I Hate What I've Done To My Body.

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my reasons

To look back at when I'm thinking of quitting

Because I need this

To be the prettiest one in the room at all times

For the chance I'll look more masculine and less like a fat girl

To be comfortable in tight clothes

To look pretty in candid photos

To look pretty at all angles

To fit in pants even when I'm sitting and my thighs are squished

So my binder won't roll up all the time and suffocate me

To look pretty in t shirts, getting rid of the bit of fat on my elbows

To look tall and scary like a tim Burton character

To look less childish and less baby faced

So I don't look stupid eating in public

So I don't look like an overgrown baby at the beach or pool

So I don't have rashes on my thighs from walking for so long, since my thighs won't even touch when I walk

So he stops telling me how odd looking and fat my face is

So I can wear headphones without my glasses squishing my face

So I won't be the only one sweating my ass off in a room ever again

So my knee high socks become actually knee high

So I won't have to buy belts online for my huge waist

So I can find a cute piece of clothing and have it fit no matter the size

To be able to wear ANYTHING and still look good

For children's underwear and socks to fit me because they're the most fun kind

For a jaw line

For the collarbones

For the hip bones

For the ribs

For the bones on the back of my hand

To be beautiful.

I DON’T WANT LOOK LIKE A CLEAN GIRL I WANNA WANT LIKE A CORPSE!! I WANT TO LOOK LIKE A SICKLY VAMPIRE. I WANT TO LOOK LIKE A 90S ROCK STAR WITH MASCARA RUNNING DOWN MY FACE! I LOVE LOOKING HALF DEAD AND ROTTED.

it’s always awkward when people speak to me about 3ds not knowing i am head under the water drowning in one HAHAHA

suffering in silence >>>>

one of my life goals is to have my dream body by the age of 18

looking for an ana coach! ive been needing some triggering stuff lately, so dm me :]

Stats:

5'5

SW: 80kg

CW: 58kg

GW: 45kg

UGW: 42kg

My favorite not binging technique;

"I can have it if I still want it tomorrow", then going to bed. Most the time I don't continue wanting it, orrr I can plan it into my calories for the day 🤷‍♀️

I sure have been putting the eating in eating disorder lately

☆mY f4v3 tH1n5p0!!☆