buxtry
and the mortifying ordeal of being known Graham | transman | 30s | three crows in a trench coat
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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.
BECAUSE YOU DEMANDED IT, I'm back with more Sad Boat Books for Sad Boat People! But first, some words.
I never dreamed that a silly little graphic I made for some friends would generate this much response on twitter and here, but I'm overjoyed that it resonated with so many of you! I read every single comment and tag, and by far my favorites are all of the people who say some variation of "I thought I was the only one who loved these books." We are NOT alone, there are literally thousands of people who reblogged or retweeted this list-- people of all ages and backgrounds and gender identities. Sad Boat isn't just for old white men! I was also delighted to hear from other librarians who are using this in displays and for reader's advisory. PLEASE go forth and do so with my blessing, nothing would make me happier! I was recently laid off from my librarian job as part of a restructuring under new management (don't worry about me, it sucks right now but I'm gonna be fine), so I would love to think that I'm still contributing to the library ecosystem while I'm out of commission. I would also love to keep making these lists (including one that deals with Sad Boat fiction and one with recommendations for other types of media), and I've never had more time to do it, so if you have suggestions, please drop them in my inbox!
Anyway, enough of that-- here are more books! I've either read all of these, or the recommendation came from someone I trust, so read with confidence!
First Hand Accounts
The Quiet Land: The Antarctic Diaries of Frank Debenham edited by June Debenham Back
The Voyage of the Discovery by Robert Falcon Scott
Farthest North by Fridtjof Nansen
Endurance by F.A. Worsley
Boats boats boats!
Franklin's Lost Ship: The Historic Discovery of HMS Erebus by Alanna Mitchell and John Geiger
The Voyages of the Discovery: The Illustrated History of Scott's Ship by Ann Savours
HMS Terror: The Design, Fitting, and Voyages of a Polar Discovery Ship by Matthew Betts
The SS Terra Nova (1884-1943): Whaler, Sealer, and Polar Exploration Ship by Michael C. Tarver
You'll learn about the Ross Sea Party and you'll like it
Shackleton's Heroes by Wilson McOrist
Shackleton’s Forgotten Men: The Untold Tragedy of the Endurance Epic by Lennard Bickel
The Ross Sea Shore Party 1914-1917 by R.W. Richards
The Lost Men by Kelly Tyler-Lewis*
Polar Castaways by Richard McElrea and David Harrowfield*
*These were on my other list, but this is my graphic and I'll do what I want
Sad Airships and Planes
From Pole to Pole: Roald Amundsen's Journey in Flight by Garth James Cameron
N-4 Down: The Hunt for the Arctic Airship Italia by Mark Piesing
Antarctica's Lost Aviator by Jeff Maynard
Disaster at the Pole: The Tragedy of the Airship Italia and the 1928 Nobile Expedition to the North Pole by Wilbur Cross
More Shackleton Content
Shackleton: A Life in Poetry by Jim Mayer
Shackleton's Last Voyage by Frank Wild
The Quest Chronicle: The Story of the Shackleton-Rowett Expedition by Jan Chojecki
Shackleton's Forgotten Expedition: The Voyage of the Nimrod by Beau Riffenburgh
Polar Partners
Snow Widows by Katherine MacInnes
Polar Wives: The Remarkable Women Behind the World's Most Daring Explorers by Kari Herbert
Widows of the Ice by Anne Fletcher
Sad Boat Graphic Novels
Shackleton: Antarctic Odyssey by Nick Bertozzi
The Worst Journey in the World- The Graphic Novel Volume 1: Making Our Easting Down adapted by Sarah Airriess from the book by Apsley Cherry-Garrard*
How To Survive in the North by Luke Healy
*This was also on my other list, but this is my graphic and I'll do what I want
Biographies
Scott of the Antarctic by David Crane
Ice Captain: The Life of J.R. Stenhouse by Stephen Haddelsey
Cherry: A Life of Apsley Cherry-Garrard by Sara Wheeler
Birdie Bowers: Captain Scott's Marvel by Anne Strathie
Roald Amundsen by Tor Bomann-Larsen
Miscellaneous sad boat books that are well worth your time
I May Be Some Time: Ice and the English Imagination by Francis Spufford
Fatal North: Adventure and Survival Aboard USS Polaris, The First US Expedition to the North Pole by Bruce Henderson
Barrow's Boys: A Stirring Story of Daring, Fortitude, and Outright Lunacy by Fergus Fleming
Pilgrims on the Ice by T.H. Baughman
The Coldest Crucible: Arctic Exploration and American Culture by Michael F. Robinson
Ghosts of Cape Sabine by Leonard F. Guttridge
Icebound: Shipwrecked at the Edge of the World by Andrea Pitzer
If you read and enjoy any of these, please let me know!
EDITED TO ADD: OG Sad Boat Books post here!
🦀🎉🦀🎉🦀 Henry Kissinger is dead 🎉🦀🎉🦀🎉🦀
bitches will see the word garlic and hit reblog
THE KILLERS: MR. BRIGHTSIDE released September 29th, 2003
"We think you're in an unhealthy relationship with Blackbeard" CON O'NEILL as Izzy Hands in OUR FLAG MEANS DEATH (2022-) Episode 2.01 Clip
*including weird little girls who grew up and realized they were not girls and weird little girls who didnt know they were girls yet. also this does not imply that you grew out of said interest. i didnt grow out of mine. also if you had multiple pick the most intense / primary one <3
from now on your tumblr nickname is whatever you get from this sexual identity generator ☆
Ohhhh myyy goddddd
i love the specification of "alive" in the people magazine "sexiest man alive" award. clearly they're worried about ötzi the iceman sweeping the competition. as they should be.
please do not ask me what my plans for the future are, im quite literally still not convinced that i am even a real person
omg normal people dni actual PERVERTS and DEPRAVED WEIRDOS with GROSS ABNORMAL EROTIC FIXATIONS only
PREHISTORIC PROTO-MONKEY: I don't need ascorbic acid. From my cells. I eat fruit all the time dude. I'm better than that OTHER PREHISTORIC PROTO-MONKEY: I agree with your lifestyle and will fuck you raw to prove it GUY LOOKING FOR THE NORTHWEST PASSAGE 36,530,125 YEARS LATER: ow oof my shitty british teeth
Deadline on Twitter had a landscape version of this yesterday: I'm not sure how to embed it. (Here's a link to their page that has the slightly longer version of the video, and links to the tweet here.)
listen, I do not condone historical misinformation, but there is nothing I get delight out of more than this absolutely batshit article from a religious website that unironically lists Flint as a mythological god of pirates
Could you reblog this if you enjoy seeing your writer friends ramble about their wips on your dash?
the “pleasure to have in class” to overly active tumblr user pipeline
so embarrassing when i forget im checking someone's blog and i start scrolling through and liking and reblogging shit as if it's just my dash. it feels like wandering into someone else's apartment and not noticing and making myself lunch
Laszlo Cravensworth and his fun day at the beach
reblog to enlist your mutuals in building the House :)
You ever think about how Shivers was *wrong* only once
Unless I missed something, this is the only time Shivers is wrong. It’s not supposed to be; Shivers is the spirit of the city describing itself to you as a matter of fact. When it says there won’t ever be a club for anodic dance music in the church, it does so because it’s the metaphysical truth… …except it isn’t. Fueled by his complete desire to BUST A MOVE, Harry makes possible what shouldn’t be — and for the briefest of moments, a true anodic music club *does* exist where it *cannot* exist. For the entire game, you’re a receiver for Shivers. You can tune into its different frequencies with varying degrees of control over the process, but it’s always one-way communication. Until this very moment, where against all odds, you transmit a message back. Shivers says, “there will never be a club for anodic music here”, and you bark back, “oh yeah? Fucking watch me”. And so it watches as something impossible happens, as you prove it wrong — and so it reveals itself to you as La Revacholière, for it understands you might be the only entity to ever exist that can heed its warning and save it from its fate. The moral of this story is that through anodic music and **busting moves** you, too, can change the universe. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knOXppaqBYY
Hi hello, you all need to see Ray Troll’s kitsch masterpieces:
It’s just too good. this is the pinnacle of cool dad art. I’m getting a t-shirt. Oh yes, i’m getting one. You bet your ass. you bet your bass! Ha! It’s spreading!
nice place dude. sure is a lot of chintz around
I'm glad quetzalcoatlus is dead. they deserved it. those things scare the fuck out of me. I wouldn't want to live in a world where those things weren't extinct and I probably wouldn't have lived long regardless of whether id want to or not bc I'd be eaten by a quetzalcoatlus
Hey. Why isn’t the moon landing a national holiday in the US. Isn’t that fucked up? Does anyone else think that’s absurd?
hey folks,,,,,... glad 2 b here on tubblr . here's a little self-portrait of me,, a human male
before you post, remember S.T.O.P.!!!!
are you SEXUALIZING that old man?
does that old man TURN you ON?
POST.
“Fuck it, we slay” (heavy eye bags, dehydrated, on the verge of insanity)
Watched the Oppy documentary. Feeling some kinda way.
Do you think there are aliens singing songs to the UFOs in the New Mexico sky?
if i was a vampire i would be so scared to shapeshift into a swarm of bats because what if i get stuck like that