Latest Posts by filminah - Page 6
april aches (among added actions)
google dictionary really came in handy for the title this time i missed out march my bad, it's in my drafts somewhere, i'll post it another time. anywaysss, its the easter holidays and i should be studying but i really don't have the motivation, which sucks alot because exams are soon and i still have all of macbeth to cover. at this rate i really don't think my gcse grade goals are going to happen. MINIMUM i wanted 7s in everything and a 6 in french. however, right now it's looking like a whole ton of 5s my 16th birthday is tommorow! oh and my first official exam (french speaking) is on the 25th wish me luck i'll turn it all around Amimi
things i've been doing lately ( and things i should do be doing)
- notion, i found just messing around and looking at inspo on pinterest helped me a lot more than looking at videos - watching videos for learning - corbettmaths vids are soooo helpful - trying not to stress (kind of failing but we'll get there) - making a revision timetable for school and sticking by it kind of a lackluster supposedly weekly post but we'll get there eventually until next time! Amimi
woah, tumblr updated?
finding the new display for when you click on someones blog weird, like i’m so used to it being on the far right of my laptop screen so to have it displayed in the middle just looks.. wrong.
last episode of euphoria s2 is out tommorow bitchhhhh
time to go on a binging spree
exam season is in less than 100 days , mocks are soon (and i’m fucking screwed)
21:05 - Wednesday 16th February
SOOO IM GONE. - french mock tommorow, i’ll likely do foundation french (which i’m not too bothered about - makes sense since i can barely speak my own language let alone learn another one) je ne suis pas parle francais
- mock exams on the first week of March - that includes every subject, HOPEFULLY, i can do further maths and maths and do them well.
- ENGLISH IS A MESS. i haven’t even STARTED macbeth and i need to cover it in a week and a half in time for the literature mock - holy shit don’t even get me started on english language - story writing can suck a dick, i’d be the sickest damn fantasy author ever to the point i’d boil my spaghetti in JK Rollings tears BUT EDUQAS REQUIREMENTS ARE THE MOST IMAGINATION LIMITING THING - it’s literally like non-magical harry potter went to a public school. - math, math, MATH - so i got dropped from set one recently, but i was given the chance of a two week trial and if i did good i’d move back up, ends in two days so wish me luck! haven’t posted lately due to being real busy but i thought i’d give you all a lil study update until next time Amimi
🌹 a flower for everyone not feeling their best today
january jive (jovial and joyless)
yes, alliteration in the title of every monthly random diary/mood/whatever this is post is going to be a thing now sooo i had my careers interview not too long ago which was actually pretty cool! now you ask (because i’m sure you’re dying to know), “was it anything like what you were expecting???” no - i was expecting it to be incredibly formal actually but it wasn’t at all, in another school nearby who had theirs back in december everyone was told to come to their interviews in formalwear - which i’m glad we didn’t do because i would be agonising over the perfect outfit. also i turn 16 in exactly 76 days waowwwwww - so i’m already considering part time jobs and such but it’s crazy crazy because i have no idea how to apply even after my job interview. my job interview was just a very nice old person (a self employed gardener) asking me about things i liked, stuff i’m currently studying, interests and how they tied in to what job i’d like to do - and also asked about what my siblings do which i’m wondering as to why that’s relevant but hey, brotherthing 1 and brotherthing 2 i really hyped you up. (catch that dr seuss reference :DD ) @mohkomx bday also went by and i did my best to quickly whip up a birthday card which turned out okayy! but omlll, on the night before the envelope i had bought ripped because the card was slightly too big to fit - and so i did my best to follow a so-called easy origami tutorial to make an envelope - then i gave up halfway through and held the thing together wish pretty gold washi tape. 9/02/22 - i somehow put this in my drafts and just never posted it lmao wtf, better late then never
thoughts after finishing euphoria (s1) (pt3)
18:47 - 23 Jan 2022
i suggest checking out the other two `thought while watching euphoria` posts before reading this one! SPOILER WARNING - OK BUT THE ENDING - THE CHOREOGRAPHY AND MUSIC OH MY GOSHHH LABRINTH AND ZENDAYA REALLY ATE THAT SHIT UPP. - love fez #fezcosupremacy - cassies figure skating scene had me on the verge of tears, I love the callback to her childhood and innocence through the use of it, and like the costume being almost the same blue to the doctors scrubs?!! - FUCK NATE JACOBS - the fight between nate and his dad, when nate was screaming you could hear the pain and anger. - MADDY FINDING OUT ABOUT THE CAL JACOBS TAPES - i was NOT expecting that. - mouse is horrifying, like he hasn’t even gotten violent or anything but his presence just manages to give you that silent kind of fear. posted a bunch this weekend so don’t expect anything until later this week, i hope to do a season one overall review, maybe analysis?? and binge season two when all the episodes are out that’s all for now! ~ Amimi
thoughts while watching euphoria (pt 2)
23:22 - 22 Jan 2022
SPOILERS
- kats a shitty friend, like come on girl, you can literally hear maddy crying and you blow her off so you can give snakebite guy (who you’ve met like once before) head?
-fuck
nate
jacobs
(further explanation isn’t necessary)
- also another thing i noticed is in nates little monologue about traits he likes in women, he strays away from anything masculine - forcing himself away from anything that could pertain to his sexuality
- the parallels between nate and his dad are disturbing as fuckk
, the scene where he met jules as tyler gave me chills, like when he stuck his finger in her mouth??LITERALLY the same words and tone. meeting maddy at the motel too.chills.
- zendaya is amazing, like so so amazing
- to clarify about the unrealistic portrayal of teenagers, i am not referring to the drug culture, i mean the way they talk, dress in school, kat is a fucking camgirl and in highschool. yes, drug culture is prevalent among teenagers almost everywhere and euphoria puts it centre stage, if i had one thing to comment about it though, fez is a bit too caring to be rue’s dealer, letting her into his house, paying for the fentanyl..so on so on. - want to see more of lexi, her position as cassies sister and rues childhood friend makes her very interesting. we’ve just started ep 5 bitchhhh, its almost midnight though, so post tmrw. ~Amimi
euphoria (first thoughts)
17:22 - 22 Jan 2022
just started binging euphoria and thought i’d share some stuff that came to mind a : this show is like visually amazing - like holy shit, costume design, effects, and oh my gosh can we talk about the hallway scene where rue’s high off her mind and everythings spinning? - that was some next level cinematography and set design right there b : a LOT more graphic then i was expecting, like they really put the detail into every scene, warning that some stuff you may see (if you haven’t alr watched it) can be triggering c : not a realistic portrayal of teenagers at all, could have easily set them as being in college or even like early uni days - idk if its different for an american audience but teens over here do not act like that. d : casting and acting is cool but in some small moments i find it lacking, like kat’s a bit too calm for a girl who just got explicit videos of her leaked, because if that was real i would be crying my eyes out. so far i’m halfway through ep three but i’ll do another post when i’m done watching - feel like the twists and turns have lacked the shock factor but that’s likely mainly because i’ve watched all the spoilers on tiktok. i’ll post some more later today or tmrw so look out for that!! - Amimi
in dire need of 90s movies recommendations
send me some my ask box
happy new year
notes for future me (because 2022 is in three hours)
New Years Eve 2021 - 9pm
-confidence - work on speaking to people, noones going to hold your awkwardness over your head
(and anyone who does deserves to have all their movies spoiled and their favourite characters brutally murdered)
- study your ass off - this is your last year in secondary school. do well on your gcses and mocks. make it count, you want that scholarship you have to work for it. - you do you - let’s try to be ourselves and not care too much about other people and their irrelevant opinions this year and never cry over those who are undeserving Next year I want to sincerely better myself, please work on yourself too. I’ll see you next year ~ Amimi
26/12/2021
study/diary post
general - motivation is something i’m really lacking, mock exams for sociology and french are in jan starting the week of jan 17th - i’m also expected to prepare myself and write applications and such for mock interviews with real employers. it’s weird because i don’t feel old enough to be doing these things, i’m not sure if that’s because of covid or if it’s due to other reasons. times passing awfully fast but slow at the same time?
english - i need to start going through macbeth which has already proven to be a challenge, shakespeare really isn’t my forte - language is something i’m really struggling on too - when it comes to timing and reading questions properly and not panicking - a christmas carol, lord of the flies and macbeth are the three books that will be covered in the literature exam - i hope i’ll be able to go through macbeth and completely memorise all three by march
wish me luck!
au revoir pour le moment ~Amimi
christmas day (and a christmas carol)
Sat, 25th Dec 2021 - 3:18pm
Merry Christmas to all who celebrate!! last night (or rather early this morning) I had a cute small interaction with the first blog I ever followed here on tumblr years ago and was so starstruck I didn't sleep for an hour lol. this is kinda silly but i'd like to think it was the worlds little christmas present to me, cheering me up in these crappy times. since i don't celebrate i'm probably just gonna binge movies as there are lots streaming on tv today and i'd like to get started on some movie reviews that'll be gradually posted in the upcoming weeks so look forward to that! in honour of today, i also plan on finally reading A Christmas Carol in its entirety and also for the sake of revising for literature and being somewhat productive today. as of tomorrow, I plan on revising for my upcoming sociology and french exams in late jan/early feb as well as catching up on literature. although languages and shakespeare don't exactly come easy to me so we'll need motivation for that! - i'll be sure to post about it and keep you updated! while writing this post i also came across the new beta editor and so far its pretty cool! i hope you liked this amalgamation of a studyblr/diarypost?! see you soon! until next time! ~ Amimi
the person reblogging this from you is rooting for you to have a happy, healthy, and successfull 2022
a note regarding personal diaryposts
6:36pm - written immediately after last post you might see me post something simply titled 23/12/2021 Diary with no content - this is due to an issue where i can’t post things privately and have to post them as public before turning them private - please pay them no mind! many thanks Amimi
something new
Thu, 23rd Dec 2021 - 6:23pm
heyo! as you can see changes have been made, i hope you like them! to pay homage to my og 2019 phase i decided to keep my pfp bts themed lol
things to look forward to in the future
more scheduled posts after new years ( at least one post a week )
movie and book reviews
studyblr content
possibly extra content to do with writing on the side?
monthly diary posts
that’s all for now!
Amimi
a keepsake
just a screenshot of how my blog looked during my lil tumblr adventure from the ages of 12-15 - something to look back on and remember since i’ll change it all
moving forward
00:05am - written immediately after previous post. my tumblrs been neglected due to my focus on other social media and shitty life stuff in general. planning to focus my spare time and attention solely on here and on this blog, i’ll probably move away from dark academia and shift towards my more recent interests and studyblr things but i’m unsure as to what exactly yet. having champage problems and in dire need of sleep ~ Amimi
december daze (depressing af)
Wed, 22 Dec 2021 - 11:28pm -11:57pm
damn that
alliteration
decembers been kinda dismal ngl,
(take a shot every time you read a word beginning with d on this post)
feel like i’m in a daze, these past 5 days of christmas break have been lying in bed and listening to p!atd and maggie lindemann on repeat.
(productive i know)
it’s crazy to think i’ll be finishing secondary school within the next few months
i feel like i was robbed of two years of my life and it’s so weird because it’s like how can you feel nostalgic for something that was never there?
nostalgia in definition is
a sentimental longing or wistful affection for a period in the past
that’s not quite what i feel. i have a longing for a period in my past that never happened. i don’t feel wistful affection. i feel grief and loss for a time that never was. i’m almost 16 but i don’t feel that way. i feel like i lost what would have been two of the greatest years of my life and it’s like damn, 2020 and 2021 happened in a blur. where did they go.
(love that over dramaticness for me)
exams will be done and over with within the next 6 months, i’d like to make the most of that time inbetween studying to experience what i lost in that time stolen by covid.
NOTE:
i’d like to do monthly diary posts like these as something for my future self to look back on - from now on i’ll be including the date and times i started and finished writing posts at the top.
til next time ~Amimi
november is a no from me
i’ve been away from tumblr alot due to a mix of problems and exams, this blog has been really inactive and it sucks. gosh and bonfire night is supposed to be the best but here i am - lets hope things get better by the third of december so i don’t need to wish i were heather
september sucks dude
i always feel braindead at the start of the school year, any of y’all the same? gosh, i have a trigonometry test tommorow and my head hurts thinking about it
nostalgic academia
- cleaning your room and finding old souvenirs from places you’ve been, notes left in blazer and cardigan pockets - religiously drinking out of only the swirly straw cup you bought from the national space museum all those years ago - looking at old polaroids, trying to commit every blurry inch of the pictures to memory - reading old notes you passed in class back from when you loved him - reading your old text messages with him, laughing, crying and cringing, til tears patter onto your screen - thinking of better days, back then with them (and you) i felt inspired again today, i was cleaning out my room and found lots of old notes and pictures and spent an hour looking at them and thinking til i cried, kind of wishing i was the same naive 13 year old. looking back at my intro at the start of this page makes me happy and sad, even if i haven’t been the most active or followed user, i remember every single post i’ve written and what i thought when writing them, all the emotions. it’s weird and miserable and magical (get that 22 reference ;) yes taysway) until next time with all the love a person can possibly muster, Amimi
another list of romantic things i devastatingly yearn for
- painting together (or having a paint fight with one another) - sitting on the back while riding a motorcycle together - sitting in the back of a pickup truck together while enjoying the breeze - shy little glimpses and smiles, talks after school/work in the empty office/classroom or getting engrossed in one another even though everyone is around - texting til you fall asleep - saying goodnight its been a long time since the last proper post, haven’t been that well mentally ig, but i hope you liked it :)! for all the new people seeing this post, check out the other list which you can find on my tumblr :) *shameless promotion* until next time Amimi
me who hasn’t posted in an annoyingly long time
sorry bois, bros, girls, people, guys, cats, dogs,otherkin and aliens - i’ve been more focused on school and mosque lately - especially with ramadan - i’m gonna try and make posts bi-weekly and que stuff up so my 42 besties have something to work with lol feeling kinda shitty and wanting to squeeze something and watch the life drain out of it’s eyes - Amimi
my mom says she’s not a hugger. but when i put my arms around her on a gloomy day or after bad news she’s the last to let go. my dad says he doesn’t want gifts on his birthday, but i see the way his face lights up when i get him a card with a nice message and a box full of chocolate anyway. he’s just a kid inside, still. it makes him giddy. my brother never says i love you. but when i tell him “i just need to finish the dishes before i vacuum!” he wordlessly goes to vacuum the entire house before i can, and if he sees me struggle with a wrapper or a jar or a bottle he mutters ‘c’mere’ and opens it for me without even sparing me a glance. the thing is, people love you quietly, and you love them quietly, and the air is buzzing with tiny but grand gestures & once you look for them, you find them everywhere. i think that’s really beautiful.
how to live life like a ghibli film
1. go out in nature more. every studio ghibli film has some aspect of nature intertwined with the storyline. sometimes its hard to get the energy to go outside, but just going out on your deck or opening the window in your room or taking a walk around the block is enough. if you feel like it, go for a hike! go into the woods and look at every flower, and every tree. look at the mushrooms and streams and notice the beauty of them. look at nature like you’ve never seen it before. wake up at 4 and watch the sunset. put plants around your room. realize how beautiful the world is around you. appreciate it.
2. get a hobby! this step is certainly easier said than done, but its so worth it. struggling with mental illness makes it especially hard to get a hobby, but its very important that you don’t spend the majority of your time on social media. Start small. If you want to start drawing get a coloring book and fill in a picture with beautiful markers! If you want to write find a random prompt online, give yourself 30 minutes and see what you can come up with. Want to try baking? Start with an easy recipe, like chocolate chip cookies, and share them with your family or friends, or just yourself! Try out a bunch of hobbies, and see what you like best. Maybe you like making jewelry or writing poems or creating digital collages or making video edits or decorating your room or riding a bike or sewing or reading. The possibilities are endless, and getting a hobby you enjoy is very important, and fun.
3. start appreciating small things and noticing details. I don’t know how to explain this step, but in studio Ghibli films, small things always stick out. There are beautiful tiny details that make the story so much more magnificent. small details make the studio Ghibli films what they are. maybe on your way to school/work the sky was a really pretty color. Or the tea you made in the morning was perfectly steeped. appreciate small details of life that you don’t normally notice.
4. appreciate food. Pay attention to your food. If you can, try and make/bake your own food! But if you can’t, just be mindful of your food. Try not to eat while you’re on your phone. Dedicate times to just eating. Appreciating the food in front of you. Make yourself the ponyo drink with milk and honey, or ponyo ramen! Make yourself your own blend of tea like the Baron!
5. be kind and help others. Being kind doesn’t have to be a grand gesture, it can be smiling and waving at a baby in a café, or helping your mom finish the dishes, or paying for a friend’s coffee. Small gestures not only put good out into the world, but they also make you feel better. When you can, help others. Try volunteering at an animal shelter, or babysit for your aunt without charging her, or just listen to your friend when they’re going through something and be there for them. In every Ghibli film, the main character is always helping others, and being kind. Try to be like kiki, when she returned the pacifier to the mother who forgot it, or like chizuru from the cat returns, who risks her life to save a cat. Kindness comes in all shapes and forms, so just try your best to do what you can!
6. be your most authentic self. Stay true to who you are. dress how you’d like. Cut your hair like you’ve always wanted to. Stay confident and true to yourself. We all feel insecure sometimes, but we need to remind ourselves that we are great. Don’t try and force yourself to be someone you aren’t. Kiki felt insecure in her abilities as a witch, but she stayed true to herself, and believed in herself, and it paid off. Love and appreciate yourself, just the way you are.
7. (not really a tip but a fun suggestion) start collecting something! This is just an extra step that I wanted to include because I think its nice. But start a collection of things that interest you. It could be anything! Candles, stamps, teacups, antique figurines, 19th century photos, lip balms, books, key chains, flowers, hats. The choices are endless.