Oh Wait I Thought Of Something To Post

sorry gng

fell asleep for three days and was only woken up when i smelt the first ashes of civilization starting to fall.

i am ready to be silly online once more

do i understand the lyrics? absolutely not. i can't even read the titles vro

do they still go fucking hard? absolutely.

probably gonna be listening to a lot of skramz to keep myself awake today. ama :3

also sometimes i forget that all of the thoughts i put here are literally public and then i start tweaking out like "oh god what if i make friends on here and then they find out i'm a freak"

like i mean obviously i'm a freak by being on this side of tumblr but i'm still embarrassed by the level of it D:

phone is pretty much completely broken buuuut my laptop cam still works :3

13 :3

Dirty talk

Specifically really graphic, visceral dirty talk (explaining what you want/want to do to or with me in great detail)

Or just descriptions in general. I've been realizing that I actually enjoy erotic literature (when it's not... y'know, cringe) and I think slow, gradual descriptions of scenes is really one of my favorite things

Beyond that, tears, mental illness, glasses (not even sexual I just think they're cute), and like uhhh I guess even though I hate showing it, I do really like being doted on. Like a mother or something who just wants the best for me. (I never really got that much attention if you couldn't tell)

last post of the night (...probably...)

i NEED to get drunk and send people incoherent, horny asks on tumblr. or just incoherent... that sounds equally fun.

or high. i get really fucking horny when i'm high for some reason.

addendum addendum:

long story short, i guess i'm just so obsessive over little things. i suppose i need to live by the motto "it's easier to beg for forgiveness than permission," but it's much harder than it sounds. the thought of someone not forgiving me (even if i barely know them) is unbearable.

ugh and i'm SO worried about either talking too much or too little. it freaks me out when i type a lot and someone responds with a few words or vice versa.

anyways weird depressive rant over, back to the freaky and the weird... probably. might come back later if i don't get over this.

sometimes i wonder if i'm too nice for my own good

as much as i love the IDEA of doing it, i'm really awful at degrading people because i want everyone to feel good :D

it mostly comes from a place of anxiety, i guess. like a voice in the back of my head that tells me that everything i'm doing is wrong.

oh what a dilemma i have found myself in... i'd appreciate any tips if people have them, mostly about swallowing that anxiety (even though i don't think anyone would really read this)

i'm bored, gng.

watching gravity falls for the first time since i was like 12??

i just finished watching adventure time earlier today, i was planning on posting a silhouette pic with a fun caption but i forgor

i would literally be so easy to kidnap

just tell me you're going to give me sour patch watermelons and the world will never see me again

and it'd take me like a solid 30 minutes of being in the van until i realize that there never were any sour patch watermelons

Goofy ahh semi-serious rant

The main reason I don't really talk about my attraction to men is that I don't really want attention from them on here. At least cis men. They're usually just selfish or think that they're owed something that they're not. To anyone reading this, you don't have to give anybody (especially pushy men) any of your time and attention.

Don't get me wrong, I love men!

...irl, at least. I've only dated men/masc people irl. Although a couple were almost completely online but they were not sexual.

It's just that women (and trans men ofc) are usually FAR more patient and respectful. There are exceptions of course, as there are with any sweeping generalizations, I'm just speaking from experience and what I've seen from a lot of people on here.

Long story short, men be cautious while interacting. Here, there, anywhere. 90% of the time you won't even get what you want. Be a kind and interesting person FIRST AND FOREMOST. Sexual stuff is fine, but that's not what a majority of people want all the time.

Sorry if I said anything unintentionally offensive, I'm really terrible at wording my thoughts in contexts like this. Ask for clarification if necessary :3

Rant over