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found the bracelet from bracelet boy :)
coming back from ncs (week one) [pt 2]
in case you haven't read pt 1 i hate that i cant post it at once. but carrying on! thursday was definitely the most interesting, watersports was the main event, canoeing and rafting, i almost drowned (i'll get back to that) . so first off we went rafting and just waded around the quarry while also panicking and failing to row away from our other demonic friends, got soaked after having water flicked at us and then row back to shore. everyone was screaming and it was terrifying but amazing. we were getting ambushed and had more water flicked at us as we got onto the canoes, there was a conga line with all 200 people in the marquee and big talent show where i sat next to who im calling bracelet boy (i realised how much i actually liked him after he snapped my glowstick bracelet and my cheeks burst into flame) , i made my first moves towards bracelet boy and accidentally accumulated a squad of wingmen including my ATL.
i probably could've written a whole post about thursday night by itself. i snuck out with two of my best wingmen and we went stargazing and listened to music in the night, i had nettle stings all over my legs and our cameras couldn't pick up the stars but i wouldn't change a thing. we were tucked away in the corner of the campsite in the dark and whenever we saw a flashlight we turned everything off and lied down in the grass while trying not to laugh. at one point we thought we saw boys sneak out of the tents and went to go check which was such an adrenaline rush, upon approaching we heard the voice of a stern staff member and started running, a flashlight quickly approaching and i tripped and grazed my knee but kept running which we laughed about as soon as we got into one of the tents. it was the most exhilarating thing i have ever done.
friday i talked to bracelet boy more and packed away, socialised, play games and made more friends, we took group pictures and i got bracelets insta (i'm screaming internally i've never liked someone so much). he's adorable (is that the right word to describe someone twice your height?) and said our final goodbyes as we got ready to go.
i would do anything to go back. it felt like something out of a dream.
there's so many things that i probably missed but i'll likely come back and edit this post later that's all for now! ~ Amimi
[ Mon, 1st August - 20:27] [ i think i lost the glowstick bracelet :( but i plan on making him a bracelet for when i confess ]
coming back from ncs (week one)
Sat, 30th July - 12:39 i'm back woahhh. this is going to be longgg. the first day of ncs was definitely the worst, but it was still interesting. i got to meet my group and surprisingly most were from my town, i was expecting it to be a lot more mixed with people from different places. the majority of my group (16 people including a Group Leader (GL) and Assistant Group Leader (ATL). in all honesty, my GL was overly enthusiastic and too strict but i really liked my ATL she was super duper cool (i'll talk about her more later) . the part that dragged it down was mainly expectations icl. i thought the place would be a lot nicer than what it actually was (we were expecting cabins but actually stayed in tents, the bathrooms being public were not amazing and the layout was kind of awkward) the food (a poorly made pie) was awful but it slowly got better through the week. the second day was mainly games - we did have a mini olympics but i didn't take part in much so i can't really talk about that - debates, getting to know eachother and a presentation on a sensitive topic - creating a social media campaign which was really cool, one group did a whole rap and it was vibes but they somehow didn't win :(. i made sooo many friends during free time who were mainly from my hometown which i was super happy about. there was some typical teenage drama and oml, tiktok was really not lying when they called it a teenagers love island because it literally was. the third day there was an almost 7-8 hour hike which included lots of activities, it was super sunny out and everyone wanted to go home after the torture but then it was just more free time, small games and activities and chilling so it all calmed down. it did not feel like as short as a time as it was. the days go SLOWWWW. so many instances where i thought it was like 3pm and it was only 11:45am. head on over to pt 2 bc i ended up being so long tumblr would not let me post it lol!
of course i find out the black phone is finally on the istreaming website i normally use when i need to sleep so i can get up for ncs, i'm gonna oijfiojgoithjhion. this is my motivation to get through five days
a post about NCS at 00:05am
Monday 25 July 2022 i know when you use 24 hour time format you aren't supposed to specify am or pm but idk i can't say the time without it. it feels like there's something missing i am going on my residential trip for NCS in less than 8 and a half hours, and as a brown girl with strict parents that's exciting
i've scoured tiktok and i'm kinda scared ngl, why is it being described as love island?!?!?! that's like the worst thing you could say. (to any love island fanatics, i do apologise if this is insulting, i have in fact seen one clip of the show in which the islanders seriously discuss how lizard people in suits run the world and immediately noped out and never touched it again) anywaysss my friend kota said it was pretty cool, i'm kinda disappointed because she's not going to be there with me (we signed up with the intention of it being our last summer before we go to different colleges and likely never see eachother again) but oh well. i'm going to be forced to make new friends and do sports. i'm going to scour twitter and tumblr for posts about NCS and then go to sleep see you in five days! Amimi
i need to stop picking at my face but the problem is theres Textures On There and i would prefer if there Werent
have you ever realised how little you actually know. like i've lived in the same area all my life and until i've had no idea that there was a train station 30 minutes away from my house, or about the waterpark in city centre or that there's a whole area of town i've never seen before. i don't know. it's just weird to think about,
being someone with brown eyes comes with great responsibility
conann>>>>>>
wish you were sober hits so hard and i've never looked at alcohol in my life.
we love conan
Tuesday 12 July, 11:23pm
this was supposed to be a post about me planning my sketchbook a thought dump but i'm vibing so hard with conan i can't think properly
#reblogging inspo for my sketchbook cover
attempt at a notebook cover
screaming because i just realised the posts from twosday and my sixteen birthday have just been saved in my drafts and that i just never posted them because i got distracted by revising for mocks and by conan dropping memories on my 16th (which btw thank you conan best gift ever)
its already been 2 months of being 16 what
start of summer (sunshine and sadness)
Sun 10 July 2022, 3pm the alliteration for the title came so smoothly its silly. this isn't a monthly recap but i just felt like dumping so here i am. i just read a short story called The Girl He Left Behind (10/10 would recommend) and am ugly crying. Induction Week came and went a lot quicker then I thought it would. overall, pretty good! i love all my subjects and the people in all 3 of my classes are great! there was some ugly stuff that reared its head right towards the end but i'm trying my best to pay it no mind. so it's been officially decided on fine art, media and sociology! i'm just waiting on gcse results, despite definitely not getting the grades i wanted in sociology due to a spontaneous breakdown during the second exam from stress, but on the very positive side i'm pretty sure i still passed which is all you really need to study it at a level. i'm doing two more creative subjects and one pretty hard essay based subject to even out, which i think is a pretty good mix! for transition work over the summer i've got a personal sketchbook to fill for fine art, a presentation to make about myself for media and then some tasks that are yet to be set for sociology. one of the themes for the sketchbook is films/tv which i'm super stoked for - i think i'll post about the sketchbook and media presentation a lot on here as i make it and the final result aswell. that's all for now! Amina
i love books i love movies i love essays i love articles i love videos i love science i love art i love cultures i love history i love knowledge i love learning <3
hot people have obsessions with true crime and could probably be the worlds greatest serial killers and get away with it but aren't athletic enough to go on the run
#wintersupremacy
i hope all the cretins that prefer the Agony that is summer over winter are finally happy now. enjoy being sweaty and Uncomfortable.
manifesting those maneater vibes for the next school year
Pierce The Veil - Bulletproof Love
giving me ideas on how to ruin statues rn
In the town where I grew up, there was a large statue in one of the parks, of a famous historical white colonizer. I'm not going to say who specifically, suffice it to say that it was someone who wasn't worth memorializing for their deeds. And as you can imagine, this statue was a frequent target of vandalism, with paint or toilet paper or eggs on multiple occasions. Now, the local council was generally pretty lax when it came to repairing potholes or other public damage in the town, but every time, 24 hours after this particular statue was hit, the same person would always appear in a Hi-Vis vest, hat, mask and sunglasses, carrying a bucket of water, and wash it clean. They would do it as quickly as possible, but always made sure the face and the name carved at the bottom were generously scrubbed. This only encouraged people to do it again, and so it became a vicious cycle.
Within a year, the statue had sustained so much damage that it was unrecognizable and the lettering unreadable, so eventually the council came and took it down. Also apparently, the person in the Hi-Vis vest didn't even work for the council. They were supposedly just some 'good samaritan' who cleaned it, often before the council even discovered it needed cleaning, so they just let them do it and ignored the problem. They didn't bother putting the statue up again.
Much later, we found out that the anonymous 'samaritan' had been deliberately washing the statue with a bucket of saltwater, which had dramatically corroded it, causing irreversible accumulative damage far worse than spray paint ever would have done. It's even theorized that they were also often the one spray-painting it, just so that they had an excuse to come back after a day to wash it.
june jingle
exam season ended and i have officially finished secondary woah, however i'm going back for my schools sixth form so while it won't be the exact same i'll still be in the same place. i don't know why but it doesn't feel like everything is over, i still feel like i should be revising or something and i can't shake the feeling. it's super weird. i need to buy clothes for sixth form and ncs, kinda stumped i wont be going to prom but that shits rigged anyways so whatever, i'll probably go somewhere with my bestfriend which will be super cool. i should really get to cleaning my room since guests are coming tommorow so i'm gonna go do that that's all for now! - amimi
you know that awkward feeling when you try to forget something and you think you've gotten over it but then you dream about it and you wake up and you're like why me?, why now? that's been me every day for the past year. i hope at some point in the future i can look back at this and not even remember what i was talking about, in the present though this thing is driving me insane
update: kinda late but oh well, exam was alr but not as good as i wanted - at first i was really distraught but then i reminded myself of those supposed literature nerds who write Scrooge/Marley fanfics on ao3 and how failing literature meant i was definitely not one of them :D
English teachers, You either did something incredibly right or incredibly wrong when teaching A Christmas Carol in GCSE English because there is 34 works under the tag Jacob Marley/Ebenezer Scrooge on ao3. A few of them are tagged with references to GCSEs.
How to get a 9 in GCSE English literature!
Disclaimer: These tips are specific to AQA GCSE English literature and myself. They might not work for everyone.
Hi! I wanted to provide some advice for Year 11 English literature students on how to revise. I’ve always been quite good at English in general without trying too hard, but it took an extra push at the beginning of the year to bring my grades to a solid grade 9. Here are some tips and ideas on how to revise!
Listen to your teachers! The majority of my analysis came from my teachers. Seriously, they are really helpful. I remember listening to my teacher talking to us about Macbeth quotes and analysis almost a year before we started writing essays, and I could still remember a lot from them much later on.
Reread the books/plays/poetry! You do not have to do this a lot, only about 3-4 times to keep it fresh in your head. When you read it, also read the analysis already annotated there, and try providing your own annotations.
Watch YouTube videos! This probably saved my mocks, since I can’t for the life of me come up with analysis for a christmas carol (I just really hate it and found it too boring to remember later on from classes despite the fact that we worked on it for so long) on my own. It is a good way of finding deeper analysis and new perspectives. My personal favourites are Mr Salles, Mr Bruff and Stacy Reay. You can probably find YouTube videos or lectures online if you look hard enough.
Write practice essays! This post goes into a lot of detail on essay writing, so check that out to figure out how to write a good essay! Start off writing essays for however long you want, and then start writing essays in timed conditions.
Blurt quotes, characters and themes! Write a quote in the middle of a page and write analysis for individual words (here is a quick way of doing that) and how they interact with each other. Scribble down any themes, scenes or other quotes that you can associate with the quote, and remember to ask why and how this links with the wider context of the text.
Talk about the text with people! My friends and I sometimes liked to talk (read: argue) about some of the texts. It can be a really good way of enhancing your understanding of a text and gaining different viewpoints. You don’t have to do this, it is just nice sometimes (though maybe I’m just saying that because I’m a literature nerd).
Make essay plans! Find some past papers online (or just ask your teacher for some essay questions) and create plans. Do this more at the beginning of the study, because at that point, you will probably want to improve your general thought process and analysis before you focus on writing full essays.
Learn your terminology! You can use flashcards for this (like Quizlet or Anki) and try to identify literary techniques (iambic pentameter, modal verbs etc.) in whatever you are reading.
Read and annotate poetry! If you are stuck on how to do that, then just break the task down into smaller bits. Read the poem once and underline any words and phrases that you feel something about, and jot down the connotations of the word. Try to identify the general mood being portrayed and the story being told. Also, think of the connotations of certain motifs (e.g. a train can symbolise the start of a new journey, a path can symbolise a choice etc.). Keep practicing, and eventually it will become easier. You can even try analysing song lyrics if you want (I love analysing Taylor Swift’s lyrics).
Just generally try to read more! It does not have to be anything too fancy (most of what I read was fanfiction), so find something you like and give it a go. You could also listen to podcasts like the magnus archives, that have a very lovely writing style, or an audiobook you found on youtube. It’ll help, trust me!
Thank you for reading this post! I hope it was somewhat helpful.
reading this gave me physical pain, doing the exam on wednesday and this is just going to be on repeat in the back of my mind
English teachers, You either did something incredibly right or incredibly wrong when teaching A Christmas Carol in GCSE English because there is 34 works under the tag Jacob Marley/Ebenezer Scrooge on ao3. A few of them are tagged with references to GCSEs.
the last day of secondary school (surprisingly never cried)
i'm making this post as just a literal dump of all my memories today so forgive me if its all over the place. this morning i was in a panic over my chemistry exam (which i definitely didn't get an A in but oh well) i showed my outfit to my friends (a cottagecore-inspired thing with puff sleeves and a small flower pattern, black tights - i was supposed to wear pumps but i forgot them smh) and i really found out who my real friends were. upon showing them ( O and L is what we'll call them ) for my irl friends on here it's very very obvious who they are. L, i found has a problem she won't say to me - i dont want to look back on this with bad memories so i won't go into detail. O is one of the greatest friends i've ever had. she makes me feel like myself which is the best thing a friend can do for you today i danced (like a stripper at some moments) in a party with my best friend, in a hall with a DJ in the booth, smoke machines and flashing lights with a cup of ice in my hand. (and maybe heartbreak number one was staring but i found i didn't care about him) Life feels like a movie. I went to town, i felt like i was having a real teenage experience for the first time on the last day of secondary school. today was a confidence boost. maybe i got looks from cuties too (but don't base your self worth on men - gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss) i felt pretty for the first time in such a long time, even with my skin breaking out. when i walked back to school to pick up my bag and the equipment, i didn't go to the blue balcony outside the art rooms like i've done every day for a year to reminisce and cry. i'm so tired of crying. i think today i reached some kind of self acceptance too, which is one of the best parts. The sky is so blue today. God, I Love Life. ~ Amimi
may (miserable, not magical)
taysway ftw eng lit exam tommorow i haven't posted at all recently due to exams but i'll be back to it right after exam season is over (which means after june D; ) i thought i'd just hop on here and have a quick monthly diarypost which is actually just a dump of my thoughts for tommorow so my exam board is eduqas and they are the Hecate of all exam boards tommorow i'm doing two 1 hour papers - one on Macbeth and one on Lord of the Flies the topics (themes/ characters) i'm revising are: Macbeth Lady Macbeth Ambition Kingship Appearance vs Reality (i have given up completely on macduff but maybe i'll attempt banquo)
Ralph Simon Jack Piggy (brief on Roger) Savagery vs Civilisation the aim right now is just a 6 - then i'll resit it and do better in november next academic year wish me luck because i need it badly - Amimi
april anniversaire (always awful)
anniversaire = bday en francais oui oui mon francais est progression (yes yes my french is improving) i have my official french speaking exam in 4 days
i'm not prepared. i hope i can grind some revision and get a B. it was bday on the 15th! sweet 16! i had a nice countdown with friends and nice messages and wishes. otherwise, a pretty normal day i think lack of confidence is my fatal flaw similar to that of macbeths "vaulting ambition" being his hamartia. i'll ttyl! - Amimi