One Day You Think: I Want To Die. And Then You Think, Very Quietly, Actually I Want A Coffee. I Want

2025. 03. 03 | Lighting from Sunday to Monday

I’m working from home today bc this weekend has completely destroyed my body.

For some reason, work is giving me energy I didn’t know I had and I ran a 10k with bestie in prep for the half marathon in May. (Who am I??)

Then immediately hosted a dinner gathering with friends, woke up late the next morning to have a large lunch to sustain ourselves for the day festival, where we danced for 8 hours. Sunday, bestie came over to sit in the sun and walk a couple hours in the city center to browse some books and debrief the festival. We had a big dinner together, courtesy of A, and talked til she went home.

I intended to get up and go this morning, but my body told me no. So I’m working from home today, hoping my Teams status doesn’t turn yellow as I make my way through environmental thermodynamics calculations and our stinky second child tries to participate by stepping on my keyboard.

I haven’t taken a bio class since high school, so I did a lot of review before our first practical :) Anyway, this is one of my favorite rooms to study in!

ed zitron, a tech beat reporter, wrote an article about a recent paper that came out from goldman-sachs calling AI, in nicer terms, a grift. it is a really interesting article; hearing criticism from people who are not ignorant of the tech and have no reason to mince words is refreshing. it also brings up points and asks the right questions:

if AI is going to be a trillion dollar investment, what trillion dollar problem is it solving?

what does it mean when people say that AI will "get better"? what does that look like and how would it even be achieved? the article makes a point to debunk talking points about how all tech is misunderstood at first by pointing out that the tech it gets compared to the most, the internet and smartphones, were both created over the course of decades with roadmaps and clear goals. AI does not have this.

the american power grid straight up cannot handle the load required to run AI because it has not been meaningfully developed in decades. how are they going to overcome this hurdle (they aren't)?

people who are losing their jobs to this tech aren't being "replaced". they're just getting a taste of how little their managers care about their craft and how little they think of their consumer base. ai is not capable of replacing humans and there's no indication they ever will because...

all of these models use the same training data so now they're all giving the same wrong answers in the same voice. without massive and i mean EXPONENTIALLY MASSIVE troves of data to work with, they are pretty much as a standstill for any innovation they're imagining in their heads

Crying alone? No no no, light a candle and cry in the company of gods.

If life is a never ending loop of dirty dishes and laundry then that means life is a never ending loop of home cooked meals and comfy clean clothes

42/100

Log: 15 May

Research Report Tasks

Chp 1 & 2: Fix citations (in-text + references).

Chp 2: Edit diagrams (labels, clarity, formatting)

DD_30 Challenge – Day 12

Here’s a video so you can hear the water and the thrushes. I took it for you because you couldn’t be there. <3

incorporating madness studies and phenomenological thinking into my exhibition design. someone beat me to the publish last august on schizophrenia as heritage, so I kinda wanna publish my current work before ranting about specifics online 😂

Some Aphrodite facts for people who want to know more!!

✶She’s the mother of Hermaphroditus, the god of effeminacy and the origin of the word hermaphrodite. They’re an intersex person born with male and female characteristics.

✶ Aphrodite was believed to have a magical girdle (or belt) called the "Cestus," which could enhance her irresistible allure and seductive powers.

✶ In addition to her romantic and sexual aspects, Aphrodite was also revered as a protectress of sailors, offering safe passage across the seas.

✶ She was also worshipped as a protector of prostitutes and courtesans, reflecting her association with love and desire in all its forms.

✶ Aphrodite's name originated from the word Sea-foam.

✶ The dove, The affectionate white or turtle-dove was the bird of love, was a bird sacred to the goddess Aphrodite. Doves were said to draw her heavenly chariot, and the Syrian Aphrodite Ashtarte was said to have been hatched from an egg nursed by doves.

✶ In most sculptures, she is often depicted with a round face and a pear body shape! Even having rolls on some of them.