elwiewie

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Edblr how are we

Kinda back now

Fuck me for being so bad at everything lmaooo

I’m going back to starving

I wish to get my main dc acc back :((

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

Ngl an ana coach would be nice.

I started a whole new routine and it's so much better than it was.

As much as I don't like working out and sweating I decided to put effort in.

An hour and a half on the treadmill is not that much.

I need a boyfriend to scream at me when I gain and let me starve and to buy me cute gifts when I lose weight

𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚎𝚕𝚜𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚋𝚊𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚢? 𝚒 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒 𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚎𝚍. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚒'𝚟𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏-𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚝, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚝. 𝙸'𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑. 𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒𝚖 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚌𝚔 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎

I AM SURE

You are sure you will lose weight

You are sure you will lose weight fast.

You are sure you will drop kilos.

You are sure the number will go down.

You are sure you will f@st for longer periods.

You are sure you will stop b!nging.

You are sure you will r3strict more.

You are sure you will prg when you need to.

You are sure your metabolism will speed up.

You are sure hunger will go away.

You are sure you will see a thigh gap soon.

You are sure you have the self-discipline to f@st.

YOU GOT THIS. KEEP GOING. YOUR STRONG ENOUGH.

I don't like vanilla cherry diet coke but I feel like I need it, because it would probably prevent me from eating.

I was "fasting" all day but ate at night when I came home so it feels like I cheated. 12 hours basically out of the window.

I don't understand why I can't stop myself. Not too long ago was so easy.

holy fucking shit vivien DO IT FOR THE HIP BONES THAT YOU USED TO BE ABLE TO SEE, DO IT FOR THE RIBS YOU USED TO BE ABLE TO SEE, DO IT FOR THE "omg is that your bone?" WHEN HE WOULD TOUCH YOUR SHOULDERS, STOP FUCKING CAVING!!!!

So new years! Yippee! Things are gonna get better and I will be skinnier.

RE-BLOG IF….

- You FULLY support recovery and WANT people to recover.

- You think people should AVOID “@na coaches” AT ALL COSTS.

-You are against “f@t-sp0” . (becosue it’s just down right wrong.)

Aaa i am so bad at blogging damn. I have been neglecting my tumblr so much im sorry :((

Hi! The link to your discord server isn't working

Yes i am aware! For a little while i disabled the invs because we had traffic. Please if ya wanna join dm me :>>

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ DISCORD SERVER

I made a discord server for 18+ @n@/m1a/3d peeps who like anime and games!

There are lots of stuffs there already lmao. Gaming channel, anime channel, vent and a bunch of 3d related ones like th1nspø, m3alspø, tips and shared mesdia! You can reccomend your favourite music, movie that triggers you.

There is not a lot of people on it, and it's still under "construction", so suggestions are welcome!

Link:

https://disboard.org/server/1174491466287030303

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER

I decided that I am kot gonna date things lmao. Kinda feeling mentay frustrated, so I hoped a break would make it better. It, in fact, did not.

I am in one discord server and people are really really nice, but I feel like I abandoned that server and I just dunno. I'd like a community where I can ramble about my silly things and people motivate eachother to push through things. Don't get me wrong, like I said they are really nice, motivating and everything. I just feel like I didn't connect much, but that can be just me.

Anyhow, a gaming-ana server is what I wanna make. For sillies that are like me idk. I might just need more friends lmaoo.

Also I have been fasting for two days now but my period just decided to come, so ugh. Fortunately whenever it happens I don't feel much hunger, so I can just fast and be happy. I am planning on going til saturday because I am meeting up with a friend that day and we already made plans to visit a café. Im sure he will make a suggestion to eat something somewhere too.

So yes yippee. That is for this update. I might restart the logging.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER 1-2

The last week was shitty in terms of starving myself. I plateaued at 73 and I haven't been gaining which is nice, but I haven't been losing either.

Because of the holidays, birthdays and other events I couldn't avoid eating normal amounts but sadly I have been craving things I haven't craved in a long time and it's making me crazy.

For example I really don't like white bread, yet I broke my 72 hour fast after the 27th hour because I had this instant need for it. I looked at the slice, conteplated only a little and bit into it. It was such a big slice too. I knew I can't eat it, that I shouldn't eat it, yet I still did.

Fucking other weight losing tactics haven't worked on me before only starving myself did. Only restricting my calorie intake to 800-400-200 did. What am I supposed to do? Stop because I failed even at something so simple like not fucking stuffing my mouth?

I even ate KFC like a pig. Ate the grander and the twist thing then drank the pumpkin spice shake. I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't stop. The craving and the hunger for it was too much.

God I wanna cry. I wanna tear everything out. They were so good, but for how long? Until I finished watching a moist critical video, which was 10 minutes long.

Why can't I wait? Why can't I control it? I hate it so much.

I hate food. I don't want it anymore.

The week been so shitty goddamn. I wanna tear all my organs out. Yippee.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 26

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➀ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Monster energy zero - 14 cal

➀ Tortilla with with tuna, corn and light mayo - 211 cal

➀ Tortilla with tuna, corn, broccoli, cheese and tomato sauce - 386 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 611 cal

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Steps - 9482/10000 - 381 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 381 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 25

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➁ Green apple 309g - 180 cal

➀ Tortilla with with tuna and corn - 545 cal

Water - 1.6l/2l

Full - 725 cal

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Steps - 8698/10000 - 353 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 353 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 24 + WEEK SUMMARY

I was so absent gah daym. I binge watched trigun again then watched trigun stampede and grrr the brainrot was so real and strong (curse you knives for being so crazy and yet so appealing for my brain) and quite honestly I just didn't bother to write logs.

The whole week been really chill, mostly spent my time at home mainly because I got kinda ill...for a day lmao. After that I was just kinda tired all day so I stayed in bed, only woke up to do my nails, which took me 4 days btw because Im not a professional and I wanted it to be perfect.

So yes, I only logged my food down in the tracker and wasted away. Makes me kinda sad, kinda guilty but at the same time it is what it is.

AlsonI noticed that now it's not as hot and warm outside so my body doesn't "crave" water so I forget to drink and that's not good. It makes me hungry and bored so I often catch myself wandering in the kitchen, opening and closing the fridge door to see if my stomach wants anything other than meat, veggies and fruits. Not too big on eating carbohydrates and if I can I will avoid it even tho my body supposedly needs it. (I was a hypocrite today tho I craved rice and gave)

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 350ml - 0 cal

➁ Green apples 287g - 166 cal

➁ Eggs 106g - 152 cal

➁ Bowl of Basmati rice with tuna, corn and broccoli - 700 cal

Water - 1.6l/2l

Full - 1018 cal

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Steps - 10217/10000 - 410 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 420 cal

I am so bad at blogging my things lmaoo. At least i didn't eat today, tristamp kept me distracted for a little while 💕💕

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 17

Waking up early is never a pleasant thing, since family is home and they remind me to pack food. Fortunately my mom gives a lift to my brother who starts really early, so she wasn't be able to force me to bring food and my sister and father doesn't really care.

It was so cold today I could see my breath in the air. My dumbass also forgot to pack handcream into my bag because my hands dry out because of the chilly air, so much that it's starts to cut up or something. I could wear gloves sure, but it feels restricting.

Alsoo! I weighed myself in the morning and I was 73.5kg! When I was talking with my best friend I could see it on my face an neck how much thinner it is already so I am really happy.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 300ml - 0 cal

➂ Green apples - 291 cal

➁ Homemade margherita pizza - 204 cal

Water - 1.7l/2l

Full - 150 cal

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Steps - 8249/10000 - 330 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 330 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 16

Today was surprisingly really cold, but fortunately not as cold to have the winter coat out just yet.

Other than going to school and coming home, nothing really note worthy happened.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➁ Boiled eggs with hot sauce - 156 cal

➁ Green apples - 139 cal

➀ Tuna with hot sauce and light mayo 62g - 134 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 429 cal

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Steps - 8973/10000 - 359 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 359 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 15

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Green apple - 78 cal

➀ Boiled egg - 72 cal

Water - 1.5l/2l

Full - 150 cal

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Steps - 10391/10000 - 419 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 419 cal

High Protein, Low Cal Foods

(Per 100g)

Eggs: 12.6g protein, 147 cal

Black beans: 8.9g protein, 132 cal

Lima beans: 7.8g protein, 115 cal

Corn: 3.4g protein, 96 cal

Salmon: 22g protein, 206 cal

Broccoli: 2.4g protein, 35 cal

Cauliflower: 1.8g protein, 23 cal

Bok Choy: 1.5g protein, 13 cal

Chicken: 31g protein, 165 cal

Beef: 26g protein, 259 cal (pork is very similar)

Canned Tuna: 24g protein, 128 cal

Legumes: 9.7g protein, 139 cal

Peas: 5.4g protein, 84 cal

Chickpeas: 8.9g protein, 164 cal

Tofu: 10g protein, 83 cal

Greek yogurt: 10g protein, 59 cal