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06.26.24
good morning!!! happy wednesday 🌸 we had our adcon this morning. our lectures were asynch so I had my car cleaned and now I’m staying at my fave café studying before my afternoon lecture. 2 days left before clerkship ends!!!!! 🎀
⭐ 17.06.2024 // I DID IT!! I DID IT GUYS!!! I STUDIED 10 HOURSSSSS!!!!
I'm tired but especially extremely motivated by the fact that I was able to achieve that much. Like, a few years ago I would never have thought that it would be possible for me to do it EVER. It says so much about my recovery journey and it's awesome. Like I'm able for the first time in YEARS to manage studying a lot of hours, doing a minimum of self care, answering people's texts, planning events for later AND be able to function like a human (so not be overly tired by it). It means a lot for me. I still have progress to make in some domains tho, who doesn't, but it's still amazing
(And honestly Tumblr has something to do with it, I met amazing mutuals here and maybe the "do it scared, do it bad, do it tired" helped me in my journey after all ahah)
PS : my cat didn't want to sleep in my room today so I don't have any pictures of her yet :(( (but she killed a mouse today, ig she had other priorities)
journaling while waiting for inside out 2 to start ~ I am having a pretty good golden weekend ✨ I attended PGH orientation for postgrad interns, did laundry and cleaned. did vid call with my mom. my heart is happy.
We're all just humans
And to be human means to make mistakes.
And that's perfectly ok.
Learning to embrace making mistakes means learning to love yourself a little bit more (and at the end of the day, that's what really matters)
2/6 exams to go
173 days left
Got that academic momentum going
one thing i really enjoy doing in my journal is writing down beautiful poems, passages from novels, and film reviews that i come across. a few weeks ago, i watched la chimera and it was one of the best movies i've seen in the past decade. i'm still thinking about it, weeks later.... beautiful movies beget beautiful film reviews so i wrote down an excerpt of an nyt review🏺
06/13/2024
i'm trying to strike a balance between complaining and uh... not complaining but it's so hard😭 civil procedure has come back to bite me in the ass. it was my lowest grade in law school and one of the densest/most abstract subjects i've encountered, so i am absolutely terrified and shaking in my boots. i'm staying positive, however, and will not let it crush my spirit !!!
💕 14.06.2024 // I studied a bit less today but I only had 6h of sleep so I think I can stop earlier and go to bed to rest a bit ahah
Tomorrow I want to study a lot more than today, and I hope I will be able to hit 9/10 hours of studying!!
Hey, long time no see!
I try to post more regularly, but it’s really stressful lately. I’m still working on my bachelors thesis, the experiments do not seem to come to an end. I really struggle with my adhd atm and just try to hold every together :’)
Let’s see what the next weeks bring!
HA!
I have the exact same issue :')
(though i like the professor way too much to wish even the most harmless "evil" thing upon her)
📝 June 12, 2024
whoever decided my final should be from 3-6 pm tomorrow deserves to find a hole in their favourite pair of socks
romantising studying <3
my printerest
this is @seulhrts new account
I had a lovely time with my friend D this weekend:
we went to a light & sound installation that was really impressive & fun,
had mala tang (I think I technically had mala ban?) for dinner,
tiny mock mojitos on my balcony before bed
and a delicious breakfast in my favourite café.
I'm now reading to bridge the gap between saying goodbye to D and meeting two friends for our museum sunday outing (museum sunday is a Thing in berlin and I love it).
we're going to see an exhibition on menstruation that's supposedly created with an intersectional feminist approach (which also means it uses trans inclusive language, very curious about that!)
Conditional probabilities are kinda fun...
finally have the energy to do an intense journaling session before my gym sesh ~
Taking breaks is essential to a productive study session
Take a break. You'll waste more time trying to process information with a tired brain than you'd "waste" taking a brain to clear you mind and help the information settle.
After an exam, I've always found it hard to get right back into studying, even if it's for another course (maybe even worse when doing a big switch between unrelated courses).
I have a golden rule of not studying during exam days - not before the exam (it only makes me more anxious and less focused) and not after the exam (brain is mush at that point).
3/6 exams to go
I highly recommend it.
166 days to go
More writing.
17.06.24 || breathing exercises
I watched a documentary yesterday about an Irish poet and it reminded me how as I child, I wanted to make documentaries like these. Portraits of people and their craft and the places that made them who they are today. I suppose writing fiction is the closest I got to this childhood dream. Watching the Irish landscapes on my screen made me long for a life that was different to the one I was leading now and more certain of spending my September in Scotland.
To Do today:
BauR
BGB IV
StPO
Have a good one
AJ
14.06.2024—desk set up
Autoimmune and rare diseases rotation 📚✨
8/29
Had a super productive day yesterday, so today things are moving a tad slower
Decided to do this in a break to take my mind off the courses
1/100 days of productivity
To conquer the world you still have to go step by step about it
This past year i found that no matter how great the challenge, it helps me immensely to stay calm (ignore my panic) and just start working towards my goals systematically.
Starting is the hardest part.
4/6 exams to go
A sunny workspace this morning. Sitting down to do some editing after an extra long weekend spent visiting a friend who lives at the seaside— chips on the beach, moseying around vintage shops, a half pint and kissing a framed banksy at the pub, the sea was shining turquoise
from duty— squeezing in some studying before I sleep.
2024.12.6
I finished last night very late, but still I woke up energized, which I find strange. I took the exam well and I am sure of my answer, but some girls said that the answer to the questions is C and not B, but I am still sure of what I wrote. I mean, I know the result before I even start solving, so how Am I wrong?! ...Anyway, tomorrow is the last exam, which is a computer exam, and I will be able to sit for a week before the start of my practical exams.
So ! :
1.sleep for three hours
2.Study past computer tests
3.Washing accumulated dishes
09•04•24// I had a really, really shit start to the year. My personal life genuinely fell apart in more than one way about 4 weeks before I wrote the bar exams.
Being on the other side of most of it and having managed to pass my exams, has been relieving to say the least.
If you’ve been here for a minute, you’ll know I started this blog as a way to motivate myself to get into law school. Well, we’ve done it friends 💕🍾
Realising a little too late that I should have posted throughout exam season to keep myself accountable... oh well, at least I'm here now! Two exams down, three to go!
I spent the whole day sleeping, eating and watching dexter in between sleep because I’m from duty. I managed to get myself out of bed and dragged myself to a coffee shop to study because! I feel like I’m not studying enough 😭 anyhow, will stay here longer! to more studying, to more disciplined routine, to kindness.
june! is for open opportunities! self-care! studying! and ✨ getting it together ✨ more reflecting on my journal! finally establishing a routine when I’m on PM duty: sleep in, workout, and study. things are good!