I am going to see my dad today. He is still on the ventilator and probably will be for the next few days.
I am not ready to lose a parent.
I have hope that the hospital he’s at now can fix this. But I am still scared and overwhelmed.
Sometimes you have to step away to see the whole picture
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Healing is also realizing you're going to have trauma reactions even after you decided to be healthy. That even after saying: "I want to heal, and rest, and I'm going to try to get better," you still let yourself reject help, struggle with trauma reactions, and unhealthy habits. That it's okay, and it's a part of healing. As long as you try to get better.
It's not going to happen immediately. If anything, at first, it's going to get way worse, horrible, even. And then better, and then bad again, and then you'll start getting relapses. And that's okay.
Relapse is a part of healing. Feeling all the bad stuff is a part of healing. Allowing yourself to be traumatized is a part of healing.
-host
Franz Kafka — Letters to Felice (1912-1917)
a lot of the people you guys are calling narcissists could easily be replaced with the word “asshole”