Latest Posts by yumeme04 - Page 2
Me? Intense? Yes, even bordering on sadistic, so it's preferably better if you don't provoke me.
I've barely set foot in school and I already want to leave pipipipipipi.
It's not funny leaving my house at 6:10 a.m. and then returning until 2:00 p.m (It should be noted that school hours here are usually only 6 hours, not my case rn too)
Today I sang until my voice was hoarse, at least I'm learning how to do growls :3
I've been falling so in love with Ado's vocals lately, it's making me fall in love with singing in itself. ♡
ALSO ADOROZATORUMARY IT'S SO ADORABLE! ! ! ~
Sure I feel pathetic venting on social media, but damn, I still have so much hate and sadness lingering inside me.
In every interaction with someone I really like I can't help but express a possessive/stalker feeling
damn, I wish a was normal and not a fucking little creep craving for a meaningful relationship
I'm so scared of not being able to leave this house one day
I want to thrift a monitor and cute things
(↑ has no money to spend)
three years more, three years more, just three years more... five at the most.
I know I can hold them in, no matter how many times I have to cry, I really wish it was just five years.
Last night I genuinely felt like my heart was being stabbed.
It feels so bad, the feeling lingers and I want it to end.
You lied to me, don't expect me to ask for help again.
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💌 send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome >:p 💌
heart hurts ow ouch ouchie aw auch ouch ouch
💌 send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome >:p 💌
Yaaayyy!!~~ <33 luv ya/p
I want to cut because seeing the blood run is like being able to cry when I can't, my whole soul really shudders because I can't do it, I'm so sorry nothing will change
I don't want to do anything now, I don't want to do anything tomorrow, I just don't want to do anything, I can't do anything
I feel so heartbroken, in fact I've felt heartbroken since August of last year and it's getting worse but I'm also getting used to the feeling.
Although, of course, getting used to it doesn't mean that it won't stop being agonizing to feel someone ripping my heart out with their bare hand.
I want to rip my heart out, I want to pierce it, I just want to get rid of it, get rid of me.
It's so hard to focus on things, I want to sleep so I don't think, I want to sleep so I don't feel, closing my eyes is the only way I can control all those annoying thoughts.
I could apply the metaphor of "you take care of a wounded bird and when it can fly again it flies away" but I can't.
I never consider myself caring for anyone, yet I hate it so much when they leave, whether it's me going away from them and they never search for me or them doing questionable things.
Thank you life, I now understand that I can't handle relationships.
The only real reason I don't kms is because on good days I still long to be able to love someday.
btw, silly little anecdote from yesterday:
I usually always have the desire to climb trees because it's not something I've done, so when I went for a walk with my mom and brother, around that place is full of decently small trees that can be climbed, so I decided to try to climb one and I managed to do it, but-
I had no idea how to get down and the automatic image in my head was that when cats can't get down from trees either so i just started meowing until my brother helped me down by carrying me.
I have no idea why this was posted like this when I sent the ask to Toyfi
hugs to @toyfii 🫂🫂🫂
I think if I gaslight myself into deceiving myself that my husband is actually my real husband all my problems will disappear.
(or at least the loneliness ones)
I feel alone again
At least this time it doesn't hurt as much as before/j
I just feel numb and fuzzy and tired and-
I don't even know what I feel
*sips coffe* men.
HE FUCKING LIED TO ME???
LUV YA TOOO/P ♡( ˘ ³˘(◡‿◡˶)
Yume ily brah /p
Next time I wear cute clothes I think it would be pretty funny to take a picture of myself kneeling in front of my husband's poster just because haha funny.
