Thoughts On Wayward Son

Thoughts on Wayward Son

Okay, so here I go. Don't know if this will be long or not but I need to express my thoughts.

I read WS non-stop in one sitting and the pace was really fast and kept me going. I really did enjoy it. I love how much the world expanded, the new creatures that we met and the further explanation of the way the magic works is amazing. Also I love Shepard with my whole heart, he was a great addition to the group and helped with their dynamic plus it was interesting seeing them through a different perspective.

Now about Penny, I did enjoy her progress, even though Micah is a shitty person, it does makes sense and it helped Penny mature more, plus I liked her development with Shepard and her friendship with Baz!

Agatha... I didn't like her very much in Carry On but in WS I liked her chapters and how by the ending she kind of accepts that magic is part of her.

Now Simon and Baz, it broke my heart to see how they didn't communicate about their feelings, like they were hoping that by looking at each other the other one would understand what was going through their minds when it obviously doesn't work like that. It's kind of ironic that the magic system is based on the power words have but then they don't use them. It was frustrating to say the least.

I just wish I could take Simon by the shoulders and tell him "You matter, you're worth it, you're so much more than the chosen one, you don't need magic to be happy, you deserve love". It hurts to see Simon feel suffocated but also loving Baz and not telling him his feelings. I wish he would've continued going with the psychologist.

Baz also suffers a lot throughout the book, it's painful to see how much he loves Simon and it's beautiful but also sad how happy Baz gets when Simon kisses him. I loved all the cute moments between them, but then most of the time they went back to square one so that was confusing to me and really emotionally difficult to see.

I did love seeing Simon get jealous but then how is Baz supposed to know this if they don't really talk about it? Again, frustrating.

We all knew that Simon was depressed, but I was hoping the book would show Baz helping Simon get through it, both of them, together. Instead that didn't happen.

Then every time a cute scene/moment (by the way, chapter 41 is beautiful) came I was hanging onto them for dear life. I felt like "okay maybe I can handle it". But no, something else came and they never had a break.

By the ending, I was getting hopeful as Baz saw Simon lying there, thinking he was dead and called him "love". I thought that would've been the point that would made them talk to each other, but no, Simon didn't hear it.

Then Simon carried Baz and didn't let go of him showing how much Baz means to him. I thought okay so maybe this is the time they're finally going to tell each other how they feel in the beach scene...

It's sad to see how Simon does not know how much Baz loves him. It's heartbreaking how Simon thinks Baz would want to stay with Lamb (also fuck him). But I loved Baz's response, that quote is beautiful. Then Simon's reaction came and it crushed my heart. I wish Simon would've shown a small smile or just take Baz's hand or something. It really frustrates me how Baz is hopeful but then Simon shakes his head, that confused me and is what angers me the most, I wanted a little closure, just a little bit of hope and that would've made me happy.

Finally, Penny comes in cutting the conversation and clearly hinting at a third book which I'm anxiously waiting for.

Overall I loved Wayward Son, but I'm unbelievably frustrated and desperate to see them communicate. Just talking would've made everything better. I feel like they talked more at the ball at the end of Carry On than they did during this whole book.

Carry On was the perfect balance for me, when I finished it back in October 2015, all I felt was happiness, I fell in love with it and it was my go-to book for whenever I felt down or reached a reading slump. Now WS just makes me feel sad.

It breaks my heart how much I love them and how much it hurts to see them this way.

I don't think my heart will ever mend from this, at least until the next book comes out.