Bulim14 - Blog Posts
ever just zone out and start questioning everything??? keeps happening recently, stressing me out slightly.
two months ago in psych ward
would love some wine but don’t wanna become alcoholic again after 2months in psych ward
finally 43kg
need 4kg more 2 lose (157cm 43kg rn but wanna b 39kg)
age: 23
height: 157cm
weight: 44,5kg
goal weight: 39kg
fave foods: rice cakes with hummus, bulgur, lentil salad, tomato soup, cashew nuts, haribo gummies
interests: horror movies, black camel cigarettes, green apple/creamy tobacco vapes, books (by nabokov, bukowski, guy de maupassant, burroughs, baudelaire, mieko kawakami, virginia woolf…), dogs, bunnies, vanilla scents, juicy bomb lipgloss, philosophy…
music: the smiths, deftones, radiohead, depeche mode, velvet underground, soundgarden, boy harsher, david bowie, sky ferreira, the doors, gorgoroth
i gained ten pounds and broke up with my boyfriend
Now i’m like the soul sucking extremely depressed and hopeless mentally ill instead of the manic 🌈💕🌸 mentally ill where i felt good but knew it was bad
LIKE MY POST TO GET SKINNIER OR SOMETHING ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️this is the only form of social media where I show my face 😭 so I'm not too worried about people finding me I love my severely triggering communities though 😝💕
idk why I'm posting this tbh
Intro....ig...heh....
lol I'm a girl and hate most guys except for my boyfriend (he looks like a girl)
I'm 16 and kinda a on and off anorexic and bulimic and I think I have bpd but I feel like a poser cuz I cant try to be diagnosed or anything
I love sh but I'm low-key so lazy about it that I don't do it that much anymore (kitty scratches 4ever😻) I hate summer cuz I cant do it now too
i will probably post body checks or if I think I look cute or something (key word *THINK*). Or I'll probably write about stuff idk
I might just kill myself if anyone I know sees this tho haha
PLEASE CAN I GET MOOTS 😖😖😖😖
Feel better by Penelope Scott is the ultimate relapse song
I need purg!ng tips asap, I need this community to actively help me right now💜.
The being unable to see even one little detail of some weight loss makes me feel like a disgusting fake.
Can’t wait to get some autonomy with food because of uni, so I can keep on going without anyone noticing/knowing.
550 Cals for today! Ate quite a bit for little Cals!
Lunch: 350 -
creamy tomato soup
2 homemade mini chicken tacos
Dinner: 187
Deer roast- 67 (ate a small amount)
Small corn cob with butter- 120
Probably over estimated but better safe than sorry.
I ate a higher amount than I'm pleased with. 830 calories and I probably over estimated but I ate at a restaurant so I'm not sure how many calories there was in general.
Grilled chicken- 170 but rounding to 300 incase of any oils. (Didn't taste any but not sure)
Fries - 300 (pretty sure I'm over estimating, they looked and tasted baked and there wasn't much fries at all, maybe a little over a serving?)
Few bites of bread with a small amount of butter - 80
Ketchup-50
Eggs blueberry waffle - 90
820 Cals in total but I really feel like I over counted and binged at the same time.
How do I purge effectively? I wanna throw up so bad but it won't work
Things to do Instead of eating!
• Go on a walk
• Read
• workout ( recommend Shirlyn Kim!)
• clean your room
• Take a Everything shower
• study
• go shopping or online shop
• Binge watch Movies
• talk someone
• Draw
• scroll on tik tok
• listen to music
• make a new playlist
• paint your nails
• write
• learn how to play an instrument
• hangout with some friends
• try a new makeup routine
• spend time with your pet
• sing
NO MORE FAT. I ANOREXIA. I NO EAT.
I threw up my food, yet I peed myself a lil bit. Umm idk😭
It’s embarrassing how I’ve been wanting to lose weight since I was 12. I’m 20 and I keep losing the same few pounds every time. Like bitch it’s time to lock in and get to your ugw of 95lbs.
❄️If I don’t lose weight by Christmas, Santa isn’t the only fat fuck who’s going to be flying off the roof…🎄⛄️