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"IF YOU THINK YOU"RE FAT, WHAT DOES THAT MAKE ME?"

  ‘No. Stop right there. My distorted body image applies to myself  and myself alone. When I call myself fat, the word is not a scale to which everyone else is judged on. You look exactly the way you are. I’m the only one my dysmorphia transforms. Calling myself fat does not mean I see everyone above my weight as morbidly obese. The disorder doesn’t see other people, only the person who is suffering from it.’

I fucking always binge when I’m around my friends. I do so well all day, I was at 500 calories when I got to my friend’s house and now I’m over 1200. I convince myself that it’s okay because I’m the tiniest one here by far and they’re all eating too, but how did I get to be the tiniest? By not fucking binging the way they do. UGH.

Wait what was your starting weight and how tall are you?

I’m so happy I’m under 500 cals again… back on track 🖤

Today's food

Two vegan cupcakes 120? One bowl of home made soup 50 One prune 20 Small piece of tortilla 20 3 bottles of water 0 One cup of green tea 0 2 spoon fulls of ice cream 50 Pizza crust 75 Creamed spinach 70 Total: 405 calories today give or take 100

50 Safe Foods

Fruits

Strawberries (4 calories for one medium)

Blueberries (20 calories for 25 berries)

Raspberries (10 calories for 10 berries)

Blackberries (20 calories for 10 berries)

Cherries (4 calories for one medium)

Grapes (2 calories for one medium)

Apricot (17 calories for one medium)

Plum (30 calories for one small)

Apple (47 calories for half a medium)

Watermelon (46 calories for one cup)

Vegetables

Cabbage (17 calories for a cup)

Carrots (25 calories for a medium)

Tomatoes (22 calories for a medium)

Cucumbers (16 calories for a cup)

Romaine Lettuce (8 calories for a cup)

Spinach (7 calories for a cup)

Cauliflower (27 calories for a cup)

Broccoli (30 calories for a cup)

Sugar Snap Peas (26 calories for a cup)

String Beans (31 calories for a cup)

Spaghetti Squash (31 calories for a cup)

Mushrooms (4 calories for medium)

Iceberg Lettuce (10 calories for a cup)

Kale (33 calories for a cup)

Zucchini (19 calories for a cup)

Dairy & Eggs

Unsweetened Almond Milk (30 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Chocolate Almond Milk (40 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Cashew Milk (25 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Coconut Milk (45 calories for a cup)

Egg Whites (17 calories for an egg white)

Meat, Poultry, Fish, & Other

Shrimp (11 calories for a medium)

Smoked Salmon (33 calories for 1 oz.)

Tofu (18 calories for 1 oz.)

Turkey Breast (29 calories for 1 oz.)

Chicken Breast (47 calories for 1 oz.)

Snacks

Pickles (7 calories for a medium)

Sugar-Free Jello (10 calories for a serving)

Graham Crackers (30 calories for a cracker)

Applesauce (50 calories for half a cup)

Rice Cakes (35 calories for a medium)

Starches, Grains, & Other

Sweet Potato (26 calories for 1 oz.)

Brown Rice (31 calories for 1 oz.)

White Rice (37 calories for 1 oz.)

Bulgur (24 calories for 1 oz.)

Barley (35 calories for 1 oz.)

Condiments

Sriracha (5 calories for a teaspoon)

Sugar-Free Barbecue Sauce (9 calories for 1 oz.)

Sugar-Free Ketchup (5 calories for a serving)

Sugar-Free Maple Syrup (15 calories for a serving)

Soy Sauce (9 calories for a tablespoon)

REBLOG THIS IF YOU ARE AN ACTIVE THINSPO ACCOUNT.

I need new thinspo accounts to follow and reblog from because I’m slipping and I need to get my shit together.

98.1!!

New low weight!! About four pounds from my ultimate goal… Not sure how I feel about it right now. I want to be happy with it but I still feel like I look fat and I’m just like WTF.

Also, is it weird that my ultimate goal is 94 and not 95? I feel like it should be on the “5” or “0”, but I started at 144 and I just think it would be cool to have lost an even 50 pounds.

50 pounds… That’s crazy. In a good way. An incredible I-can’t-believe-I-actually-did-it-(almost) way