orcakt

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chara can you please kill me please just kill me i don’t think i should life so please if don’t kill then i will because kill me will make me happier will you kill me because i never knew anything outside pain anger suffering sadness depression grief loss so will you take the life of this suicidal human being

Hello. This ask has caused me a lot of pain and confusion. I meant to speak with you privately but i could not have access to a dm.... I will say this, please be okay and not hurt yourself... at the very least please seek help from loved ones or people you have there with you that you trust.. please open up with them somehow and ask for help. Just talk things out, and please have a little courage to admit what is hurting you to them. Please do not listen to strangers in the internet who will tell you and feed your most helpless thoughts. It's just a small step to talk to your trusted people and slowly find yourself again. Please stay determined. Thank you.

@tatatale You've given hope to those who need it most. Now they're ready to return it =)

Good luck, Alive. All of Neurosistale believes in you.

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Neurosistale by me (JadaE)

Undertale by Toby Fox

This was worth the extra time it took to color.

DV!Error and Avarice by @abrasive002

I have more than one today.

The Multiverse hates you because you're a "Pervert."

I don't think becoming a demon is going to help you much.

Which is sad because I absolutely love Lust.

And Rosemary (DV!Lust) has a very pretty design.

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Rosemary (DV!Lust) and Doomverse!Reaper by @abrasive002

Your drawings are so pog

Thank you =)

*Avarice laughs in pure joy.

(I spelt jewel wrong..?)

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Doomverse!Error by @abrasive002

I drew his shoes correctly and now I like the design eVeN mOrE??

He's sitting on the fridge because the couch is boring. Or something.

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Doomverse by @abrasive002

(Abrasive, if you ever want me to stop tagging you, let me know =) )

Well, dang it. I draw Doomverse!Killer once and now I'm completely obsessed with his design.

Wrath: "I don't know how Nightmare ever delt with you."

Killer: "Lol."

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I dunno if Killer is still a brat after being infected, but it seems like a core piece of his personality.

Doomverse by @abrasive002

This thing https://www.tumblr.com/kokobot This thing is amazing. It forced its way into my life (the best things do) and I love it. If you’re struggling with something or want to help others with their struggles, try it. It’s completely anonymous. And they have a website, too. https://www.kokocares.org/ It’s cute and fun. I like it =)

Correction, the book will be up-to-date on October 27 because my teachers decided to lay homework on heavily. Like, come on, is it really necessary to assign us two 10 page essays this week? I get one, but two? I've already written more pages in essays than in my series of eight books.

Also

I think I'm just going to do one book with giant titles and a lot of disclaimers and warnings because... Quotev navigation, links in Wattpad. and personal reasons...

And now A picture Of something completely unrelated Because my ability to focus right now is GARBAGE Haha ha ha....

I like Red, okay? He's the greatest.

I drew this in a moving car with really bad drawing paper and a mechanical pencil. Normally I toss these sorts of drawings, but this time I finished and actually didn’t hate it. So now Tumblr gets it, too.

I haven’t done anything because I don’t want to exist right now.

It’s Mental Health/ADHD Awareness month, last week was Mental Health Awareness Week, OCD Awareness Week is now, World Mental Health Day was a few days ago, today is Anti-bullying Day, it’ll be Red Ribbon Week (not the one done is schools but the actual one) and normally I’d draw something for all of these, but… I’m not going to. I’ve updated Muffet’s ADHD info, though.

Oh yeah, I’m almost done with a few of the refs. And when I say a few, I mean a few. The others haven’t even been started. So don’t get your hopes up anytime soon (mostly talking to myself on that one).

Also the book, I haven’t posted the last four chapters and it’s basically still just the reason of not existing. Probably not going to update it for a few more weeks even though I’ve finished writing most of it, but it’ll be up-to-date by October 22.

Also with the book I’ve been debating if I should put everything into one book because Pros: Navigation, read in order/context, overall easier and more user-friendly, TIMELINE Cons: Constantly switching main characters in a not-very-easy-to-understand format, that one book that could make people hate me… TIMELINE

Whatever. I’ll be back eventually.

I haven’t done anything because I don’t want to exist right now.

It’s Mental Health/ADHD Awareness month, last week was Mental Health Awareness Week, OCD Awareness Week is now, World Mental Health Day was a few days ago, today is Anti-bullying Day, it’ll be Red Ribbon Week (not the one done is schools but the actual one) and normally I’d draw something for all of these, but... I’m not going to. I’ve updated Muffet’s ADHD info, though.

Oh yeah, I’m almost done with a few of the refs. And when I say a few, I mean a few. The others haven’t even been started. So don’t get your hopes up anytime soon (mostly talking to myself on that one).

Also the book, I haven’t posted the last four chapters and it’s basically still just the reason of not existing. Probably not going to update it for a few more weeks even though I’ve finished writing most of it, but it’ll be up-to-date by October 22.

Also with the book I’ve been debating if I should put everything into one book because Pros: Navigation, read in order/context, overall easier and more user-friendly, TIMELINE Cons: Constantly switching main characters in a not-very-easy-to-understand format, that one book that could make people hate me... TIMELINE

Whatever. I’ll be back eventually.

A L I V E Masterpost / Ko-fi tips / Twitter /

I finished it. So please, let me explain what this is.

First, it’s Undertale September, but I decided to just do everything at once. Second, I liked the idea of every character being from a different AU. This was pretty much randomly assigned, so I had to design a few of the characters that didn’t previously exist in the story. Third, I liked @tatatale​‘s Palette Challenge so I did every character in a different palette.

And so, I ended up with this

Gasttale Frisk by (unknown), palette 11 Stroyshift Asriel by voltrathelively, palette 12 Spirittale Flowey by my friend (Belle), palette 12 Chesstale Chara by (unknown), design by me, palette 3 Xtale Toriel by Jakei, palette 4 Underswap Napstablook by Popcorn Pr1nce, palette 15 Underlust Sans by NSFWShamecave, palette 6 Birdtale Papyrus by Greyscales(I think?), palette 7 Undertale Annoying Dog by Toby Fox, palette 18 Magusverse Grimm(Grillby) by xfr3eax, palette 19 Burstale Shopkeeper by Aymar, design by me, palette 10 Othertale Undyne by Superyoumna, palette 1 Overtale Gerson by (unknown), design by me, palette 2 Horrortale Mad Mew Mew by SourAppleStudios, design found online, palette 13 Underpray Shyren by (unknown), design by me, palette 4 Dancetale Monster Kid by Teandstars, design by me, palette 15 FNaFtale Temmie by JadaE (me), palette 16 GZtale Alphys by Golzy Blade Dee, palette 17 Quantumtale Burgerpants by perfectshadow06, palette 8 Underdecay Mettaton by Little-Noko, palette 9 Deltarune Bratty by Toby Fox , palette 1 Reapertale Catty by Renrink, design by me, palette 20 Epictale Muffet by Yugogeer, palette 2 Neurosistale Asgore by JadaE (me), palette 3 Deathflower  Gaster  River Person by JadaE (me), palette 5 Clickertale Onion-san by Vitjok, design by me, palette 20

AUs that landed on the amalgamates (which kept them the same): Underfell by Underfella (Memoryhead, palette 14) Outertale by 2mi127 (Lemon Bread, palette 5) Endertale by TC-96 (Reaper Bird, palette 16) Glitchtale by Camila Cuevas (Endogeny, palette 17) Abysstale by Meta-kaz (Snowdrake’s Mother, palette 18)

I’ve completely startled myself. Do you realize how short a month is? Like I’m trying to finish something by beginning of November. Oh, I’ve got month and a half. No biggy. No. That’s five weeks. Five weeks And weeks are shockingly short. I mean, I’ve been in school for what, three weeks? And I feel like I started a week ago. I DON’T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO FINISH THIS!! Not with 12 hours of coding homework every week!

So I started publishing Faded Gold like four weeks ago... But I didn’t mention it. So I’m mentioning it now.

Quotev Wattpad

I have a reminder to publish Tuesdays and Thursdays. Time unspecified. But really, just expect two chapters every week. Because sometimes life and school gets ahead of me in every possible way you can think of.

It’s just a giant mountain pile of things to do. But it’s fine, because on the other side of that mountain is depression. So we keep slowly chipping at the mountain because if we don’t, it’ll get bigger and depression will try to walk around it. But it we keep chipping at it, depression will sit there and wait, expecting it to eventually be gone and then it doesn’t have to do any work to get to me. ....... I’m going to go prove to myself I remember CSS from five years ago, now.

Oh, something random (since I started and don’t want to keep doing homework right now), I’ve been watching the Tumblr Sexyman stuff on Twitter that’s happening. I don’t have Twitter, but it’s a ton of fun to watch. I’ll probably draw who I’m voting for based on how he places. All I know when writing this is the character I’ve been voting for the entire time is in the final two. What am I doing with my life

I’m also working on another larger project. I’m 80% done, and will be posting that for Undertale’s Anniversary (Sep 15) because determination to complete something by the time I want to.

I need the motivation boost...

OKay back to homework now.

Losing the Battle

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This is a video released in 2018. It talks about his channel and a friend of his, but he gives a very important message. So if you could give a few minutes to listen...

Guess what I finally finished the Alex Boye Concert post It took way too long but it’s done

If you want only the videos, here’s a playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLwVRzhUoWdwiwaqjS_KcDgj8y6SoO6_GN

Lemonade

Original Song:

Alex Boyé: Suicide Awareness Concert

Heya everyone! Recently I was able to go to a Suicide Awareness Concert, done by Alex Boyé, and I got some pictures and videos of it. There’s, like, a lot though, so I’ll be posting it in parts. Pretty much this will be one post that I keep reblogging, I’ll add to the post every day until everything is out.

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I didn’t record most songs, mainly because they’re all on YouTube, so I’ll provide a link to that song and also the pictures I took during it.

Though the videos I do add are talks. People telling their stories. And I wanted to record these because I think they’re very important.

Some of them got cut off in the beginning, that’s my fault for not starting the video soon enough.

And lighting in the videos is not the greatest because it wouldn’t let me change the video settings.

@orcakt

I was always curious to know why there is a bed of flowers in Waterfall (Frisk falls on them after being chased by Undyne). At that point, you learn more about Chara so I decided to give the flowers a background.

Chara and their friends were playing in Waterfall when Chara tripped, falling off the cliff and into the dump (on top of the sharp grates). Chara comes really close to dying (☝︎✌︎💧︎❄︎☜︎☼︎ saved them), and Asgore/Toriel had flowers planted there for safety of others.

(TW: Blood)

"Tag, you're it!"

     Sans laughed, running around the maze, trying to stay away from Chara. They were running on the path next to him; he stuck his tongue out at them.

     Chara looked at him, playfully annoyed. The human slowed down just a little bit so they weren't parallel, then positioned themself to jump the gap over to him. They chased him to the large dead-end platform before running to tag him.

     He dodged. At the same moment, Chara hit a bad step and slipped. They quickly went into a summersault, protecting their head and neck from the sharp grates. The child landed in a kneeling position; not realizing how close they were to the edge. Chara quickly tried to stand up. Once again slipping. they were too close to react as their head slammed into the grate.

     They groaned and felt like they were slipping backward.

     "CHARA!!" Sans shrieked, running toward them.

     No, they /were/ slipping backward! Then falling. Not being able to reach the grates, they reached for Sans' outstretched hand. But he was just barely too far.

     "CHARA!!"

     Soon Papyrus, Asriel, and another kid they were playing with were there, . Chara watched their friends get smaller, became filled with determination, positioned themself to maybe protect their head and neck for when they hit the ground, "I don't want to die,"

    They heard and felt the loud snap and echo of hitting grate. There was only a moment of complete white in Chara's vision, before nothing.

     Sans panicked, "Chara, nononono,"

     "Sans, calm down," Papyrus urged gently before hugging his older brother, "go get them and bring them to dad. We'll meet you there."

     "Yeah, okay," he replied weakly before calming down enough to teleport to the dump. He picked his friend up; blood ran freely from their mouth and although there were no bones piercing through their skin, their mangled position said countless had broken. Not to mention the large cuts and gashes on many parts of their body, likely from the sharp grates cutting.

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    The lab was farther, and he had never teleported more than himself before. Still, he tried to clear his mind and focus. When he opened his eyes, Waterfall was gone, replaced with the lab he called home. He couldn't see anyone, so he just screamed,

Undertale by Toby Fox

Character designs based off @miss-chans's designs for young Chara and Sans

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Okay, so this was supposed to be for Miss Chans' Day 3 (Memories) of Chans Week but like,,,, I’m obviously really late. And the reason is, I wasn’t home at all last week,,, so I couldn’t send it until today.

Schizophrenia Awareness Week

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Asriel: Schizophrenia

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Neurosistale by me (JadaE)

Undertale by Toby Fox

I'll probably get killed for posting this but I'm going to anyway.

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Nmare drawn by me, Taffy was drawn by her creator

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Nightmare by Jokublog

Taffy by @mimi-ikfrea

Personal Oc of mine

I love her new design

Depression and Anxiety Awareness Week

I didn't draw their halos because they are too close meaning they would overlap

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Chara: Clinical Depression

Papyrus: Generalized Anxiety Disorder

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Neurosistale by me (JadaE)

Undertale by Toby Fox

It's Child Abuse Awareness Day

It's also Stress Awareness Day

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Wingding: Victim of Child Abuse

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Neurosistale by me (JadaE)

Undertale by Toby Fox

It's World Bipolar Day

I was going to draw Neurosis!Asgore

But technically this is Bipolar!Asgore (SNT) because I have yet to decide if Neurosis!Asgore would be covered in vines. It doesn't really make sense for his character, but there is a reason in SNT.

(At this point these are my refs because I can't manage to finish my actual refs--

It's Self-Injury Awareness Day, so have a picture of Sans being silly

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Sans: Addiction to Self-Harm

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Neurosistale by me (JadaE)

Undertale by Toby Fox

National Eating Disorder Awareness (NEDA) Week ends tomorrow so I figured I'd draw some of the Neurosistale characters...

Also I think this is my first time showing Noelle's design.

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Grillby: Bulimia

Noelle: Anorexia

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Neurosistale by me (JadaE)

Undertale/Deltarune by Toby Fox