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You know...I'm trying my best to make money, I just don't find weeks working on something (every second compressed would mean days of work, at least 40 hours straight.) Is really worth only getting 20$...heck even 50$ isn't worth it. The only real "worth" is possible "publicity" I have no other way ME myself can make money...and I am almost positive no one would want to pay what I would find fare for my time taken, my skills, etc.

My 2 cents on… cheap commissions…! 

People have been asking if I do sculpture commissions or am selling any of the ones I've made, the answer is yes. I know I keep saying it, but I'll post a general price list for sculptures when I can. I have been busy/gloomy/lacking materials so I haven't answered anyone, I haven't been on my laptop for maybe a couple of months. I was able to get some materials lately so I can actually do so now. (As well as making sure my PayPal was still accessible.) I need to finish up some stuff but I dont mind people asking or asking about updates.

Sorry for not being on lately I have a new achievement of not being on my computer for almost two months. I haven't don't any digital art in forever (horrid art block to be honest,as well as heavily discouraged to even keep drawing.) Well, anyways.. I have finally gotten more supplies for sculpting, I've been working on three that I'm almost done with but had to stop working on due to lack of supplies So now I just gotta get done with painting all of them and working on a few new armatures~ c: I might also post some sketches of something else I want to make (Cry related, should I post it in the tags though...?) I want to sketch out a few ideas of what might be cool to make, I plan on putting a lot of effort and work into it so I don't wanna half-ass it. (As in I am PLANNING, on making it more detailed visually than the SU stuff I've made.) I would like opinions on things, like when it comes to an outfit/outfit parts or whatever else Other than that I might post others things from my Sketchbook and other ideas I have on making things. (I want to make myself valefor from ff10.) And some other ff10 related things mixed with other series, idk. Just thoughts I'm putting down at this point. Mobile doesn't do "read mores" so I apologize.

I just threw this card because it was in my way while I was painting, without looking where and this happened.....

YOU know, I've never actually fit in anywhere. Not in any fandom, online in general, in real life, anywhere.. I can never make friends or even make others happy.

Can someone suggest me something to practice drawing?

Is there a site that's like a dating site but for friends? Like compatibility, interests, if they live in a certain distance, area code, etc. I really need some..it's not even a joke.

How to Make an Artist Happy

1. Reblog instead of like 2. Add tags when reblogging beCAUSE THEY WILL LITERALLY REMEMBER IT FOR HOURS

Help your invisible artists!

Liking and Rebloging stuff helps tons, but how can you do that if you aren’t seeing it in your searches? I don’t think a lot of people do this, so I thought I’d spread it around a little. Please signal boost! A lot of artists need your help to be seen, especially on the huge community of tumblr.

W.i.p. this is just a quick look to see how it might look when I finish. I need to add some to his face and alter some things in general. I like how this is turning out but…. I have a question, should I make him in this outfit or his other outfit? I don’t mind either way

this is me being organized, others tell me messy but everything is placed for convenience, think of an art programs setup, mines all customized for ease of use. Ugh, apparently me doing art is useless I'm told since it's not bringing in money (well sorry that I'm trying to establish the means nessesary to be productive first, to gather the knowledge and skills needed to work in a timely matter, get the materials to make things more efficient, and the time to do the stuff needed just to do this. Already had everything else I care about taken away so why not the last thing I have right?) Anyways, finally unpacked my art stuff, finally moved without breaking my stuff: D HAD to remix all my paints AGAIN after lack of use (was using tinfoil, now using 1$ store stacked pill containers for paint.) I need to get back into drawing, might start off by trying to draw out designs/proportions for future sculptures, or idk, drawing I love but it's hard to stay motivated on it. (I need to actually use my computer again, haven't in quite a long while.) Sorry don't get how me posting a picture turned into a weird vent thing.

I can finally start sculpting again, I think, I still need materials but I can do what I was working on before. Secondly, I wanna make a super special *something* I'm not sure yet, I just want it to be a scene, detailed, etc. But I'm not at the point I want to, it would take lots of planning, materials and tools. (As in I want to make it once I can afford an airbrush, molding kit, etc.) I might want advice on a good design, like I have an idea but no picture.

Someone wrote this on Facebook I think it's applicable to any situation though...

"This article is ludicrous. Having an ex that transitioned in to her femininity after years of trying to be something she isn't, I find this appalling. Who are we to judge the happiness of others? That is narcissistic in my opinion. If we can honestly say that someone has to be forced to be unhappy in their own skin, then what is this "land of the free" really about? "You can be free, so long as you conform to the normalities that are laid out in a dying religion." Dying, because the religion breads hatred when it should bread acceptance of anyone, everywhere. Get this crap out of here. I am a woman, and I am not insulted." Out of context but you should see the gist of it... More so in my mind this part here... " Who are we to judge the happiness of others? That is narcissistic in my opinion. If we can honestly say that someone has to be forced to be unhappy in their own skin, then what is this "land of the free" really about? "You can be free, so long as you conform to the normalities that are laid out in a dying religion." I feel like this, and others do this to me, it's painful...

I'm heartbroken...

I was lied to, I'm very upset... We found a place, small and actually allows pets with deposit fee... I was trying to find my cats a place, a loving home, or a no kill shelter, my dad let my cats outside without letting me know, they've never been out their whole lives and he expects them to live out there and/or get killed in a shelter... He said I could have my cat who was the "good" cat, but I was being punished for not going back to our old place today, I had no bus money, he said he'd find me a way, I have no phone to call to know what's going on... I have horrible anxiety to where I can't walk outside by myself.... So he said it's my own fault, making fun of me and saying I have legs, that I had time even though I was trying, he lied straight to my face. What makes this worse is I was crying (OF COARSE) and he started acting more hurtful, so I got pissed off and mentioned to one of his girlfriends (or friend as he puts it) that he has others he talks to...(I'm upset I did something bad but still...) he called the cops on me saying I needed an ambulance (implications when all I was was crying and trying to say this was all messed up and if he is going to lie to me and get rid of my only happiness, the only ones who made me feel my life was worth living FOR THEM...and then mock me and try to make be feel worse while knowing threatening me will make me panic...then I think it's okay to tell the truth to someone about one of the many lies he makes. He goes so far as to call the police on me to make ME seem crazy just to keep on with a lie... All the while my husband supporting him because, as he puts it..."it's to protect me" "to keep peace" oh and "it doesn't matter if what they do is bad, respect your elders" I give up on everything...

I started drawing this before Revelations 2 came out but ended up having some personal troubles/art block so I never finished it, I still might in the future, the line art here isn’t done since they are missing their bracelets and some other details as well as the background I was going to make (which should be easier now with actual gameplay I can reference now.) But yeah, hope anyone who sees this enjoys~ :D Full view it though please, the initial image makes the quality look horrible..

I wanted to try my hand at drawing Markiplier awhile back but never got around to finishing it due to a drawing art block I got into, I still don’t know when I’ll finish it so I’ll at least post the line art as it is.  But yeah, I’ve never actually tried to draw the likeness of a real person because it makes me feel weird staring at someones face for long periods of time. X’D Hope it’s like-able though c: also full view because initial picture makes the quality look like poo.

forgot to mention stuff

I forgot to mention, I shown my husband those videos of when he was drinking and being really mean... he told me “can you stop showing me these, it’s making me angry at myself” and “that’s only when I’m drunk” (which isn’t true, I mean he is worse when he drinks though” and something along the lines of “you were saying things you knew would bring that out” (though less mean, I just didn’t know how he worded this one, it wasn’t as mean sounding as what I wrote at all, but similar message when it comes down to it” But yeah, this is EXACTLY why I ask him to please stop drinking, to drink a lot less, he always drinks to the point of being drunk, the least he drinks is....maybe a week between drinking?

Sorry for all the text filled bad stuff lately, this is just another one of those.

So, I have a huge phobia of being around males in general. (past traumatic events, etc.) My husband has a thing for mocking me continuously in the future with past things I said to him in a serious manner...(like him saying “she was asking for it” when he was trying to do something bad to a friend of mine without either of our permission vocally, and while we were both drunk, no matter how much we’d try to argue his logic, he sticks to what he thinks...this is a different matter so it isn’t important in the context of what I am posting about, but it’s just to give where he was coming at from this.) I tell him that I don’t want people just walking into my private space without MY permission, that he should go out if someone wants him. He tells me I’m being rude and should stop being so...(well I forgot what he actually said but around the same lines of when he calls me mean, evil, etc.) I say “I don’t like being around guys..” husband says “that’s sexist” in a very condescending tone. I vocalize to him SO MUCH that I get a panic attack when there are other guys around, the more...the more panicky, or also depending on the personality could escalate it, sadly this person is a roommate who I though we would be gone from since we are out of a home but nope...but this guy is just like the person who helped put this fear upon me... So I don’t get why he says this when I tell him constantly whenever he would have friends around too that I can’t go in there, I can’t even say “hey i need you for a minute” or anything, that’s how bad it is, but nope....he just tells me to get over it or it’s irrational, etc. it’s worse that this guy talks badly about me (though husband denies it even though I know some of the acronyms the guys used in front of me and heard some of the things passing by his room) he keeps my husband from me, enables his drinking and everything, this guy buys tall cans of beer everyday (like 10 or so of them a day) I preferred our last roomate, he couldn’t pay for a second month but at least I knew the person decently and even if I was still uncomfortable when alone with the guy(like husband at work, so if he had to ask me for something I’d freak out knowing I’d have to communicate by myself) I could still talk and feel okay with their presence. just all this...just is too much.

Hey, regarding what kind of prices you're planning to set for commissions, you could always browse the artists of tumblr to get some rates they charge and base it off that. With that said, I would be fully willing to pay like $40-60 or maybe even $70 for a big art piece like the one you made for crystreams xenoblade chronicles, and maybe $20 for a simpler, sketchier piece. I hope you can get some commissions up and running as soon as possible, good luck and I hope things can turn around soon <3

Thank you for the message, I’ll try to do that I’ve just been trying to pack things into garbage bags right now while being super sick, so I honestly haven’t had the motivation to do so.Ohh, I didn’t realize I never clarified or maybe I was just in a panicked daze, with drawing I have a general idea of how to price my work (I tried making a price list awhile back regarding drawings, it was extremely rushed and I wanna kinda change a lot now that I look at it with how outdated it is in every way haha, as you can see even then I had no clue how to price sculptures, it’s confusing because I’ve had people offer me 10$ for something I spent a lot of time on and then someone else giving me 25$ for a little keychain I made, it’s weird and confusing because everyone has such different values for things.)~the super old price list~http://krystami.deviantart.com/art/Commission-454909332I’m kinda gonna try basing it off what I’ve been paid a few other times and rounding it out from there and trying to keep into account quality improved, time taken, etc.That’s probably one one my favorite drawings I’ve ever done to be honest with you, besides my mecha sup guy and my current bg on here ovo

I THINK I HAVE pneumonia, haven't been able to rest, keep coughing so hard I throw up and feel like a pool of liquid is at the bottom of my throat,it clears for two seconds if I clear it right...though everything hurts from the near constant coughing for one...why

"Why do you take away everything that makes me smile?" "I don't mean to, I do it for your own good."

Emergency, commissions? Drawings, sculptures, idk, PLEASE READ, please.

First of all I was going to post something like this later on because I thought I wasn’t in such a bad situation and could wait a bit, research, etc. but it really is an emergency and I don’t know what to do.

Anyways before I get to the whole commission part I’d like to say, I’m about to be homeless, technically I still have a place for a day? Our landlord said we have to go since we haven’t been able to pay rent on time lately thanks to my sister and her husband who were doing meth, stealing from us, and caused us to not be able to pay anymore, we might have been able to stay but thanks to them bringing in destructive roommates and tons of pets, the house is ruined. We haven’t been able to even buy food and apparently my husband makes too much money for us to get food stamps, we have no transportation, no means for anything honestly. They told us we need to leave pretty much today but if my husband gets paid today we MIGHT be able to stay til the 28th (I’m guessing since that is when our lease was supposed to be up) Also if possible read this post to have more info on some things. http://krystami.tumblr.com/post/119042715224/i-need-to-maybe-say-this-please-read-if-possible Anyways onto the selling art part, I wanted to research on how to price my works, (like type, size, detailing, etc.) but I honestly am not sure, especially with the limited time I have and all those posts about paypal and what not.  When it comes to drawings I’ve been paid in the past, but when it comes to sculptures I have NO sort of clue what to go by, or how to send, how to add shipping cost and what not to what I’m sending, again with the whole size, detailing, time taken, etc. oh, as well as I need to find out how to package it safely. I’ve sold some mini figures in person to people but no online. I honestly want to get what it’s really “worth”? I don’t want to be underpaid and I don’t want people thinking I’m charging too much, but then again it is my art and I should be able to price it what I want, right? These have been conflictions to why I haven’t posted anything about it or  one of the reasons I haven’t replied messages. I don’t know what to do, luckily my husband works at a job dealing with shipping, receiving, etc. so I’m sure he could do that for me. (I mean when he isn’t tired from working) I wanted to take the time to put everything together and make everything neat and think out all of this but with everything, I haven’t been able to, not just for the reasons in this post or the post linked, but so much more. (maybe all those times people said things would give you bad luck were true, I have so much bad luck I think something normally deemed as bad as good, or just plain out “better” than other bad things.) So for anyone who read this, I do plan on doing commissions, I want to right away, I just have no price lists or experience of most things. If you want to know more about ANYTHING (personal or related to art, commissions, etc. PLEASE message me)

I need to maybe say this, please read if possible.

I’ve seen plenty of posts saying “if you like to art you should be happy just sharing it rather than wanting notes, unless you want to get paid for it” or things around those lines.

Well honestly, I love doing art, I enjoy people seeing what I do, I enjoy doing it in general, but even since I thought “if I keep trying I could be an artist and make some sort of living out of it” I’ve always wanted to be paid for what I do, not only because it’s kind of a dream of mine but also because I actually NEED it now, well for a few years I’ve needed it, I can’t work physically, out in the open, etc. I promise you, I am unable to do anything in RL, it made me realize I am really not able to do anything, I have too many limitations, I’ve graduated HS even if I was there a few more years than planned, I’ve never had a job, not even babysitting, the reason why I didn’t graduate on time is because I couldn’t bring myself to go to school most of the time, as well as If the bell rang before I got to a class, I could never go to a class, that’s how bad my anxiety is, how all my problems are, I can’t even speak up to clerks, judges, anything, no matter how bad the situation. I’m always told “well once it gets bad enough you’re gonna have to bring yourself to do it” IT DOESN”T WORK THAT WAY, not for me, I wish it would, it makes me feel even more like a failure knowing I can’t do it. I won’t magically be able to do something just because the circumstances get worse, if anything that would make things harder for me. That’s another reason why I try to believe in what I do when it comes to art, it’s the only thing I’ve been “open” about, the only thing, ONLY thing I’ve ever been confident about, which makes it worse that I know I’m not well known, I’ve never been successful with it, especially not in a memorable way. I’ve had random one shot things that I’ve never been paid for, winning design on an anime store logo, getting into an art gallery, but not much else. I NEVER leave my house, I don’t have any friends, so it would also be good since all my time is dedicated to art, I’d be able to have a full time job doing this. I am always balancing on “my art sucks, not because my skills suck but because what I do isn’t memorable or I don’t pump things out fast enough.” and “I’m good, right? why am I not getting any attention?” I know most people don’t like when people have mindsets like this, well people who are open about it. So, since I, myself do want to get commission work and sell what I do, am I allowed to want attention? Should I actually try to get attention? I try my best not to because of how frail my mind is, anything breaks me, and hey it sucks, I try not to get attention due to being afraid of people me things like stop asking for attention, or people who want to hate on you just to do it, I already have enough at that as it is. I really need it though, I’m homeless now, no money, no place to go, no nothing, I’m scared. Even right now my mind is saying “I’m a failure” over and over again, though I try to think “everything will be okay, you just need to keep trying” but then it switches to “you’re not good enough, nobody likes you, stop trying already you aren’t good enough to be more than you are now.” I hope someone reads this..

How to help an artist:

Ditch the like button

No, seriously. If you don’t have money to help out an artist financially, the second best thing is to reblog all the things you like. While liking it does tell the artist that “hey I really like this!” It does jack shit because the only ones who will see that are me and you.

Why do you think there are so SO many posts made by people that are literally summed down to “please reblog my artwork I need the notes!”? Because no one reblogs artwork. Unless you’re a ridiculously popular blog with thousands of followers, you’ll only end up getting 1 or no reblogs.

SO HELP OUT ARTISTS AND PLEASE REBLOG OUR ART, BECAUSE WE REALLY NEED THE VIEWS ;V;)/

SO.....I’m homeless now, well our landlord just kicked us out today, we have no way to pack anything, nowhere to go, three cats, no money I’m super sick right now and can’t even walk around the house without wanting to fall over...

Does anyone know where you can upload and link videos directly from phone that are longer than a minute or two....

(Please dont watch if you dont want to see possibly triggering things involved with relationships, emotional abuse or alcohol ..)I hate to post this, I have so many of these though, most too long to post but.... I JUST NEED to feel okay, I'm always scared, always hurt emotionally and called bad things, I wish I could show it all but it's embarrassing at the same time....I'm weak, no matter what I say or do I'm called or told horrible things. I might look through some of them and find significant ones I can post under a minute... Maybe I am too open...

Yay, I'm sick, I can't do anything, just wanna rest, no medication or food or anything.

Still making opal, just lack a drive due to personal reasons... But once I am able to I want to make other stuff, more detailed I guess, like practice with bodies I guess, it might help me with my drawings and what not, it just seems I can pump out sculptures more than I can drawings, so it’s kinda discouraging when I draw something for a long time I don’t get as much satisfaction as seeing something sitting in front of me. I love drawing, it just feels kinda pointless even though I think I finally found “my style” after all these years, it’s funny though, ever since I was kid I’ve always been involved/interested in the same things, drawing, minerals, outerspace and sculpting, I would rarely hang out with others. I’d always just draw and dig outside looking for pretty stones and stuff, a teacher handed me clay with a sculpting book on how to make beads and tiny food when I was in 5th grade, I enjoyed building things out of wood in middle school and then ceramics in HS, it’s funny in HS it got to the point pretty much any teacher would let me sculpt and draw in class, I miss school, I miss being able to feel “important” or like I meant something, that I had people to talk to about whatever, being able to actually step outside without having a panic attack (heck a bear running in front of me at 5am on my way to school didn’t even freak me out as bad as just speaking to someone now. I’ve regressed so badly, I want to be how I used to be, I want to be able just to walk to a park and sit outside, I want to try my hand at an anime con again and maybe even trying to get a table in AA, but....I don’t know what’s happened to me, all these hopes and dreams I’ve had are all just....so hard to comprehend anymore.