Freckles-rosiecheeks-bumblebees - Skinny Little Bumblebee

is there anyone else who uses their family as reverse thinspo? I feel so bad about it but it encourages me to eat better and exercise so I don’t get overweight like them

I tried

I tried loving my body I tried liking curves I tried accepting myself I tried eating

And it’s shit, i hate it, i wanna be 80lbs

Literally I wanna throw up thinking about 1000 calories 🤢😖

sometimes i forget people find 1000 calories really low

A note about being at your ugw.

I remember the first time I was at my goal weight last winter. I had come home for a break, and weighed myself at home. I saw the number flashing on the screen, and thought “no way, this isn’t real”. When I went to my nanas house for a holiday, I went to the bathroom in her house with a floor to ceiling mirror, and a scale. I stripped, got on the scale, and saw that number again. I turned around and looked in the mirror, and suddenly didn’t understand why I was so shocked. I looked better. I picked my legs up, my arms, covered my boobs with my hands, sucked my non existent belly in, twirled, posed every which way… And then I dressed myself, went back to the dining room, and lied when my uncle said “you look good! You look like you’ve lost weight, you look like you’re about 100 pounds soaking wet!” I replied; “No, I’m about 120”. When I went back to school, I dressed any way I wanted to, I felt so much more confident. But months later, I got too comfortable, and I started eating again.

And now, ladies and gentlemen, I am at my highest weight ever. The hardest part about this is that when you go from your goal weight to your highest, everybody notices. And everybody says something. Everyday I think to myself, “What have I done?”. But I know what I did. And I know what I have to do. Please for the love of god, for the love of whatever you believe in, don’t make this mistake. I’m scared now that when I get back to my goal weight in a couple of months, people will start to wonder what’s causing so much weight flux in my body. Please please please do not make my mistakes. When you get to your goal weight, STAY THERE.

Ps. I’m tagging this way because I know that this post will be found by people this is relevant to.

i’m A Mess™ and so is my hair

The light was kinda good today 😌

Thinspiration Thursday is here!

This week’s theme is before & after

July 24th, 2017

Okay you guys, this is it. I’m getting back on the wagon. I miss waking up every morning excited to be down another pound (or even two!). I miss looking down at my feet and seeing my flat stomach. I miss the feeling of my clothes fitting better. I miss feeling pretty.

I’m going to go back to eating 1200 cals (or less) every day, and hopefully by October I’ll be back to my LW of 138 lbs. I really want to do this right.

I’m also really sad that I stopped restricting in the first place. While I understand that I needed to eat properly to perform well on my finals, I wish I had just upped my intake to maintenance or something instead of going all out and binging every day. (I did get really good grades though, so at least there’s that…)

Note to self: if you feel like you can’t stand it anymore, DON’T JUST LET EVERYTHING GO. Don’t throw away all the progress you made. Just up your calorie intake a little and be a little looser with yourself. You’ll be thankful that you didn’t stop.

i need to lose at least 10lbs before school starts.