Sadjapes - Japes

They turned out perfectly fine and I had a great day even though I am going to sleep for a while and then maybe leave the internet.

“If I have learned anything over this last year it’s that you have to live your own life too so that if something we hoped for doesn’t work out, you still have two legs to stand on, you still have your own path.”

— T.S. Krupa

my mental illness is going to ruin every friendship, every relationship, it’s going to fucking destroy everything and i don’t know how to stop it

“Just for the record darling, not all positive change feels positive in the beginning.”

— S.C. Lourie

Being a young adult is so strange. You enter a coffee shop. The 20 year old girl waiting behind you cried all night because she just came to a new city for university and she feels so alone. That 27 year old guy over there works a job he is overqualified for, he lives with his parents and wants to move out but doesn't know what to do about it. That one 24 year old dude already has a car, a house, and a job waiting for him once he graduates thanks to his dad's connections. The 26 year old barista couldn't complete his higher education because he has to work and take care of his family. The 28 year old girl sitting next to you has no friends to go out with so she is texting her mother. That couple (both 25 years old) are married and the girl is pregnant. The 29 year old writing something on her laptop has realized that she chose the wrong major so she is trying to start all over. We are not alone in this, but we are actually so alone. Do you feel me

Never thought I'd be 33 and ruin all my friendships and relationships while dealing with my mental illness. Wish I could explain what it's like to people when you lose your ability to function in reality during an episode of psychosis.

“I don’t hold on to anything anymore. Pain comes at me and I take it, chew it for a few minutes, and spit it back out. It’s just not my thing anymore.”

— Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

An experimental piece I made in 20 minutes or so to find a new design for Jake and way to draw for fun.

Somehow, I have to let go of the past when I'm not having memory issues.