Sadjapes - Japes

I used to say I was a void person but not so much anymore and I used to feel like I shouldn't take up space or exist at all but now not so much. Being terrible at communicating sucks though. I used to have wit and charm and good looks but I'm just rotting away. I'm giving myself till 35 to pick up the pieces and improve but I doubt it'll go anywhere successful.

It's all my fault in the end isn't it.

“The past doesn’t need you anymore. Your future does.”

— Unknown

Never really held fast to this but I do now because it's just how it is.

Aro/Ace. He/They.

A brief moment of rationality from the bird place.

Somehow, I have to let go of the past when I'm not having memory issues.

You're valid if you're upset that other people were shocked by your trauma when you disclosed it and you felt like there wasn't room for your own feelings. You're valid if you're upset that other people weren't shocked enough and feel like maybe it means your trauma wasn't that bad (spoiler: it was).

my mental illness is going to ruin every friendship, every relationship, it’s going to fucking destroy everything and i don’t know how to stop it

Drawing using both my tablets today until I get better at using my tablet with a screen on it.