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Alex Boyé: Suicide Awareness Concert

Heya everyone! Recently I was able to go to a Suicide Awareness Concert, done by Alex Boyé, and I got some pictures and videos of it. There’s, like, a lot though, so I’ll be posting it in parts. Pretty much this will be one post that I keep reblogging, I’ll add to the post every day until everything is out.

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I didn’t record most songs, mainly because they’re all on YouTube, so I’ll provide a link to that song and also the pictures I took during it.

Though the videos I do add are talks. People telling their stories. And I wanted to record these because I think they’re very important.

Some of them got cut off in the beginning, that’s my fault for not starting the video soon enough.

And lighting in the videos is not the greatest because it wouldn’t let me change the video settings.

It's World Bipolar Day

I was going to draw Neurosis!Asgore

But technically this is Bipolar!Asgore (SNT) because I have yet to decide if Neurosis!Asgore would be covered in vines. It doesn't really make sense for his character, but there is a reason in SNT.

(At this point these are my refs because I can't manage to finish my actual refs--

These are old and irrelevant. Current refs are under NeurosisRefs

Our skeletons.

Fun fact, Papyrus has had 25 redesigns, and Sans is close second with 21. And I do really enjoy both of their designs so I think they are here to stay. (Actually both are still counting.

Papyrus: Anxiety Disorders

Sans: Addiction to Self-Harm

I haven’t done anything because I don’t want to exist right now.

It’s Mental Health/ADHD Awareness month, last week was Mental Health Awareness Week, OCD Awareness Week is now, World Mental Health Day was a few days ago, today is Anti-bullying Day, it’ll be Red Ribbon Week (not the one done is schools but the actual one) and normally I’d draw something for all of these, but... I’m not going to. I’ve updated Muffet’s ADHD info, though.

Oh yeah, I’m almost done with a few of the refs. And when I say a few, I mean a few. The others haven’t even been started. So don’t get your hopes up anytime soon (mostly talking to myself on that one).

Also the book, I haven’t posted the last four chapters and it’s basically still just the reason of not existing. Probably not going to update it for a few more weeks even though I’ve finished writing most of it, but it’ll be up-to-date by October 22.

Also with the book I’ve been debating if I should put everything into one book because Pros: Navigation, read in order/context, overall easier and more user-friendly, TIMELINE Cons: Constantly switching main characters in a not-very-easy-to-understand format, that one book that could make people hate me... TIMELINE

Whatever. I’ll be back eventually.

@orcakt

These are old and irrelevant. Current refs are under NeurosisRefs

The Dreemurr family.

Toriel: Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Asgore: Bipolar Disorder

Flowey: Schizophrenia

Frisk: Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Chara: Clinical Depression

I was always curious to know why there is a bed of flowers in Waterfall (Frisk falls on them after being chased by Undyne). At that point, you learn more about Chara so I decided to give the flowers a background.

Chara and their friends were playing in Waterfall when Chara tripped, falling off the cliff and into the dump (on top of the sharp grates). Chara comes really close to dying (☝︎✌︎💧︎❄︎☜︎☼︎ saved them), and Asgore/Toriel had flowers planted there for safety of others.

(TW: Blood)

"Tag, you're it!"

     Sans laughed, running around the maze, trying to stay away from Chara. They were running on the path next to him; he stuck his tongue out at them.

     Chara looked at him, playfully annoyed. The human slowed down just a little bit so they weren't parallel, then positioned themself to jump the gap over to him. They chased him to the large dead-end platform before running to tag him.

     He dodged. At the same moment, Chara hit a bad step and slipped. They quickly went into a summersault, protecting their head and neck from the sharp grates. The child landed in a kneeling position; not realizing how close they were to the edge. Chara quickly tried to stand up. Once again slipping. they were too close to react as their head slammed into the grate.

     They groaned and felt like they were slipping backward.

     "CHARA!!" Sans shrieked, running toward them.

     No, they /were/ slipping backward! Then falling. Not being able to reach the grates, they reached for Sans' outstretched hand. But he was just barely too far.

     "CHARA!!"

     Soon Papyrus, Asriel, and another kid they were playing with were there, . Chara watched their friends get smaller, became filled with determination, positioned themself to maybe protect their head and neck for when they hit the ground, "I don't want to die,"

    They heard and felt the loud snap and echo of hitting grate. There was only a moment of complete white in Chara's vision, before nothing.

     Sans panicked, "Chara, nononono,"

     "Sans, calm down," Papyrus urged gently before hugging his older brother, "go get them and bring them to dad. We'll meet you there."

     "Yeah, okay," he replied weakly before calming down enough to teleport to the dump. He picked his friend up; blood ran freely from their mouth and although there were no bones piercing through their skin, their mangled position said countless had broken. Not to mention the large cuts and gashes on many parts of their body, likely from the sharp grates cutting.

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    The lab was farther, and he had never teleported more than himself before. Still, he tried to clear his mind and focus. When he opened his eyes, Waterfall was gone, replaced with the lab he called home. He couldn't see anyone, so he just screamed,

Undertale by Toby Fox

Character designs based off @miss-chans's designs for young Chara and Sans

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Okay, so this was supposed to be for Miss Chans' Day 3 (Memories) of Chans Week but like,,,, I’m obviously really late. And the reason is, I wasn’t home at all last week,,, so I couldn’t send it until today.

I have more than one today.

The Multiverse hates you because you're a "Pervert."

I don't think becoming a demon is going to help you much.

Which is sad because I absolutely love Lust.

And Rosemary (DV!Lust) has a very pretty design.

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Rosemary (DV!Lust) and Doomverse!Reaper by @abrasive002