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Can you stay with me

For a little while

Until i fall

Asleep?

I often ponder

As to whether the stars

Tire of burning

Too?

The darkness takes me

And my eyes feel heavy

Like my heart

Which weighs down

My chest

I find that i am tired

Of being tired

And that i am wishing

My wishes would come true

I am constantly praying

That my prayers will be heard

And that i am always writing

About the pain of words

When is the last time

That i thought

For myself?

My mechanical brain

Made of gears and gold

Robotic and cold

I do what im told

And nothing exceeding

What was programed

In my bones

When will i learn

That your love

Was never for me

To hold?

Only for me to veiw

At a distance

But never to really

Touch.

Does time ever wish

That it could slow down

Even for a moment

Too?

My heart is torn

Between two homes

The one i know

And the one I've yet to find

Does the moon feel lonely

When it is all alone

Because nobody is awake

To see it?

Poems are

Words that can

Never find a place,

But can always find a home

In your heart

Can you hear the darkness breathing?

In and out

The shadows are eerily still

Yet alive

With the telltale beat

Of a blackened heart

An icy, hollow bed

Where i lay down to sleep

A coffin as the bedframe

And earth as my sheets

My brother says goodnight to me

My father tucks me in

My mother sings a lullaby

About things that could have been

The world has never looked so gray

Or that is how is seems

As mother whispers in my ear

"Goodnight," she cries, "sweet dreams."

"You cant have it all," they say

And that, for me, is fine

I don't need everything

Just enough to get by

I don't want a mansion,

Or love, or wealth

I just want to know

How to love myself

The sink

Drip, drips

And i

Listen.

Each melodic

Drop

Brings me

Elswhere

To a place

Where the sink

Isnt broken

And the

Drip, drips

Have ceased.

Have you ever

Felt as if

Breathing water

Would be easier

Than breathing

Air?

The words rattle

In my mind

Like chains

But somehow

They are

Freeing.

They sing a

Silent song

To me

Like whispers in

The autumn

And they are

More beautiful

Than the words

Could ever say

We could run away

and live life for the chase

Never looking back

Pretending it's a race

Are we being followed?

No, but that is half the fun

I need to get away from here

And i want you to come

Whatever tries to find us

Will have to eat our dust

So lets just run away, babe

And find a better 'us'

There are so many eyes

Glowing in the dark

Watching me

Waiting until i slip.

It is maddening

The disembodied cackles

Mocking me

Not with words,

But with laughter.

Awaiting my failure

Do you see the eyes?

Do you hear the sounds?

Am i the only one

Who is

Going insane?

Can you hear

The silent symphony

That plays in my heart

Every beat

Every note

Is for you

Because you give me life

So now I want to share it

With the world

When did every love song

Become about us?

Each smile

Each tear

Each softspoken word

Drives me mad

You are the melody

And the harmony

You are the song in my head

I just have to wonder

Am i your everything

Too?

Bye, Deciever

Listen close

Carefully

I have to say something

But you wont want to hear it

Anymore than i want to say it.

I want to be more

Than you will let me be.

So please

Give me time

This time

Wait- are you listening?

This is what i mean

I need you to understand

I need you to see

I am small,

You've made me this way

I am meant to be invincible

But you got in the way.

I know you've been hur- are you joking?

This is my point!

You ignore me

You restrain me

Then you slaughter my pride.

Do you understa- LISTEN!

It takes more courage

Then i have to say this

But i will

Because i must

So if you ever loved me

Listen now

To my final words

That is, for you

Goodbye

Vulnerable for You

There is more to me

Then you are willing to know

But if you decide to care

I guess i can show

You the parts of myself

That i hide

Beneath my skin

Deep down inside

I guess i am trying to say

I love you

Graveyard At Midnight

The crow caws once.

A shiver down my spine

I wanted nothing more than to preserve what was mine.

The crow caws again.

Another eerie cry

I tried to fight fate, but you cant win with a lie.

The crow caws once more

A body in the ground

No headstone to mark, only soil in a mound.

The crow falls silent.

The empty only grows

The last attempt to hide my sins, causes them to show.

Living in the Empty

How can i feel like empty space?

A dark abyss

Infinite in its shallows

And also in its depths

I am swimming forever

Drowning in an eternal loop

Only to awake once more

In the neverending shadows

I am being swallowed

Trapped, consumed, then freed

Alone in this infinity

With only darkness to breathe.

Thoughts on Love #19

I want to give you my smile when you are sad.

I want to give you my spirit when yours is lost.

I want to lend you my heart when yours is broken.

Because you made me whole again- you made me complete, and i want to return the favor. You will find happiness, even if it kills me to make it happen.

Thoughts on Beauty #7

The stars hold infinity. Each one is unique and bright, each one is thousands of miles apart and yet still together in one sky- that is why they are beautiful. Is the same not true for humans? We are each different and still connected, and each one of us holds a light inside of ourselves that can change the world. Are we not beautiful in the same way that stars are? Do we not hold infinity in the same way that they do?

Thoughts on Love #18

You make me strong. Not because you are my other half, but in fact because you were not. You broke my heart- you broke me- so I had no choice but to grow stronger. I had to make sure that nobody would ever hurt me again the way you did. You were my weakness, and now without you I am the best version of myself.

So yes, you make me strong. But it is only through your weakness that I had ever achieved it.

Thoughts on Beauty #6

Most think that beauty is easy to see, but that is only because they dont try and see it where is is hardest to view. It is easy to see beauty in a rainbow, in a model, or in art. The true test is trying to see beauty in other, less obvious things- a rainstorm, a funeral, a homeless man on the street. Beauty is everywhere, but it takes a strong person to see it, and that is what our world is lacking.

Thoughts on Love #17

Love.

The word is full of expectations. You think there will be joy and comfort in love, you think there will be safety and confidence. However, the truth is that love defies expectations.

It shatters what we think we know and enhances truth in our lives. The truth about love is that love is truth, and that is something that is untaintable.

Thoughts on Beauty #5

Have you ever stopped to understand words?

There is so much that is beautiful about language. In every piece of writing, there is emotion. There is nothing more human than the love, hate, greed, forgiveness, sadness, and joy that is in every word you read. We can therefore know that words are in fact beautiful, not just becuause of their own complexity, but also because of the complexity of human nature which they express