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I found this short story by Sacher-Masoch. This is the ukranian translation, but I read it by translating it again with google translate. It's one of the silly goofy ones

my blog is an inconsistent piece of shit but at least i have fun

@severin-photocopy Yours tastes like black coffee or tea, cigarettes and a certain variation of a popular austrian chocolate cake with currant jam and marzipan ;)

it’s been too long that I’ve wanted to start a tag game. here you go !!

tell me what you think prev’s blog tastes like and why. it can be based off theme, vibes, or what they post!!

(also feel free to tag me as many times as you want I want to answer this too!!)

@batshikns @breadsnorter @boeedie @rheeeeeeeesiees @kaiserkisser @rivermist606 @collidew1thesky @kiw-ee @creatorbiaze + open tags, I’m forgetfullll

every time I remember that De Sade can be defined as a controversial queer author I die a bit

Same exact problem

so who else gets irrationally afraid and embarrassed about their interests being known to people in real life

The Love of Plato - Leopold von Sacher-Masoch

"God created them, too."

I wish I had someone to do this for me

was talking to my gf about my fear of dying young for being trans and my mom putting my deadname on my gravestone, and she said "i hope that never happens, but if it does, i will carve your name into your grave myself if i have to." and i think theres something extremely raw about that sentiment and trans community in general. you can kill only our bodies, but you cant kill transsexuality

"i respect trans people" do you?

do you respect trans people who look like their agab, whether they want to or not?

do you respect transfems with body/facial hair? transfems who don't wear makeup or dresses or skirts? transfems with low voices? transfems with short hair?

and do you respect transmascs who don't bind? transmascs who wear makeup or dresses or skirts? transmascs with high voices? transmascs with long hair?

do you respect trans people who don't "pass"?

WHO'S THAT??? IT'S THE UNKNOWN!!!

i think its funny how facial scars are seen as like a major character plot point where they reveal that someone tried to kill their dad or something when i know a ton of ppl (including myself) who have facial scars bc they rlly arent uncommon and all of them are like. from tripping and falling as a toddler

Some are calmer and it's just something that pulls me closer to certain things. But I love some special interests so much that when anything even remotely related to it is mentioned, the excitement breaks the scale and turns into physical pain. Full body reaction, discomfort with vague pain in my chest. So filled with joy that I burst and it turns into misery again. But special interests give my life a meaning and were almost always the reason why I chose not to kms.

My special interests feel like they are studying themselves on their own while things that don't interest me are sometimes impossible to study. Often when I'm researching a SI, questions start spawning in my mind and they spiral to the point where finding the answer becomes impossible and I become frustrated. It's like I'm trying to zoom in to an infinitely small point that I know I'll never get to, but it still hurts.

autistic people: what does having a special interest feel like to you?

(and if u want to say, what is your current special interest?)

Geological horror. You find a geode and crack it open and the crystal lining its walls is human blood that can't be genetically matched to anyone. You find a human skeleton but every one of the bones is made from rock, a rock that you know can't be whittled into those shapes. You find layers of clay and loam that sport ancient fossils at the top and the still-rotting corpses of modern animals at the bottom.

Finally, a vegan alternative to human heart! Douse in ketchup and eat with your hands.

North korea special interest? Groundbreaking.

Almost as if pregnancy is a temporary state... that the person chose to be in... unlike an actual disability... almost as if some people have phobia of pregnancy... wow.

me to myself through gritted teeth: people are allowed to have friends who aren’t you! people have the capacity to be friends with multiple people! someone having friends that aren’t you doesn’t mean they hate you or like them more than you!

So real

“Until then I had lived as I had painted and versified - that is, I never got far beyond priming canvas, beyond penning an outline, a first act, a first stanza. There are simply people who start all sorts of things and yet never finish any of them. And that was the kind of person I was.”

Venus in Furs by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch

autistic swag is smoking weed while stuffing your face with chips, drinking half and half Arizona, and reading Venus in furs because kink and fetish history is your special interest and the creator of the book Ritter von Leopold Sacher-Masoch is where the term "masochism" came from so you wanna read his work

Happy birthday to the absolute specimen of a man

It does feel bad sometimes. But tbh I don't even know my own eye color, they look like they have all the colors but with low saturation. And other people sometimes too have it kind of hard to decipher

My entire childhood I didn't understand why do people put eye color in the description of other people, or as one of the main attributes of a missing person. Because I thought "Who even notices this? Eyes are too tiny to be paid that much attention to." Fast forward some years later I find out people DO just casually look into everybody's eyes long enough to notice and remember this detail and I'm the autistic odd one who is distracted by the moving mouth. Still funny to think about.

I've been bitten by the reanimator bug,,,,

My entire childhood I didn't understand why do people put eye color in the description of other people, or as one of the main attributes of a missing person. Because I thought "Who even notices this? Eyes are too tiny to be paid that much attention to." Fast forward some years later I find out people DO just casually look into everybody's eyes long enough to notice and remember this detail and I'm the autistic odd one who is distracted by the moving mouth. Still funny to think about.

Frankenhooker by Frank Henenlotter.