Sadjapes - Japes

If I follow you and you're uncomfortable with it you're free to block me.

It’s okay to mourn the things you lost because of trauma. Including the time you lost. But try not to forget you still have time ahead of you. You can never get the lost time back but you can still find happiness.

Socially I've ruined myself by being insane and having bpd like symptoms and now I'm just rotting inside while snacking like crazy and I'm not sure how you're supposed to be after electroshock therapy but I'm definitely not the same anymore. I can't hold conversations or anything like that without them being horribly awkward.

“Whatever you do, good or bad, people will always have something negative to say.”

— W.H. Auden

choices made in anger is such a crazy image. if you know what i'm talking about

Ain't nothing like getting back to yourself after going through some shit.

I'm alone but maybe one day I won't be. After suffering from schizophrenia for 5 years and multiple hospitalizations and ruining all my friendships I hope I can find something or somebody to talk to and relate to. I hope one day I can do something with my art. I am scared and have been canceled before. I have made so many mistakes in life and left places feeling less than. But I hope it will be okay one day and the pain will go away.