Don't Sabotage Your Future Peace Because Familiar Chaos Is Comfortable.

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Brushing my teeth is my arch nemesis, the bane of my existence, the bringer of evil and hardship, my enemy and my unreachable goal, the wall that stands strongly between me and being a somewhat functional 26 year old, a true symbol of incompetence and failure and...

Okay, I'm exedurating. But also I'm not. I have struggled with brushing my teeth all my life, but what I have struggled with even more is the shame I feel because of it.

"This shouldn't be hard, this shouldn't be an issue, I shouldn't be struggling with this."

Well, because of a multitude of things, I AM strugling with this. And saying that it should be easy isn't exactly helping.

"global internet and computer outage affecting companies" well i can get on tumblr just fine. skill issue.

I think the goal is not to be perfect and try to change everything of us (or others too, as we project on them our "dark" sides) but to accept ourselves despite our imperfections and "flaws". No matter how much we try, we'll always end up doing or saying something that can be considered wrong or bad, even unconsciously. And that's completely okay. We interface with different people, and we cannot please everyone or we'll just go crazy. But we need to please ourselves and give us a break. Be kind with ourselves as we're just trying. Appreciate who we are, light and dark. We'll always make mistakes, we'll always make a wrong choice... Sure we can try to change what we really do not appreciate, the coping mechanisms that are hindering and making us suffer (the ones we're not even aware of), but we need to remember there's no recipe to be perfect as there's no real perfection. We can always try to be better but we cannot reach that perfection we aim to as it doesn't exist. We cannot be that to feel accepted and included, to feel seen and valued, to feel less alone: people change their mind as the wind anyway. But we can see all of who we are and welcome our darkest side and try to feel more content and... not make us feel alone by abandoning and neglecting a side of us that still exists and needs our love, even if we accuse it to not let us be accepted by others. Maybe if we accepted it, accepted our whole self, and knew us... maybe we'd feel less alone, more apt to see our light within without having to compare to others and more open to others too.