You're Not Always Going To Be Motivated. So You Must Learn To Be Disciplined.

8/30/22

Not having a productive day :/

Honestly hate the chaper I'm trying to study and can't bring myself to focus enough to get it over with. Outside there's a storm brewing and I can't wait for it to begin so i can take a break and read a book i started yesterday.

2/100 days of productivity

from duty— squeezing in some studying before I sleep.

🩷 15.06.2025 // I studied with a 90/15 schedule today and I'm feeling wayyy better than yesterday :)))

I did some physics, chemical analysis, a lot of immunopathology and some pharmacology! I'm glad my bf is here to help me do the past papers because everytime I'm reading one I'm panicking ://

I "only" studied 8 hours today but first I slept in a bit so it was nearly impossible to study more ahah (tomorrow I hope that I'll wake up earlier tho)

Also, tell me if you want more pictures of my cat as she spend all day in my bedroom, sleeping on my bed ahah

law school is not for the weak so why is a pseudo-strong girl like me in it

And sometimes I think, maybe life is not so bad

studying for my weekly tests 📚🩶

⭐ 17.06.2024 // I DID IT!! I DID IT GUYS!!! I STUDIED 10 HOURSSSSS!!!!

I'm tired but especially extremely motivated by the fact that I was able to achieve that much. Like, a few years ago I would never have thought that it would be possible for me to do it EVER. It says so much about my recovery journey and it's awesome. Like I'm able for the first time in YEARS to manage studying a lot of hours, doing a minimum of self care, answering people's texts, planning events for later AND be able to function like a human (so not be overly tired by it). It means a lot for me. I still have progress to make in some domains tho, who doesn't, but it's still amazing

(And honestly Tumblr has something to do with it, I met amazing mutuals here and maybe the "do it scared, do it bad, do it tired" helped me in my journey after all ahah)

PS : my cat didn't want to sleep in my room today so I don't have any pictures of her yet :(( (but she killed a mouse today, ig she had other priorities)

6/3/24 | Monday

Summer desk setup. Starting to study for the August MPRE.

This is so important and always a great reminder!

Information is worth almost nothing if you're not in the (physical or mental) state to use it.

To answer qotd: im struggling with giving up on the "bright kid" mentality. Learning and understanding new things require time and energy and active and constant studying. I'm aware of that. But i sometimes still feel frustrated and stressed out when I don't instantly know or understand a concept.

It's been a process getting better and letting go of the way things used to be, but it now means that i am always excited to learn new things and it feels so rewarding to know stuff because i worked hard for it!

october 5 /24

Self-love, right now, is taking up a large portion of my brain. I don’t have a ton to say about it, but I know that over the years spent on academia pulling all-nighters and placing so much emphasis on blame I’ve learned that having mercy for yourself is so important. I’ve had great mentors and teachers that have taught me that flexibility and balance is so much more important than a 4.0 GPA. So, moving forward since I last spoke to you guys all those years ago, I’ve put in a serious effort to not run myself down. And, I’m proud of being able to see the world as a place to enjoy as well as a place to progress slowly and efficiently towards my goals. I’ve been taking more time off to spend with friends, to connect with new people, to do yoga and singing and reading, all while balancing school and my career goals. It’s been a difficult task, but I’m glad I’m taking it on. Here’s a picture of me halfway through my choir session, learning Laura Jēkasbone’s “Jumalo” 🎵. Always show yourself mercy!

QOTD: what is something you often stress about, when you know you shouldn’t?

🎧 lie still and fade — exist strategy

📖 A Swim in a Pond in the Rain — George Saunders