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Characters that I hc as autistic:

-Dick Grayson. It’s mostly just the vibes. I look at this man and my brain turns on sirens. WEEWOOWEEWOO THIS MAN IS AUTISTIC

-Clint Barton. (the fraction one) ((though honestly it fits most versions of him))

-Sans (and Papyrus). Look at those funky little guys with their safe foods and favorite clothes

-Charlie from Hazbin Hotel. I haven’t watched the show but I can feel the vibes from the clips alone.

-Abby from NCIS. The hyperfocus. The emotional support stuffie. The blasting music. I could go on.

-Pidge from Voltron. *gestures dramatically with both hands*

-Danny Fenton. That child has autistic for a middle name

-Izuku Midoriya is The autistic kid ever. Also Iida.

-Honestly just like all the main characters of FMA/FMAB. I can’t pick one. The alphabet was kinda just splattered all over the lot of em

-Ahsoka Tano. I’d recognize that brand of reasoning anywhere.

-Prince Euden. (From Dragalia Lost RIP)

Random tip for the unwell:

If your knees hurt a lot when you stand all day for a job, check how you turn.

I do not know how people are supposed to turn, but given that the way I do it has been an unrealized source of pain, you can do it wrong.

I tend to let my leg stay on the ground for too long upon pivoting, leading to my femur twisting on top of my knee.

The solution I have found is spinning.

You spin on your heel, letting gravity carry you in the proper direction

It makes you look kinda like a weirdo and wears down your shoes faster but at least it doesn’t wear down your knee joint?

Did you know that you have a face

Random internet stuff that refuses to leave my brain (mostly memes):

-“it’s the one thing you can’t replace” photo thief

-free real estate meme guy with 8 eyes being a spider saying his thing

-the LOTR meme that people always hooked up to the wrong part of the scene (one does not simply, but they put the img where he says “the great eye”)

-cut my life into pieces, this is my chocolate baagakdhsgakhdhs

-the milk video, soup video, and “my berries”

-the theme that plays in Alphys’ lab

-the plane full of arrows that flew over that island

-sad cotton candy raccoon

-I love you Mr bubz

-starving child who desires chicken nugger, sweer potato, and French fried menu story

-hello darkness my old friend Elmo

What random stuff has cursed y’all with its unending presence?

Enter at your own risk

Hey so like why is there a third story door? This region does not get extreme snow, and is too high to be reached by flooding. So. Wh

Anyone else have subconscious conversations they aren’t paying attention to and then all the sudden key in like “does anyone wanna explain what’s going on?” But no the thoughts just skitter away like shadows

Anyway so my brain wants to Baja blast someone or smth into the stratosphere - dunno why

Goblin behavior I (and perhaps u?) participated in in childhood:

- sat high in trees and sang lullabies

- hid in improbable places I only fit bc of hypermobility & would not come out till found or panicked the adults (usually meaning I hid for like 1/2 hr)

- gave store employees “super important” things they lost like fallen fake flower bits n those clothing sizes hanger cuffs

- would lay on the ground absolutely anywhere

- kicked bullies in the shins

- produced a dog whistle thru my front teeth n got slowly louder until someone noticed

- would walk around my house on my knees while holding my ankles to the sides like w sitting

- preferred to swim underwater only and had a large lung capacity

- always had pockets stuffed with rocks, roadside trinkets, shells, pencils & pens, makeshift self defense stuff (like a baggie full of thin dusty dirt 2 throw in an assailants eyes), smth to leave a trail so I wouldn’t get lost, pocket knife (unless at school), and a notebook

- would climb doorways and wait by the ceiling endlessly until someone came so I could startle them

This is what I mean btw

I’m gleeful to announce that our Beloved Bread Wyrm plush has found over 200 homes so far! I’m not alone in wanting to be surrounded by dragons, and I’m happy and thankful that so many of you have sought this little friend out as a companion. The campaign is still going for 7 more days, so I thought to share some behind-the-scenes stuff:

This is the original blueprint I drew for Makeship: a detailed front and side view. I wanted to accentuate the eyes to have that crazed, intense, draconic look. The one that says: I’m huge, I’m terrifying, I’ll dig through your pantry and steal all your silverware. So while my art looks like the dragon’s sizing up a basket of bread, the plush really looks like it already swallowed an entire baguette.

Honestly being a comic artist is wild sometimes. When I first made the comic I hung the plush from my ceiling lamp with a computer cable (didn’t have a rope) and the whole thing CAME crashing down 😐 Seriously dragons are NOT beginner pets, opt for a clothesline if you attempt such a stupid thing.

And just some photos I really like!

And my little sister posing like it’s a damn fish

Today I saw a cute and odd mutt.

Doggo had the silhouette of an Aussie, face and size of a retriever, and color pattern of a husky. They were white and a greyish tan.

Current mood: ugh.

Advice for mixed skin types be like “treat this part of ur face this way and this part that way” but what they don’t know is that the same exact parts of my face are oily and peeling at the same hekkin time ‘:\

Ink drawing of ideas for improvement for my city

I’m not a city designer this is just what I think would be cool - don’t come for me lol

Diff things u can see looking closely:

-solar panels shading a pedestrian crossing (we have a lot of ppl who walk on the side of the hwy)

-rain runoff goes into garden w/ grab n eat plants

-support columns have wedges on sides for nesting since the birds are already shoving themselves into the crannies of the underside

-water mill since we have a fairly big river

-buildings have smaller-scale wind turbines and/or solar panels to support their energy output

-more plants in the city itself! Not just pollen producing trees

-there’s a light rail that goes thru the nearby cities

-continuing to protect the “protected wildlife” areas

TW: prescription side effects..? Idk if that’s a TW but I’ll say it anyway

So like I’ve discovered a double edged side effect of sertraline. If u forget to take it it reminds u but it reminds you with a feeling I can best describe as:

-chromatically aberrating for 0.5 seconds.

- your brain goes “!!”

-softest bio emp

-like when u get vertigo and the world tilts but there’s no tilting involved

-astral projecting out of ur body by a centimeter for a second

-your brain to body signal lagged

Verbal stims of a family

Me: sneep snop, hergldeebergle, deedleedlee, well flip my flapjacks, fridge nuggets, *various noises I cannot imitate with letters*

Dad: *husky dramatics,* *intentionally poor imitation of Elvis songs,* *duck noises made with side of cheek*

Mom: not a verbal stimmer

Gpa: BEEDLEBOM, humbug, buster the cat, *downward whistle-trill* (DEE-dee Du-De-Dooo), buzzard bill, hobo Joe

Gma: *loudest slightly-off-tune whistling ever,* *singing,* *mindless chatter to accompany tasks*

Y’all heard any of those in ur families? Do your parents and grandparents have different ones? Feel free to share

I am here to admit…

I never recovered from haz cheeseburger. I still say hewwow to ppl I know. 😔

… I also haven’t recovered from pop cat

I wanted to share smth that I’ve found helpful lately:

It’s not going to last forever.

You got fed something you’re intolerant to and feel like you’re burning? You will feel better eventually.

You have to go through a social situation you find scary? Eventually you will get to go home and sleep.

Your period pain is debilitating? It is a cycle, and the cycle will eventually end.

You have an interview? They’re what? An hour or two? You have the rest of the day to not be in an interview.

You have to go through TSA? It’s mostly just waiting in line and then like 2 minutes of apprehension. Then you get to leave.

Suffice to say, sometimes something is or is gonna suck, but that’s ok, because it’s going to end.

This too shall pass, ig

It doesn’t apply to everything ofc, but I still find it helpful for when it is.

There is something particularly nice about laying on warm pavement in the cool evening after a sunny day. You can look up at the clouds with the warmth at your back and the breeze on your face

Sometimes growing up an undiagnosed Audhd bean means you didn’t get bullied but you didn’t make any lasting friendships either

Sometimes life is normal and sometimes u walk into a Costco and a giant skeleton is looking at u from over the tops of the aisles

My brain briefly convinced me I saw smth (I saw incorrectly) and I have still not recovered the 10 yrs it stole from me 💀

Multiracial culture

Am I the only one who has a complicated relationship with culture? My family is very mixed, being at most around 30 percent of any given ethnicity.

It feels impossible to participate or integrate all of my family’s cultures at once, but it feels like I’m picking and choosing if I don’t.

It also feels like I don’t quite fit in with any one cultural group, but I grew up with enough of multiple that I feel intrinsically linked…

Anyone else? Thoughts?

You may not believe in ghosts but the ghosts believe in you and that is a threat

Poor circulation and adhd be like:

The numbness in my arms is seeping into half my hand and fingers but I’m not going to move till I physically cant type

I sat here picking at this thing for so long my legs are now refusing to respond

I leaned against the arm of the chair for too long and now ants are stabbing me in the ribs with tiny swords

I switched to lounging with my legs over the arm of the chair and now the ant army is coming for my back

I’ve been compressing this tool for so long my hand has locked up and gone cold

I fell asleep at a bad angle and now my whole arm and part of my neck is asleep

Nonverbal communication of a semiverbal human:

Thanks: asl open-palmed gesture, mouth to other hand (or a nod with a closed eye smile)

Help: wide intense eye contact and emphatic gesturing. Rigid movements

Happy: silly facial expressions, The Fangirl Gesture, wiggly squidward arms, relaxed posture

Anxious: repetitive cyclical motions in hands, arms, face, and feet. Pinched mouth, tension, squishing self into small space, rocking on balls of feet, tapping teeth together, shaking out hands

Sad: slow movement, quiet, rubbing hands or arms or neck. Zoned out, sighing

Anger: rubbing palms with thumbs aggressively, clenched jaw, avoidance, scratching forearms or legs, tugging on own hair, furrowed brows, no eye contact at all, hiding, leaving

Care abt u: buying things u spoke of, pebbling, talking to you often as manageable, sitting with you doing nothing, sitting with you when choice seating, bonking head into your shoulder/ upper arm, smiling at u upon eye contact when first seeing, looking into things u spoke of, trying to figure out how to resolve your problems, inviting you to adventure, showing you creations, sharing special interest

Need comfort/support: Sudden head/shoulder leaning into your shoulder or back, standing slightly to the side and behind you, dramatic groan and flop onto a surface, shoving self into small space or burying self in smth heavy

Don’t Like/ uncomfy w/ You: avoid you, only act cold/professional with you, intense eye contact, only ever American Stranger Smiles at you, doesn’t perpetuate conversation

Sound effects of a semiverbal and what I do them for:

For fun:

-hnarglebarg

-heedlyhoodly

-sneepsnop

-weyll flip my flapjacks!

-keskeh keskeh keskeseh

-binglebongledingledongleswingleswongle fo-fingle-fo-fongle

-kekekekekkekeekkekeke

Calling someones attention to something or to my presence:

-heehoo

-eh!

-hm!

-ezqueedly me

Expression of discomfort:

-mmmMMMM 😡

-*big sigh of chest hurts from anxiety*

-*narrating everything I’m doing with lots of “um” and “ok, uh,” etc*

-*musical fake laughter*

-I contain multitudes

-what’s your favorite day of the month?

Sounds of “I want something from you” usually accompanied by gestures:

-M!

-N!

-Eh!

-*name of person said dramatically*

Notes: I am not a child I just struggle with word finding and formulating my thoughts, especially when I’m struggling with my senses.

Most of the people I spend a significant amount of time with start using some of my stims and odd forms of communication. I often don’t need to do anything other than hum the correct intonation of a phrase to get my point across.

If you don’t know why I would say random things when stressed, its a combo of when I was figuring out (and making fun of) small talk combined with “I need something to leave my body and rn it’s gonna be words”

Me: I am comfy with being called a girl since I have history with it and am used to being referred to she/her.

Also me: *internal gremlin cackling when smol child can’t figure out my gender*

Jail for the adverts.

I think it should be illegal to show me an advertisement ever, under any circumstances

Most insane things I’ve seen while on the road:

- mattress on the highway got ran over by a semi. It went under, the semi waddled, the mattress bunched up, then ejected out the other end like a frog. No one was injured.

- “saw” (heard) a boom as a car passed us on a two way. Looking behind, the car was sideways and smoking. We were not hit and did not hit. We assumed a tire blew or something.

- 3 separate 2 car accidents on the same stretch of highway, separated by like a mile each

- Like 17 broken apart black baby dolls on the road. All different brands and not even slightly in one piece?? I have so many questions????

- A deer ran into us. Into the side of our car.

- A gas price that started with a $1.

- A car with red headlights. Or maybe flipped rear and front lights. Or maybe it was somehow driving backwards on the highway…

- A dude on a bicycle that was also a light-up unicorn. It reminded me of that scene in merry poppies with the carousel race.