry and suffer as much as I do. That its what I meant to say. I'm sorry...
I thinks its the last time I will fall for you. You did really meet another girl. I hate to be the one to keep your secret safe. It would be better if you didnt trust me, like friends. Cause its what we are, just friends. I'm trying to cope with a broken heart and looking at you knowing that you are kissing her cheeks, sniffing her hair and hugging her from behind, just like you did to me but I promise you, she will never shiver at your touch nor smile or love you the way I did.
I know it's normal for the sake of a friendship one does need to stop being in love with that friend but It's difficult specially if they are that friend that you know you'll never come across again. I need somebody to walk me through this please.
I don't want to keep living in this world, it's just so dificut. It's difficult and tiring to interact with people, I even forget that I'm breathing, I'm gasping for air while I drow in this city full of people that will keep living their lives without a care even if I'm gone. I haven't talk to that person yet. But they haven't tried to reach me either so maybe there won't be a difference when I'm gone.
Hey... I saw your recent post about a new way to enter the void state. So last night I tried it twice and sat down(squat) like he did in the video and nothing happened but i tried it again this morning and wanted to stay in that stretched position and everything went black, my body started getting numb, and then all I remembered was that i was on the floor with my arm bruised from falling down(like he mentioned) but idk if it was my bed or my desk that i had hit cuz I wasn't aware and i slowly got up and that's when I started seeing everything around me. For a while i'd say I wasn't even in this world(probably in the void) and i wasn't aware of anything around me until then. Ig I was in the void state and if anybody's trying it out, wait for the numb feeling to kick in and then sit or lay down(any comfortable position) like he says in the video to avoid falling. It was a great experience as if I was detached. Thank you so much for sharing this video w usβ¨
Yes! And please be really careful, make sure to find a safe place to do this, most ideally behind your bed. Iβm sure you were in the void, and all you need is your awareness there.
Okay so I'm no pro with the void state yet, but I just wanted to share sth I just found. Cus we're gonna live our dream life no matter what. And I don't gatekeep. A few moment ago, I came across this video The man is talking about an ancient technique to enter the "no mind state" which means the "void state" and it's really simple. Everything he's talking about in the video is literally about the void state. This is his video's description: "In this video I share a technique you can use to access no mind or the void. The technique detaches the mind from the body and allows the spirit to roam free. Experience anytime the ultimate truth with this simple and easy technique." He mention things like:
-leaving your body -relaxing and peace -knowing how to exist without the limit of the mind -being in oneness -being connected to the source -calm mind You can check the video for the tutorial. Personally, I tried it and I have a problem with holding my breath for a long period. But even just by doing this for like 8 sec, I felt this calm sensation, idk how to describe it. I just tried it at the moment, and now I'm just writing this to share immediately. In the comments, people share their experiences with the technique, and they said things like their body detaching. I really hope this help anyone who are into shifting, and manifesting their dream life. I'm telling you if I entered the void state, my consciousness will probably not be living in this reality, bc I plan to manifest my dream life and it's very different from here. πππ Looking forward to all your success!!!
The man who says he can enter the void, and the man who says he canβt. They both are correct.
Do you realize the power you hold?
Thereβs nothing in this world that can hurt you as much as your thought.
And thereβs nothing in this world that can heal you as much as your thought.
The key to the void is to disconnect from the 3D, the physical world.
*sorry I have to show this in pictures bc I tried to make a post but ig there were too many words and thereβs some error*
I decided to embody the state of someone who always enter the void effortlessly back in January and here are the two event that happened to me.
1. Back in January, I was trying to sleep one night I just closed my eyes I didnβt do anything I didnβt affirm or anything, my mind was just quiet I was just trying to sleep bc i was so tired after my cousinβs wedding. All of a sudden I felt something pulled me backward, I couldnβt hear anything no more, litterally I was in the void. But omfg I didnβt realize that I was in the void, I thought βI just want to restβ everything went blank then I woke up. I was def too tired bc like I said it was my cousinβs wedding and I had to run around in heels helping with the preparation and stuff.
2. This happened like a few days ago, I was sleeping like normal. I was thinking of the void but I didnβt affirm. Then i felt that same pull but I got scared and open my eyes. π
The second one was close bro I was so mad.
So one thing I do notice with two of these events is that I didnβt have to affirm or do anything. I could say the second one was like βintentionβ bc I was thinking about the void.
But the first one when I really got in, the void just naturally comes to me bc obviously itβs a natural state nothing more.
During those time that I embody that state I donβt feel excited or happy as a person who always enter but I just feel it natural
I donβt have to lift a finger to enter the void.
Anyway I always enter the void effortlessly, have always been, and will always.
Stop complaining
Stop hoping
Stop waiting
Stop wanting/desiring
Stop talking about the old story or the negatives
STOP associating with failure/negative whatever
You woke up and realized
βOmg I didnβt shiftβ
βI didnβt get into the the voidβ
Stop saying that, just keep saying βoh i did shift last night oh I did get into the void last nightβ
KEEP SAYING IT UNTIL IT BECOMES REALITY
Even tho you didnβt shift or tap into the void just say YOU DID, YOU ALWAYS DO, YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT.
What you habitually thinks will sink into your subconscious mind, and it will materialize into reality.
It will a create a pattern in which your subconscious mind understands that it is normal and natural for you to shift or get into the void because it has always been natural for you. Your mind will be used to the fact that you always succeed in that.
If you want to change the outer world, your MUST change yourself within.
Stop wasting your time focusing on the negative, use those valuable time on the positive.
The Law of assumption will never fail you.
It doesnβt matter what the 3D shows you.
If you struggle with the void state, I think the best thing that you should do is, first to meditate to get the stress out of your heart. Once u feel better start embodying the state of someone who always tap into the void.
We canβt forget about the law of assumption and Nevilleβs words when it comes to everything including the void. Stop obsessing over the void, if you were someone that already entered the void or always get into the void, would you always worry?
I found out about the void back in november 2023 on pinterest, and I joined tumblr because of it. Last night, I came across a tiktok video with the title "how to know if you're in the quantum field in your joe dispenza meditation". The girl in the video basically said things like: -Being disconnected from your 3D reality, how disconnected you are from the 3d from the meditation. -in order to create from the quantum, you can't be in space time, you have to be in time space. -You can't be trying to create from 3D, you have to be creating from "NOTHINGNESS" -going to your inner world Link to the tt video: https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSF1nWtBc/ That's what she said. It hits me when she mentioned the word "nothingness" because the void is basically also the nothingness. The void is being everything and NOTHING at the same time. And I thought does that mean the quantum field and the void are the same thing? so if we do joe dispenza quantum field meditation we can get into the void? So you can simply go into the void/quantum field thru his meditation? I'm not promoting doctor joe dispenza or anything i wouldn't call myself an expert im just someone in the void community. I just thought this could help you guys! Anyway I found some of his quantum meditation on yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwHLLVvPAng&pp=ygUlam9lIGRpc3BlbnphIHF1YW50dW0gZmllbGQgbWVkaXRhdGlvbg%3D%3D https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3PWmCQMKwEw&t=27s&pp=ygUlam9lIGRpc3BlbnphIHF1YW50dW0gZmllbGQgbWVkaXRhdGlvbg%3D%3D https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_Jz7iy7wN0&t=600s&pp=ygUlam9lIGRpc3BlbnphIHF1YW50dW0gZmllbGQgbWVkaXRhdGlvbg%3D%3D I'd recommend doing the first one which is 1h 30mins bc idk it seems better. It may be long but do it for your desire life. Note: English is not my first language, I have never posted sth like this before idk if my explanations is understandable. I just want to share this everyone in the community.!