Sadjapes - Japes

TJ from earlier this year.

Occasionally, it hits me that I can just disappear. I can be whoever I want to be. Whatever I've told people, whatever anyone knows of me can all be history. I can move on and become a totally different person if I wanted to. Anyone can. I think that's what's so scary.

It's so easy to accidentally reblog on mobile.

you are not responsible for how other people behave.

"I cant draw" then do it bad who gives a fuck.....

I wish I could keep myself from dissociating and thinking of everything that's happened and then obsessing. I didn't think I'd end up this way. It's hard to deal with and let go.

They turned out perfectly fine and I had a great day even though I am going to sleep for a while and then maybe leave the internet.

Now I know everything I thought wasn't real really isn't real. I've been having delusions for years. It's been harrowing. I've bothered others, gone off the deep end. If only I could go back 5 years and undo what has happened and what I did. I don't feel the crippling guilt anymore at least that's lasted my entire life.