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When I actually get my shit together and work on getting a service dog in this life, I am probably gonna try and get a german shepherd and name them Remo or something similar cause yeah.

When I get my shit together, I will probably be asking for donations, but I want to know more before asking for money. I am unsure of what program I am going to use exactly, I have an idea, but idk yet.

I should probably try and get diagnosed anxiety [cause I haven't been diagnosed, but it's definitely obvious] and maybe look into OCD and PTSD more? I know I have trauma and shit, I just don't know if it's PTSD levels or whatever. And the OCD I am unsure if it's just the AuDHD combo or OCD as well.

If anyone has any advice about any of this that relates to America, please feel free to give the advice.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.

When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.

I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c

I wanna make it clear that while I check my posts multiple times before posting, there could always be spelling or grammar mistakes or even words used wrong or weirdly.

I have a learning disability [it's called Specific Learning Disability on my paperwork, lol], as well as being autistic and ADHD. So keep all of that in mind if you see mistakes in my posts. Also, if you are polite about it, do feel free to correct me.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

Yeah, for some, it's harder to accept their identity and shit, but for some alterhumans and nonhumans (including therians) it is voluntary and/or easier to accept their identity.

Let's not exclude them (not saying you were but mostly talking about in general, this post is just the best time and place to really say it).

Voluntary identities for alterhumans and nonhumans are just as valid as involuntary identities just as a reminder for everyone.

- Shay 🐾

I find the "all therians chose" antis funny.

I used to be one of you.

Trust me I wished everything but to be that way lmao.

It wasn't a process of waking up and going "therians aren't weird anymore, I pick fox!"

It was a process of heavy denial and slowly accepting my identity despite what I used to believe in.

Adding on to the vent.

Tw/cw: suicide mention, suicidal thoughts, and shit like that

What do you do when in past lives you were disabled but still did stuff that you can't in this life?

What do you do when you realize that you should be more able to do stuff in this life but you are less able?

What do you do when you can't even talk about most of this to most people you know in person cause they wouldn't understand and would hate you?

What do you do when you want to make yourself more disabled than you already are?

What do you do when you are so close to trying to end it all because you can't see why you should keep living?

What do you do when you don't even think you could end it all cause you're scared and just not really wanting to end it all?

What do you do when you can't mention this to people cause you don't want to be sent away even when the place you're currently at sucks?

What do you do when you want to live but you want to die?

- Shay 🐾

Little vent from us. We are kinda going through some shit rn.

We don't think there are any tw/cw but if there are let us know.

What do you do when you realize that you might not be able to work a "normal" job or maybe any job at all ever?

What do you do when you realize that your disabilities affect what you are able to do in ways that are so against what you wanted to do and what you wish you could do?

What do you do when disabilities are actually disabling?

What do you do when other people don't understand even when they are disabled themselves?

What do you do in any situations where disabilities affect what happens?

What do you do when you need to tell people and make them understand that you are disabled and that means you can't do the same things as others?

- Shay 🐾

What do you do when you are disabled?

We aren't really good at drawing but we are thinking of starting to do commissions soon. Are there any good tips for both art and commissions?

Like what's the best way to get the money from commissions (PayPal, gofundme, etc)? [And other tips for commissions].

Also just art/drawing tips for both traditional and digital.

[We don't have a job, are working on getting disability income, and the body's dad only gets disability and retirement so we don't have very much money.]

Edit: Also, what would you like to see us try to do commissions of? (Examples: animals, anthro animals, humans/human-like beings, etc).

- Shay 🐾

moonfire is such an interesting name ! / pos .

what are prns aesthetics ?

angel / oath ( she / he ) , host .

Yeah, Moonfire is an interesting name, lol. They come from a D&D character idea we had, lol.

Sorry, we are a bit confused about your question. If you could explain a bit more we would appreciate it. :3c

- ShaySubpack 🐾

Same here!!

If people are respectful and shit, they are more than welcome on our account/blog!

- Shay 🐾

putting this out there preemptively, my account is for sure a safe place for any alterhumans coming over from tiktok.

Cause no one else will, I am sending in my own ask to myself about memories from my life as Zuki.

This feels very weird but whatever, lol.

Y'know what, I am asking myself to mention what I remember about how I got adopted by Dadzawa and Papamic, lol.

- :3c

Lol, love this memory. This is about what led up to me actually being adopted by them. This happened sometime after moving into the dorms, not long after cause Eri wasn't around yet.

Start of the memory:

Me and Izuku were in either mine or his room, I can't quite remember which one or what exactly we were doing, I think we were just hanging out on our phones.

Anyways, Aizawa walks in to ask us something, I think [I don't remember exactly what he said, lol]. I do remember not looking up and saying something like, "What's up, dad?" Once I processed what I had said, I just went widewide-eyed and stopped doing what I was doing on my phone, and blinked a few times to try and make sense of why and how that came out of my mouth, lol.

He asked me to repeat what I said, but I (almost) didn't want to bc I was slightly embarrassed, lol, but Zuku decides to repeat it for me [thanks annoying little shit], and dad asked me something like "Would you actually want me to be your dad?" And I was like "Yeah I didn't have much of a father figure growing up, and you're a great dad to Shinso."

Dad said something about working on adopting me, and once he left the room, I turned to look at Izuku and asked something like, "Did he just say something about adopting me?" And Izu just nods before going back to what he was doing as I just stare dumbfounded at the wall of the room.

End of the memory

It's awesome and shit to look back on this memory. I'm also gonna remind people that I was 18 when this happened there, lol. The best part was Eraserhead and Present Mic were my two favorite heroes (tied for 1st favorite, lol), so to be adopted by them was amazing. I will definitely go into other memories more. What would you guys like to hear about? You can send it asks with specific questions or just a general memory question.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it + canine/feline/canines/felines/canineself and feline/canine/felines/canines/felineself [technically these specific pronouns were "made" by me]) :3c

Gonna be making a new account/blog.

Gonna put a link on here to it and gonna put a link on it to here.

We will still be using this account sometimes, we just wanna have another one as well.

- Shay (They/it)

What’s it like when an alter has planned something in the back? Do you just get a fully formed plan popping into your head, or do they talk you through it? Do you just switch?

Hello!!!

Considering I am, as far as we can tell so far, always fronting in some way (sometimes I am just technically "lower" fronting but still fronting). The switch part isn't really true.

It's probably a mixture of the other 2 things, though. Also, sometimes they join front or take over the "main"/primary fronting, and I go into "lower" fronting, but that's not as common.

Usually, when the others join me in front, it's as a secondary (tertiary, etc) fronter rather than the primary fronter.

Hope this answered your question!

- Shay 🐾