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My heart melted, this is the best mention ever, so cuteeeee x

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psssst this is inspired by @angelaness post 💗 thought it was sooo cute

Wake up - lecture - 10 km run - gym - relaxed and did a little pilates whilst listening to zb1 - ate salmon - prepped for a nice dinner in a cave - did yoga - cried over meongddocat - alone time vibing to music - journaled - languages

some pics 💗

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Wake up - stretch - sink routine - breakie - sketch - bedrot from cramps - skip lunch - binge Lucifer - have broccoli+sweet potato for snack - listen to Nissan Altima by Doechii and Flu by IVE on repeat - drink 3 cups of green tea while watching more Lucifer - dinner - shower - stretch - wind down by listening to IVE empathy album - gonna play LADS rn :)

9/10 day

All pics are mine, so consider this a collage of my day

Who am I kidding, I also enjoyed

I have a close friend who’s being forced to study economics even though she hates it in another high school. She’s so miserable she literally wants to k!ll herself , and for what? Just because her parents think it's a "smart" career choice? This happens all the time kids pushed into STEM or business fields they have zero passion for, just to meet their parents’ expectations.

the lesson is : Not everyone is meant to be an economist, doctor, or engineer. Killing creativity for the sake of a "stable job" only creates unhappy, burnt-out adults. A career without passion is just a slow death.

like Imagine ur dream is to become a lawyer or want to study criminology (that's my friend dream ) like fr imagine waking up every day dreading what you do, forcing yourself through a field and studying something you despise, just to end up in a job that drains the life out of you. That’s not success it’s suffering.People say, “You’ll thank us later.” No, she won’t. No one thanks their parents for making them miserable sorry . No one looks back and says, “Wow, I’m so glad I sacrificed my happiness for a degree I never wanted.”

But if she fails? If she breaks under the pressure? Then suddenly, it’s “Why didn’t you tell us you were struggling?” As if she didn’t. As if they didn’t hear her when she said she didn’t want this.

this is a reminder to choose what you love not WHAT OTHER LOVES even if it's parents/friends/ teachers ...

your blog is so pretty and interesting! I'm thinking about keeping a digital diary like you

So You Want to Start a Digital Diary? 📖✨

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First off

THANK YOU xx for the sweet words about my blog! I’m just out here oversharing my chaos, but if it inspires you to document your own adventures? Hell yeah. If you don’t know where to start, here’s a massive list of ideas to help you dive in. You can always add a twist to yours!

DAILY LIFE & REFLECTIONS

One-Line-a-Day – Summarize your day in a single sentence.

Small things – That perfect cup of coffee, catching the bus on time, wearing an outfit that slayed.

Mood & Weather Logs – Track how the sky and your emotions shift over time.

Apparently there is an app called sunset and it uses your location to help you know exactly when the sun is setting on your end and reminds you to take a pic- it's like bereal for sunsets

Overheard Quotes – Funny, weird, or oddly profound things strangers say.

CREATIVE CORNER

Playlist Diaries – Make a monthly playlist and write why each song matters.

Doodle/Art Dumps – Draw your emotions, even if it’s just stick figures.

Poetry Prompts – Write a haiku about your socks. Or if you're a hard whiskey/gin girly then try capitalism as a topic

Idk much about alcohol so idek what I'm saying

Fandom Rants – Scream about your latest hyperfixation.

My currents: Tom Ellis (as Luci ofc), Mads Mikkelsen and Caleb (yes this is about LADS) and Me ( that's irrelevant, but I love me)

PERSONAL GROWTH & SELF-DISCOVERY

Letters to Future You – “Hey, 40-year-old me, did we ever figure out taxes?”

I do something similar but physical, I go and buy a really good looking card with renaissance art on the front and write about my month on there and keep it for my future self, I was planning on doing weekly letters to have 52 at the end but... Yknow.... Procrastination.

Gratitude Jar – List 3 tiny things you’re thankful for daily.

From me today: my hot water bottle, sunbathing, my pile of clothes in the corner of my room (coz many don't have the privilege I overlook)

Fear Log – Write down a fear andburn it (digitally, don't set your laptop on fire plz), then reflect on how it changes over time.

Bad Advice Column – Answer your own problems horribly. “Stressed? Eat the syllabus.”

WORLD OBSERVATIONS

Photo Challenges – Capture “something blue,” “something broken,” “something beautiful.”

Hot Takes & Reviews – “Ranking every subway station mural” or “Why do we say ‘bless you’ to sneezes?”

Book/Movie Rants – Write reviews like you’re texting a friend. “This plot twist? Jail.”

You already know how I feel about Lucifer (Netflix), I'm feral for him #lucifan✊😌

UNEXPECTED TWISTS & RANDOM STUFF

Dream Journal – That one where you married a sentient waffle? Yeah, write that down.

Thrift Store Finds – The uglier, the better. Invent their backstories.

Food Diaries – Review gas station snacks. Debate pineapple on pizza.

I need to see someone do this plz

Soundtrack of Your Life – What song plays when you’re sprinting to catch the bus?

Mine have always been :

TIPS:

Embrace the cringe!!! your diary, your rules.

Why are you expecting tips from me — you already I don't care and I've been oversharing, and that's how I want it to be.

Now go forth and overshare! (And if you start one, tag me—I’d love to cheer you on! 🥳)

I cannot believe this

GOOGLE ADDED 110 LANGUAGES TO GOOGLE TRANSLATE AND MY MOTHER TONGUE IS THERE, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS IS FREAKING AWESOME IM CRYING IM SO HAPPY AHHHH

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Lucifer 😩, not so painful cramps, hot water bottle, ices coffee, green tea, Luci, folded laundry, oh did I mention Lucifer? Lucifer😽

7/10 day but feeling like a 10/10

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I did my laundry today 😊

Surprisingly made me feel good, consider this a thing to add to your to-do list if you haven't already.

Also I'm not privileged enough to have a washing machine at my disposal and I've got to wash everything by Hand for 2.5hrs, so saying laundry was a feel-good activity isn't a light praise.

However, I had some bad cramps, I've been cramping since last night and I think I'll get my period tomorrow and it might hurt so bad I will get hallucinations like last time (tmi I know, sorry)

Apart from laundry, I did breakfast today, ran some errands, and well, survived the day.

There is no WiFi rn, apparently all routers of the same network provider (which is basically half the country) are experiencing difficulties atm, hopefully they'll fix it tomorrow.

I've been binging Lucifer (Netflix) and mannnnnn, I love that series so much it might be my fav, it's so funny and silly and intriguing. I'm particularly drawn to Lucifer himself, the actor (Tom Ellis 😽🫶🏾) played the role so well I was annoyed yet pulled in by his arrogance and cocky manner. Well let's not even begin with his handsome face 😼🙂‍↕️ mmmhhmmm🫦 (sorry, guys that's the hormones speaking)

7/10 day, oki bye

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OK so I lied... I didn't learn new html magic, I was itching to download substack so I did, and omg why did no one tell me about that app 😃?!!!??!!!

Substack is the app I'd be (I wish 🌚)

I've been listening to all those sick essays and writings and poems and I'm so utterly in love with every one's mind and articulation Urgh.

Anyways it's 9:40 rn, I'm gonna do my doulingo lesson then get on with fixing my website, maybe I'll share the updates soon with yall; I use neocities 😼, but the website I'm working on is for my alter ego but I'll make another for my main so dw)

Here's a cat I met recently, I told her pspsps 😻

9/10 day :p

Me fr, I'm not even joking

creds: @angelyrswqn

OK so here's some of my works 😛

(edit: why does tblr blur the preview urghhhh, plz plz plz, click on the image to see the best quality)

The one I finished yesterday (that's not poop guys, it's a raisin swirl Danish pastry💔)

More from my sketchbook:

1 and 2 are just glimpses of what I look like, I think the second one is more accurate 😼

This is my fav lol^

Then the big guys:

The first one is a self portrait for the prompt escape which was for my Year 11 art finals, I got a B 😄 (they snubbed me 😒, but I didn't have the best art teachers, so I'm self-taught. I felt overwhelmed when I piled the components; I did everything by myself, so I don't mind, and I'm proud of my grade)

Click all to view on full plz🙏

As you can tell I enjoy drawing faces, and not painting them/using colors on them. I would go to the Mars before that happens (I'm afraid of color on faces 💔)

Me and graphite are attached on the hip (I like being able to erase mistakes 😓)

OK bye

@2456788sworld since you asked teehee

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WIFI GOT PAID MWHWHHAHHAHA TIME TO LEARN CODE 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

10/10 day

I was sleepy while drawing this, tell me if you wanna see my actual art— the real deal [confident]

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Day 3 no WiFi, been using my data sparsely kill me rn💔I just wanna go and watch YT coding tutorials for hours don't do this to me 💔

Look at my lunch tho 🥲

7/10 day, pay for the WiFi plzzzz💔😭

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Entry +extra!!!

Nothing remarkable happened today. I went to town, hoping to find one of those portable mini magnetic chess sets—something small enough to keep in my bag, ready to unfold on a round café table for a spontaneous game with a stranger. But that idea remained a daydream.

On a serious note, I really need to get back into chess and other brain-stimulating games. Speaking of which—guess what? I solved a Sudoku puzzle today! It reminded me of my pre-smartphone days when I was a teenager obsessed with listening to the radio on my button phone (no, I’m not joking), hoarding newspapers just to cut out the comic strips, check my horoscope, and tackle the puzzle section. I was a genius back then. We love the fast-paced internet, don’t we? :D

Why Chess Should Be as Essential as Your Phone

Think about it! How often do you reach for your phone in moments of boredom, waiting, or awkward silence? Now imagine if, instead of scrolling, you pulled out a mini chess set and invited someone to play. The game becomes a conversation starter, a test of wit, and a window into the way another person thinks. You could be sitting across from a stranger, a friend, or even an elder with decades of experience, and through the game, you'd share a dialogue that goes beyond words.

Chess isn't just a pastime, it’s a tool for patience, strategy, and creativity. It sharpens your ability to plan ahead, recognize patterns, and make calculated decisions, skills that translate into everyday life. It’s like strength training for your brain, keeping your mind flexible and engaged.

We often talk about the lost art of deep conversation, but chess naturally invites it. A single match could lead to discussions about life, philosophy, history, or just casual banter. It breaks down social barriers and brings people together in a way that mindless scrolling never could. So why not make chess as essential as your phone? The connections, the stories, the lessons. It’s all there, waiting on the board.

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There’s no WiFi at the moment, so I’m using mobile data. I didn’t do much today—just ate more dates, got my hair done (cornrows this time!), read a little, and did some drawing. A solid 9/10 kind of day; nothing can ever be truly perfect.

Here’s the playlist for today, and honestly, I have no idea why no one is talking about Tie a Cherry by CL. It’s incredible.

It's not the best curated playlist but it's just songs stuck in my head.

OK bye.

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I missed 3days so I'll post the loser playlist tomorrow 😔

I'm eating dates rn tho, yum.

9/10 day, tomorrow I'm gonna try and draw something

I did these today will delete later (graphic design is my passion 😼):

I have a 3rd even better pic but it's kinda suggestive, features me, and isn't the vibe of my blog :p

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Chill day ngl, made this yummy broccoli and carrot soup for my sick cousin and took a small boul of it and it was delishhh in the most simplest way

Mundane day I had, daydreaming about baking, oh yesterday went wrong so I'm glad I had nothing to even think about today lol

8/10, couldve done something more productive but come onnnnn, it's a Saturday. Maybe tomorrow I'll take out my nasty old braids ✌🏾.

imagine talking shit about me and I'm just in my room like :

attitude ive

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Happy valentines 😘💞

1/10 day for me 🤩

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Day b4 vals, no gf or bf 💔

Today I simply existed and did things I wanted to quit but alas, here I am thinking about them again

Here what I make for brekkie today tho.

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I had a conversation with my aunt today. University came up. And for the first time in years, she said, “You should do what you love. I don’t want you to do something just because other people tell you to. It’s your life.”

And I just sat there. Because what the fuck?

Where was this energy when you told me art is just a hobby? When you told me I had to do architecture because money? When I spent years convincing myself that the thing I loved most in this world wasn’t real enough, wasn’t valuable enough to be my future?

Where was this when I forced myself through physics and math, subjects that drained me, killed my confidence, made me feel stupid and small? Where was this when I spent night after night feeling like a failure because I couldn’t mold myself into what you wanted?

And now, after all that, you’re suddenly saying, “Yeah, do what you love.” Like I didn’t just lose years of my life trying to be something I’m not. Like I didn’t break myself over and over again trying to meet your expectations.

And the worst part? I don’t even think she realizes how much this is fucking me up. How much I hate that she can just say that now, like it’s easy, like it doesn’t matter that I wasted years of my life because I thought I had no choice.

It’s like someone keeping you in a cage your whole life, telling you there’s no way out, telling you it’s for your own good. And then one day, they just open the door and go, “Oh, you can leave if you want.” And you’re standing there, shaking, realizing you could’ve walked out a long time ago.

And now I’m supposed to feel grateful? Relieved?

I don’t. I feel angry. I feel lost. I feel like I want to cry and scream and tear my own skin off because what was it all for?

I could’ve taken art in Year 12. I could’ve gotten A*s. I could’ve been confident in my skills instead of scrambling to prove to myself that I’m not a fucking idiot. I could’ve spent those years thriving instead of suffering.

But no. I had to do physics. I had to do math. I had to sit in classrooms where nothing made sense and watch my grades drop and feel like I was slowly disappearing.

And now you tell me it’s okay, I can do art? NOW?

And what if I do? What if I actually go ahead with it? Is she secretly going to sit there thinking, damn, she should’ve done architecture? Will she be supportive on the surface but secretly waiting for me to fail? To regret it?

Because that’s the thing with African guardians. You never really know what they’re thinking. They’ll say one thing but mean something else. They’ll act like they support you, but in their head, they’re already preparing for the “I told you so.”

And maybe that’s what scares me the most. That no matter what I do, I’ll always feel like I’m on the verge of disappointing them.

I hate this. I hate that I even have to feel this way. I hate that the thing that makes me happiest in the world is the thing that feels like the biggest risk. I hate that I’m still here, questioning myself, wondering if I’m making a mistake just because they made me believe it was one for so long.

And I can’t help but think… if I had been allowed to just be myself from the start, if I had been supported instead of redirected, maybe none of this would even be a question.

apologise for the vent, for souring your scroll, but I feel like I'm at my limit, this has tangled up my brain, and as scary as it sounds I feel hopeless, pointless, I don't fucking know, I don't want to think any more. Fuck.

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Slept in, accompanied cuzo to the hospital, came home late, now in bed

7/10 day, see it doesn't take much to make me have a fulfilled day.

lesson N2 | the 100 Lessons to Change Your Life

forgive yourself

Why are you so hard on yourself ml ? Please, take a moment to breathe. I know you carry so much weight in your heart, constantly questioning every little thing you do, replaying moments in your mind as if you're not enough. But please read this "you are enough". You always have been. u don't need to hold yourself to impossible standards. Mistakes? they are simply part of your life not the definition of who you are.You are allowed to make mistakes, just like everyone else. You are allowed to be imperfect, to stumble, to fall, and still rise again. It's okay. You don't have to be so hard on yourself. Please be gentle with your heart , sometimes we forget that the most important relationship we have is the one with ourselves. Treat yourself with the same love, understanding, and care you would give to a dear friend who’s feeling lost.Please, let go of that guilt you’ve been carrying for so long. It’s weighing you down, but you don’t have to carry it anymore. It’s okay to release it. Your mistakes are not failures they’re the lessons that have shaped you into the wonderful person you are becoming. You’ve learned, you’ve grown, and that’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of.Take a deep breath ml u deserve this moment of peace, this moment of forgiveness. You don’t need to have it all figured out, and that’s okay. Please let yourself off the hook. Be kind to yourself. There is no need to carry around guilt, regret, or self-doubt. You are worthy of love, of compassion, and of patience, especially from yourself.I know it’s hard to be kind to yourself sometimes, but please remember you are worthy of every ounce of love and understanding you give to others. Be kind to yourself as you would to the softest, gentlest cloud passing by. Let yourself rest, forgive yourself, and breathe deeply in the knowledge that you are already enough, just as you are. You are allowed to begin again, to forgive, to heal, and to move forward with a heart full of kindness and grace.

@bloomzone

OH MY GOD GUYS BELIEVE ME I DIDN'T MEAN TO IM BACK HOME IM SORRY FOR MISSING A DAY I CAN FUCKING EXPLAIN DON'T SHOOT ME 😭🙏🙏🙏

HERE'S ICE CREAM (with moringa and chia seed powder sprinkled on top ☺️) BEFORE BED PLZ LOVE ME 😭💔

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Idk what happened to the post I just made but basically:

I'm sick and tired man, I just wanna go home.

I don't have money. I only got for transport to the bus station and money for the ticket back home, I mean, I don't mind not eating shit since I do fasting alot but goddammit.

I don't know if I'll even have money to call my driver to pick me up once I reach. URGHHHHH fml

0/10 day

I'm writing using my mobile browser and it's just Urgh take me homeeee ☹️

Thursday Musings - 060225

I was planning on rewatching Lucifer the whole day today but my cousin asked me to accompany her to the dentists office and since I wasn't sure where I'd take a 15hr trip to the other side of the country or not, she advised me to pack a carry on bag incase my aunty calls and tells me that the solo trip is still on while we are still at the dentist's.

Guess what 😃

My aunty called and told me I should pack up and head to the bus station, but good thing I already had the bag with me at the dentist I guess

Well, as you may have guessed by now, I am Not thrilled about this, as I type this my butt cheeks are losing feeling and blood circulation it's not even funny haha 😐

10 more hours to go :D

2/10 day, (told you it would be worse) would've been a zero but I downloaded the entire SZN 1 of lucifer on Netflix and boy is he hot and cocky (just how I like em)

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Woke up, went for parents meeting on behalf of aunty, came home, went to airport to drop off uncle, he is travelling at night, came home, extremely tired and dehydrated for some reason so now I think I'm getting a headache :D

4/10 day, and it's gonna be worse tomorrow

bye.

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Guys I'm too tired rn ngl, it's currently 23:06pm, I will edit later but just to sum everything up: was planning on sleeping the entire day but my friend and her sister came to visit meee!!!!! >o<. Then we went to her sister uni to drop her off for her afternoon class and we waited nearby and had fun chatting :D then I remembered I had another friend2 in the same uni and so I told her I was around and she too had a class and came out 3hrs later shortly after my friendinlaw (my friends sister lmao) we chilled for a bit b4 friend2 invited us to her student dorms but I had to leave cos my uncle wanted to go out with all of the family so I dunt get to even enjoy 30mins in the dorm :(

but yeah, 9/10 day

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Today was a 7/10 kind of day—pleasant, with moments of comfort and chaos all together.

The morning started off easy, though I felt a little achy. Still, nothing a good breakfast couldn’t fix. I made my uncle’s meal and treated myself to a sausage sandwich—sautéed sausage and veggies tucked between slices of bread, crisped to perfection in the sandwich maker. Paired with white coffee, it was divine. I might switch things up with pancakes the day after tomorrow.

Then came the mall run. I stocked up on fruits and juice boxes for my little cousin’s lunch, got bread for tomorrow’s breakfast, and picked up kale and spinach for dinner. The plan was to buy liver, but the supermarket had none—so I went with goat instead. A blessing in disguise, because the goat soup we made turned out amazing. Rich, hearty, with mixed greens on the side—chef’s kiss.

The afternoon took a turn. We left for my sister’s place, a trip that should’ve been 30–40 minutes but stretched into a nightmare of traffic. An hour and 35 minutes of constant stopping and starting left me car sick beyond belief. The nausea was unbearable, so I did the only reasonable thing—knocked out and slept through it.

Once we arrived, the visit was lovely. My uncle had his time with my sister before his travels, and we stayed until nightfall. The drive back? A blessing—30 minutes, no sickness, just a smooth ride home. A peaceful ending to a day that had its ups and downs.

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This morning, I decided that my usual sunny-side-up simply wouldn’t do. Sundays deserve something a little more indulgent, a little more special—so I let my egg transform into golden, cinnamon-kissed French toast. A small luxury, but a luxury nonetheless.

The rest of the day? A delicate balance between leisure and productivity. Too Hot to Handle had me in a vice grip (no regrets, I love that game), but I still managed to weave in moments of purpose—gathering ideas for my alter ego’s literary journey, tending to the house, and looking after my little cousin. Life, in its quiet rhythms.

And then, there was Animal Farm. A book I’ve picked up twice before, but never quite seen the way I do now. It’s fascinating how stories shift when read through older eyes—how words once skimmed over now demand to be felt. Perhaps this time, I’ll listen.

Today was a 6/10. Not extraordinary, not mundane—just a day, simply lived. Could I have done more? Maybe. But sometimes, being present in even the smallest moments is enough :)

Up next is a long post so be ready to read and not brain rot!!!!

This is gonna be a monumental change for me :)

Im going to give my blog a fresh start