A Note About Being At Your Ugw.

A note about being at your ugw.

I remember the first time I was at my goal weight last winter. I had come home for a break, and weighed myself at home. I saw the number flashing on the screen, and thought “no way, this isn’t real”. When I went to my nanas house for a holiday, I went to the bathroom in her house with a floor to ceiling mirror, and a scale. I stripped, got on the scale, and saw that number again. I turned around and looked in the mirror, and suddenly didn’t understand why I was so shocked. I looked better. I picked my legs up, my arms, covered my boobs with my hands, sucked my non existent belly in, twirled, posed every which way… And then I dressed myself, went back to the dining room, and lied when my uncle said “you look good! You look like you’ve lost weight, you look like you’re about 100 pounds soaking wet!” I replied; “No, I’m about 120”. When I went back to school, I dressed any way I wanted to, I felt so much more confident. But months later, I got too comfortable, and I started eating again.

And now, ladies and gentlemen, I am at my highest weight ever. The hardest part about this is that when you go from your goal weight to your highest, everybody notices. And everybody says something. Everyday I think to myself, “What have I done?”. But I know what I did. And I know what I have to do. Please for the love of god, for the love of whatever you believe in, don’t make this mistake. I’m scared now that when I get back to my goal weight in a couple of months, people will start to wonder what’s causing so much weight flux in my body. Please please please do not make my mistakes. When you get to your goal weight, STAY THERE.

Ps. I’m tagging this way because I know that this post will be found by people this is relevant to.

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idk if those “spells” work but………. somehow it’s working, is it a placebo? anyways 10 lbs weight loss spell!

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155 pounds today. So shitty that my period comes and literally throws me 3 pounds behind, like 3 days of the diet I’m on never even happened. Fuck my body.

Anyway today is abc diet day 10, and it is a fasting day…I’m worried I going to fuck up but hopefully I can get through it…. ⚠️pic not me⚠️

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freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees

5 years ago

rb for good luck during this binge-free july.

ignore for good luck during this binge-free july.

y’all ain’t binging this month. PERIOD 😩

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freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees

7 years ago

You may not be where you want at the moment, The popular girl might have the body you’d die for. You might’ve eaten an entire bag of chips (or crisps) last night at 12 am. You’ve might’ve gained a little bit of weight or you might’ve only lost 2.5 pounds when you wanted to lose 6. You’ve might’ve skipped a workout because you were too tired, you might’ve cried in the mirror this morning because you are so disgusted with the way look and how fat you feel. You might’ve sat on the toilet floor begging yourself to throw up but you didn’t. Because you don’t want to go back down that road, instead You stood up and walked out with a smile on your face even though you felt like your world is fucking mess. You may not have the body you want yet, you may not be at your UGW, but I promise you, one day you will get there, it might not be today or tomorrow or next month, but you will. Stay strong and stay safe. I love you.

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freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees

7 years ago

I fucking always binge when I’m around my friends. I do so well all day, I was at 500 calories when I got to my friend’s house and now I’m over 1200. I convince myself that it’s okay because I’m the tiniest one here by far and they’re all eating too, but how did I get to be the tiniest? By not fucking binging the way they do. UGH.

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freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees

7 years ago

You're not fat your legs are totally thinspo goals 💞

FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT

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freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees

7 years ago

“Ana makes me see what is beauty. Mia makes me hungry but then makes me regret eating.” I’m sorry I forgot. I’m not sick. Im just acting. You’ll see soon enough world.

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freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees

7 years ago

Be careful!