Somehow, I Have To Let Go Of The Past When I'm Not Having Memory Issues.

bpd culture is pushing people away as your coping mechanism but then you realise that you’re being a shitty person and you don’t actually want to leave them -🎐

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All the stuff you learn from your attempts at healthy coping doesn't get erased the moment you relapse. And you can use that knowledge to pick yourself back up and try again when you're ready. It's not a case of starting over from scratch, it's a case of stumbling and getting back up

My Oc Caster. He can control the weather. I've been ruminating this character for years and it's based off of Ausayn and my first Oc I ever made, a Squirrel in 4th grade. He also has clouds in his ears and on his coat.

Quarter angles whoo!

“I don’t hold on to anything anymore. Pain comes at me and I take it, chew it for a few minutes, and spit it back out. It’s just not my thing anymore.”

— Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

Never thought I'd be 33 and ruin all my friendships and relationships while dealing with my mental illness. Wish I could explain what it's like to people when you lose your ability to function in reality during an episode of psychosis.

I talked about my past again but this time to my Free Company in FFXIV and I'm nervous because I'm afraid I killed the chat or made people not want to respond or talk to me at all.

“If I have learned anything over this last year it’s that you have to live your own life too so that if something we hoped for doesn’t work out, you still have two legs to stand on, you still have your own path.”

— T.S. Krupa

I used to say I was a void person but not so much anymore and I used to feel like I shouldn't take up space or exist at all but now not so much. Being terrible at communicating sucks though. I used to have wit and charm and good looks but I'm just rotting away. I'm giving myself till 35 to pick up the pieces and improve but I doubt it'll go anywhere successful.