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Desi Middle Class ✨Aesthetic✨
Kiraya ka ghar, chai ki tapri, buying new clothes twice or at max thrice a year during festive occasions, steel ka dabba, bigger uniform size to make sure you keep fitting into it for at least two years, feeling proud to own a Trimax pen, dada dadi or nana nani's tel malish, visiting temple towns for vacations, train journeys with lots of chips packed to munch on and mummy ke parathe or puri bhaji, having to wait patiently for your turn to use the bathroom unless and until you have two bathrooms and both of them are equally functional, never been on a flight or have been only once by luck, noticing that your dad rarely buys new shirts for himself, lingering looks on that beautiful but expensive dress, your mother touches that one lovely saree for the last time and you promise to yourself that when you start earning, you will gift her every saree she will land her gaze upon, covering rough notebooks with newspapers, start studying maths for the new school year during summer vacation, sharing a room and sometimes the same study table with your siblings, beaming at your bade bhaiya or didi when they show you how to make a paper boat/paper airplane, you are growing up and for the first time you see your older sibling break down in their room all by themselves and realization dawns that even they need a comforting hug, Tu kab badi huyi?, Wanting to gift a good car to your father with your own salary, the entire family dreams to own their own house someday, the first time you realize what a middle class family really is, fights and quarrels that always end with silent apologies over the dining table, beta doctor ya engineer? Kya matlab arts lena hai? Humare family se just pass hone vale bhi science liye? You wipe your own tears and strengthen your resolve to fight for your own dreams, parents are proud that you proved them wrong with your career and subject choice, sadly dropping out of dance, music, arts and sports classes as soon as you begin 10th grade -- lucky ones still continue them, watching Indian tv serials with mummy during afternoons after coming back from school, thoda toh pocket money badha do?? Storing money everywhere in the house, counting coins as a child and thinking yourself to be very rich, chota ghar magar sapne bade yeh hai middle class parivar ki kahani
I was watching Wagle ki duniya and later mummy and I were talking about our lifestyle after which she played a Sudha Murthy video where she was talking about the middle class lifestyle, and then I made this post by reflecting on some of my own experiences. I know that the above post doesn't still complete the middle class life there are so many things remaining but I tried my best to summarise from my own observation and experiences.
I have lived a small part of my life with the more economically advantaged groups too (samridhi just say rich) and I am seeing and have also seen the other side too that isn't as gleaming as I used to think but nevertheless it's colourful, so I wanted to write something on it as a lesson I learnt in these 3 years and for the lesson which will live with me for my future endeavours. Probably this post will also be a sahara sort of thing when I again spiral down some crying lane over my exams.
I have so many stories from my 11th 12th and drop year timeline that I will soon share because as I always believe in the end being good no matter what, be it whatever college I get in or whatever I do, this experience taught me things that no school classroom could do. I may sound like a dadi now but yes maybe in the upcoming time if some of you younger lot do stumble on this in times that seem dark and full of certainty, I hope those stories will bring hope in your hearts
Bas bhai yeh dadimaa kirdar ab kuch samay paschat
Interesting Topics to Research On for Bored AF People (desi version)
The Bengal Sultanate
Dominance of taka in Silk Route Trade
Tibetan Buddhism
Chamba Rumal
Pashupati Seal
Zeb-un-nissa Begum
Rasa theory of Natyashastra
Gargi-Yajnavalkya Dialogue
Saraswati (River and Goddess)
Rudraveena
Atman-Brahman Relation and Mahavakyas
70's Bollywood fashion
Paintings of Raja Ravi Varma
Dhrupad
History of Chai/Cha
Mother Goddess Mohenjo Daro
Chanakya
Prakrit Language
Baro-Bhuiyan
Chicankari
Brajabuli
Tantra
Shipton–Tilman Nanda Devi expeditions
Banaras
Annamalaiyar Temple
Chola Dynasty
Pala Empire
Terracotta Temples of Bengal
Little things that give me butterflies in my stomach
That thing where his breath is shaking and his hands are fumbling while he kisses you
"Shh, I'm here"
When you can hear the clinking of his belt from the other side of the door as he gets undressed
When he touches you with the back of his hand
When he moves you by your waist UGH
bollywood really invented love. i have proof.
Har ishq ka ek waqt hota hai, woh hamara waqt nahi tha, par iska yeh matlab nahi ki woh ishq nahi tha
Tumhari yeh hasi, yeh masti, yeh gaaliyan agar bandh ho gayi na toh is duniya ka bahut nuksaan hoga
Joh dil jeette hai woh kabhi haarte nahi
Har din uski zindagi ki dua maang leti hoon aur har din khud thodi marr leti hoon
Tu saath hokar bhi saath nahi hoti ab toh rahat mein bhi rahat nahi hoti
Yadhaash bhi kitni ajeeb cheez hoti hai, kis cheez ko poori zindagi bhoolne ki koshish karo, woh bhoolti nahi kabhi ek choti si cheez yaad karne ki koshish karo, toh yaad nahi aati
Baarishon mein bedhadak tere nachne se, baat baat pe bewajah tere roothne se, choti choti teri bachkani badmashiyon se, mohabbat karoonga main, jab tak hai jaan, jab tak hai jaan
Teri aankhon ki namkeen mastiyan, teri hasi ki beparwah gustakhiyan, teri zulfon ki lehrati angdaiyan, nahi bhoolunga main, jab tak hai jaan, jab tak hai jaan
Tera haath se haath chodna, tera saayon ka rukh modna, tera palat ke phir na dekhna, nahin maaf karoonga main, jab tak hai jaan, jab tak hai jaan
Tere jhoothe kasme vaadon se, tere jalte sulagte khwabon se, teri beraham duaon se, nafrat karoonga main, jab tak hai jaan, jab tak hai jaan
like??? wtf???? i hate love????
Tujhse kehna tha bohot kuch,
Lekin kaha nahi gaya.
Itne khat likhey teri yaad mei,
Lekin tujh tak pohchaya nahi gaya.
Ab vo saare khatt,
Mere dil ki almaari mei mehfooz hai.
K kisi na kisi din kahin tu mile,
Toh tujhe sunaenge,
Tere bin kya guzri,
sabb bataenge.
••••••••••••••••
Kaash tum kuch kehdete,
Izhaar naa sahi koi ishaara kardete.
Mere intezaar ki inteha hogayi,
Baatein adhoori rehgayi.
Kuch nahi toh koi khat likhtey,
Mera haal puchte,
Ya kuch apni sunaate.
Jab dil mei koi baat ho toh kehdena chaiye,
Waqt rehte hi apno ko mana lena chaiye.
Ye baarish ki khanak, ye baadlon ke ishaare,
Yaad aate hai mujhe, bachpan ke nazaaare,
Woh khaali se raaste, woh bhigi zameen,
Woh chai pakodon se sham hoti kabhi namkin
Road par boat khel liye maze loot,
Raincoat ki aad mein, paani mein chapchapate mere gum-boots,
Woh request par milte butte,
Woh school se free ki chutti,
Ab na mile woh mausam na milti ajab Khushi waisi,
Ban gaye fasane baaton ke
Reh gaye kahin khayalon ke kinaare,
Ab wahi baarish hai, hai wahi asmaan,
Aur yaad phir aata hai kahin woh guzre baarish ka samaa
Haan woh baarish ka samaa........🦁
bahot ho gaya akele khidki se baarish dekhna saath mein koi ek garam chai ki pyali pilaane wala aur seene se lagane wala toh ham bhi deserve karte hain
Thehra hoon, par ruka nahi.
Baitha hoon, par jhuka nahi.
Hasrat mein hoon, betaab nahi.
Kaghaz hoon, kitaab nahi.
Nashe mein hoon, sharabi nahi.
Rota hoon, barbaad nahi.
Inaam hoon, haqdaar nahi.
Uljhan hoon, sawaal nahi.
Sochta hoon, par khayal nahi.
Mushkil hai, koi bawaal nahi.
Mausam hoon, par har saal nahi.
Faqeer hoon, bad-haal nahi.
Afsurda hoon, bimaar nahi.
Mohabbat mein hoon, par ab intezaar nahi..
Ho… ishq ka rang safed piya
Na chhal na kapat na bhed piya
Sau rang mile tu ikk warga
Aatish ho ya ret piya, ret piya
Jis jung mein tera ho rutba
Uss jung ka main toh
Junaid piya, junaid piya
my toxic trait is thinking I can do THIS without fail 🤣
Where's that one person who has read the books and knows all the lore and history behind the movie based on that book and compares the two?
Because I need one of them to do that for ponniyin selvan and tell exactly what is different from the book and actual history facts
reasons why my bf is the best person to have in your friend group
you mention one (1) time that you're craving some dish and the next day he'll bring a special dabba with it for you
always carries extra hair ties for female friends
has extra money in case someone forgot their lunch
always makes sure you wash your hands or atleast sanitise before you eat
knows first aid
SMOKING HOT
lets you sleep on his shoulder during class or in the bus if you're tired
asks you if you want a hug if he sees you looking sad- best hugs ever
makes sure your notebook is completed by offering his own notes
CHEMISTRY GENIUS!!!!!
will throw hands with anyone who insults you, and will win
tells his mom about your favourite food so she'll make it when you come over
endearing nicknames for everyone that include 'nutella', 'gulab jamun', 'taara', 'sherni' and my personal fav: 'biryani'
mention one of your interests and he'll listen to you infodump for hours. literally. hours. (he listened to me overanalyse tangled for four hours straight, from 2 am to 6 am)
DID I MENTION HOT ASF
gives you small affirmations everyday, like 'i love your hair today behen', 'aree wah those biceps looking great today bro'
asks you about your favourite flowers if he's known you long enough and surprises you with them when you're sad
BRINGS CHOCOLATES AND YOUR FAVOURITE MOVIE KI CD DURING PERIODS!!!!!!!
ALSO HE'S AN AMAZING KISSER
The kind of love I desire:
From late night chats to late night walks
From face time to facing each other while dancing irl
From talking about favorite food to cooking for each other
From making hearts on the vc to holding hands
From smiling through text to laughing together.
From dedicating songs to dancing on them
From recommending movies, series, shows, books etc to watching them together
From giving each other nicknames to calling each other by those nickname in front of everyone
From selecting clothes through virtual ways to wearing matching outfits together.
From calls to sitting in silence irl
From just admiring the pictures to seeing you in person till I memories every little detail about you.
From "I miss you" to "Damn we missed our train, let's go and enjoy some more."
From "Thinking about you" to "Today we should go here."
From "Look this reminds me of you" to Creating memories together.
From "I can't wait to meet you" to "Finally we met"
Things Desiblr made me realise & do :
That it's actually really cool to be a Desi .
Old Bollywood movies >>>>
Every Desi girl should wear saree and wear bindi and feel like a retro Indian movie star.
Indian history supports queer people , so whenever your aunt is being homophobic , proudly say her , she knows nothing !!!!! If you wanna know more read "Shikhandi " by Devdutt Pattanaik .
What as an Indian man are you doing if you aren't writing poetry?
That nothing can compare to Indian humour .
Indian goddess are the actual baddies .
Haseena's and brown munde's >>>>> rest of population.
Ittar >>> perfume .
Urdu & Persian poetry are top tier .
Kannada devotional writers like Akka Mahadevi are like diamond in the dust .
A gajra >>>french kiss.
Jasmine & lotus are not just flowers .
Pasoori rules the world right now .
Be free like Geet and bounce back like Bulbul .
Madhubala is the embodiment of being gorgeous and cute at the same time .
Rekha is a Siren .
Learning Sanskrit is a rich experience .
Draupadi's vengeance created wars , so can yours .
Kishore Kumar for rain , Lata Mangeshkar for prem .
Alka Yagnik for feeling confident .
Indian rap is richer and sounds more poetic .
96 sanskrit words for love >>>>> the word love .
South Indian movies have the perfect balance of romance and action .
Khanjar is mightier than a sword.
Ye Maharani banke kaha ja rahi hai >>>> you look beautiful honey.
The tension between me and a cute boy at a puja pandal >>>>>>> speed of the earth rotation .
Gold >>>> any other metal
Chandni raat is for romance .
Talk to me in ghazals and geets only !
And many more .......
Writing this made me love being an Indian more !!!!!
If you want add yours , I'd love to read.
Things Desiblr made me realise & do :
That it's actually really cool to be a Desi .
Old Bollywood movies >>>>
Every Desi girl should wear saree and wear bindi and feel like a retro Indian movie star.
Indian history supports queer people , so whenever your aunt is being homophobic , proudly say her , she knows nothing !!!!! If you wanna know more read "Shikhandi " by Devdutt Pattanaik .
What as an Indian man are you doing if you aren't writing poetry?
That nothing can compare to Indian humour .
Indian goddess are the actual baddies .
Haseena's and brown munde's >>>>> rest of population.
Ittar >>> perfume .
Urdu & Persian poetry are top tier .
Kannada devotional writers like Akka Mahadevi are like diamond in the dust .
A gajra >>>french kiss.
Jasmine & lotus are not just flowers .
Pasoori rules the world right now .
Be free like Geet and bounce back like Bulbul .
Madhubala is the embodiment of being gorgeous and cute at the same time .
Rekha is a Siren .
Learning Sanskrit is a rich experience .
Draupadi's vengeance created wars , so can yours .
Kishore Kumar for rain , Lata Mangeshkar for prem .
Alka Yagnik for feeling confident .
Indian rap is richer and sounds more poetic .
96 sanskrit words for love >>>>> the word love .
South Indian movies have the perfect balance of romance and action .
Khanjar is mightier than a sword.
Ye Maharani banke kaha ja rahi hai >>>> you look beautiful honey.
The tension between me and a cute boy at a puja pandal >>>>>>> speed of the earth rotation .
Gold >>>> any other metal
Chandni raat is for romance .
Talk to me in ghazals and geets only !
And many more .......
Writing this made me love being an Indian more !!!!!
If you want add yours , I'd love to read.
Things Desiblr made me realise & do :
That it's actually really cool to be a Desi .
Old Bollywood movies >>>>
Every Desi girl should wear saree and wear bindi and feel like a retro Indian movie star.
Indian history supports queer people , so whenever your aunt is being homophobic , proudly say her , she knows nothing !!!!! If you wanna know more read "Shikhandi " by Devdutt Pattanaik .
What as an Indian man are you doing if you aren't writing poetry?
That nothing can compare to Indian humour .
Indian goddess are the actual baddies .
Haseena's and brown munde's >>>>> rest of population.
Ittar >>> perfume .
Urdu & Persian poetry are top tier .
Kannada devotional writers like Akka Mahadevi are like diamond in the dust .
A gajra >>>french kiss.
Jasmine & lotus are not just flowers .
Pasoori rules the world right now .
Be free like Geet and bounce back like Bulbul .
Madhubala is the embodiment of being gorgeous and cute at the same time .
Rekha is a Siren .
Learning Sanskrit is a rich experience .
Draupadi's vengeance created wars , so can yours .
Kishore Kumar for rain , Lata Mangeshkar for prem .
Alka Yagnik for feeling confident .
Indian rap is richer and sounds more poetic .
96 sanskrit words for love >>>>> the word love .
South Indian movies have the perfect balance of romance and action .
Khanjar is mightier than a sword.
Ye Maharani banke kaha ja rahi hai >>>> you look beautiful honey.
The tension between me and a cute boy at a puja pandal >>>>>>> speed of the earth rotation .
Gold >>>> any other metal
Chandni raat is for romance .
Talk to me in ghazals and geets only !
And many more .......
Writing this made me love being an Indian more !!!!!
If you want add yours , I'd love to read.
He's so ✨babygirl✨
Mohhabhat karne wale Kam na honge 🪬
मोहब्बत करनेवाले कम ना होंगे
मोहब्बत करनेवाले कम ना होंगे
तेरी महफ़िल में लेकिन हम ना होंगे
मोहब्बत करनेवाले कम ना होंगे
तेरी महफ़िल में लेकिन हम ना होंगे
मोहब्बत करनेवाले कम ना होंगे
( there are numerous people who love you , care for you , who would die for you but I won't be there for you . I will not be present in that gathering )
ज़माने भर के ग़म या इक तेरा ग़म
ज़माने भर के ग़म या इक तेरा ग़म
ये ग़म होगा तो कितने ग़म ना होंगे
ये ग़म होगा तो कितने ग़म ना होंगे
तेरी महफ़िल में लेकिन हम ना होंगे
मोहब्बत करनेवाले कम ना होंगे
( if I have to choose between the sorrow of losing you and rest of the sorrows of the world , I would choose losing you even after knowing the fact that it will always hurt me for the rest of my life )
अगर तू इत्तिफ़ाक़न मिल भी जाए
अगर तू इत्तिफ़ाक़न मिल भी जाए
तेरी फ़ुर्क़त के सदमें कम ना होंगे
तेरी फ़ुर्क़त के सदमें कम ना होंगे
तेरी महफ़िल में लेकिन हम ना होंगे
मोहब्बत करनेवाले कम ना होंगे
( if by any chance we will reunite . it won't be able to heal the pain that your absence for all these years have caused me . This pain is forever . )
दिलों की उलझनें बढ़ती रहेंगी
दिलों की उलझनें बढ़ती रहेंगी
अगर कुछ मशवरे बाहम ना होंगे
अगर कुछ मशवरे बाहम ना होंगे
तेरी महफ़िल में लेकिन हम ना होंगे
मोहब्बत करनेवाले कम ना होंगे
( the distance between us will increase , this heart of ours will always be restless if we do not exchange a few advices listen to each other . There will always be many who will cherish you , love you but I won't be included ).
میرے دل میں ایک ایسا شہر آباد ہے، جس میں گلیاں در گلیاں ہیں اور ان ہی گلیوں میں بہت پرانا چوبی دریچوں اور دروازوں والا قدیم سا گھر ہے، جہاں ازل سے تم ،میں اور محبت رہتے ہیں!
There is a city in my heart, which has streets after streets, and in these streets there is an old house with wooden windows and doors, where you, I, and love live forever!
Details that make men so attractive
The slight clean scent of aftershave when come out of the shower
That gentleness and control of their hands when they touch women because they don't want to hurt them
When you can see their smile lines, even when they're not smiling
The scars on their body that they've had since they were a kid and they just never faded away.
The scratchy feeling on their face or the rough texture of their palms
The voice they start making when they're talking to a puppy
That one voice crack when they're getting emotional
2022 TBR 🧿 (continuing in 2023)
On Earth, we are briefly gorgeous - Ocean Vuong
The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo - Taylor Jenkins Reid (🦄)
Twisted lies - Ana Huang (🦄)
Gender Queer: a memoir - Maia Kobabe (🦄)
Lanka's princess - Kavita Kané (🫀)
Forty rules of love - Elif Shafak
All my rage - Sabaa Tahir
Redacted : poems - Trista Mateer (🦄)
She gets the girl - Rachael Lippincott, Alyson Derrick
Pride & prejudice - Jane Austen (🌷)
How much land does a man need? - Leo Tolstoy (🦄)
Terribly tiny tales, Vol. 1 (🦄)
God of Small Things - Arundhati Roy
The Secret History - Donna Tartt (🫀)
The Forest of Enchantments - Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni (🫀)
Love story - Erich Segal (🦄)
Raavan : Enemy of Aryavarta - Amish Tripathi
The love hypothesis - Ali Hazelwood (🦄)
No Regrets - Kaveree Bamzai
Great Goddesses - Nikita Gill
Beautiful World, Where are you - Sally Rooney
Crying in H mart - Michelle Zauner
Poetry is undead - Trista Mateer
Artemis Made me do it - Trista Mateer (🫀)
Poems I sleep next to - Shelby Eileen (🦄)
Beach Read - Emily Henry
Menaka's choice - Kavita kané
Loveboat Reunion - Abigail Hing Wen
One last stop - Casey McQusiton
The Knockout - Sajni Patel
A Promised Land - Khadija Mastur
Daughter of the Moon Goddess - Sue Lynn Tan
Cheer up: Love and pompoms - Crystal Frasier ( 🦄)
Tahira in bloom - Farah Heron
A Good Girl's guide to murder - Holly Jackson (🦄)
The invisible life of Addie LaRue - V. E. Schwab ( 🫀)
Rivals (American Royals #3) - Katherine McGee (🦄)
It ends with us - Colleen Hoover (🦄)
Persuasion - Jane Austen
Normal People - Sally Rooney (🦄)
Graceful Burdens - Roxane Gay (🦄)
I want to die but i want to eat tteokbokki - Baek Sehee (🌷)
The fault in our stars - John Green (🦄)
When the stars wrote back - Trista mateer (🦄,🫀)
Conversations with friends - Sally Rooney (🫀)
Daisy Jones & The Six - Taylor Jenkins Reid (🦄)
Flower crowns & fearsome things - Amanda Lovelace (🦄)
The Bitter End - Kaliane Faye (🦄)
Rukmini - Saiswaroopa Iyer
Kate in waiting - Becky Albertralli
Simon vs the homosapiens agenda - Becky Albertralli
The Princess saves herself in this one - Amanda Lovelace (🦄)
The Song of Achilles (🫀)
It Starts with Us - Colleen Hoover (🦄)
Here's to hoping I actually read all of them :')
(I have removed books that I know for a fact I will not read, so this is an edited version of the list! Also, finished TSOA today (18/4/23) and The Invisible life of Addie LaRue on 24/4/23 and absolutely fucking bawled, so I decided to add it to this tbr list to honour it :'), not to mention that I actually had planned to read it for a long time, just didn't include it in this list 😭)
( read in 2022 - 🦄, currently reading - 🌷, read in 2023 - 🫀)
I'll be marking off the books when I finish reading them/ I'll be adding more books when I find myself wanting to read them!
-@illusoryescapee
Jo baatein pee gya tha mai
Wo baatein kha gyin mujhko
-Jaun Elia
In other words:
The things you hide in your heart, eats you alive.
Mumtaz Begum (c. 1900 - ?)
Mistress of: Maharaja Tukojirao III Holkar of Indore. Tenure: c. 1915 - 1925. Royal Bastards: Unclear. Fall From Power: She ran off.
Mumtaz Begum, later known as Kamalabai, was a ‘singing girl’ from Amritsar who as a young girl performed before Maharajah Tukojirao. The great-granddaughter of a former royal courtesan, Mumtaz captivated the Maharajah and she returned a few years later as his mistress. Tukojirao was the ruler of Indore in the Indian state of Madhya Pradesh following his father’s abdication in 1903, though he reigned alongside a regency until he turned 21 in 1911. The Maharaja had two wives already – Chandravati Bai Holkar and Indira Bai Holkar - whom he married in 1895 and 1913, respectively.
After spending over a decade at court, Mumtaz grew tired of her ridged gilded cage and eventually found an opportunity to flee while on a train to meet Tukojirao in Mussoorie; she skipped town in Delhi and disappeared. Upon discovering that she was missing, Mumtaz was immediately charged with stealing state jewelry, which Tukojirao claimed was the reason she left him. Meanwhile, Mumtaz found another lover, a wealthy businessman named Abdul Kadar Bawla, and settled in Mumbai where she was able avoid to the Maharajah – at least temporarily. In January 1925, Mumtaz and Abdul were attacked in Bombay by a group of men who attempted to kidnap Mumtaz and bring her back to Tukojirao. Abdul ended up getting shot, later dying at the hospital, whereas Mumtaz was also injured but was able to escape when British military officers intervened. The murder caused a sensation and took up prime real estate in newspapers, especially when it was found that the assailants all had close ties to the Maharaja. The case ended up at court where the men were found guilty of murder, though many were convinced that Tukojirao was “the ultimate source” and the true mastermind behind the attempted abduction. Mumtaz began to speak out about the poor treatment she received while living as Tukojirao mistress and claimed that all her pregnancies ended with the mysterious death of the child.
More than a year after Abdul’s murder, the British decided to step in and told Tukojirao to either abdicate “voluntarily” or face an investigation. Tukojirao decided on the former, with the understanding that no further inquiry be made into his involvement of Abdul’s murder, and Tukojirao headed to Europe where he met and married his third wife, an American heiress. Mumtaz, meanwhile, watched her tale recreated on the silver screen as a silent film named Kulin Kanta. It is believed she then headed to Hollywood following the film’s success but I can find nothing of her career or life after this time.
Sources Photographs of ”Mumtaz Begum” (left) and ”HH Tukoji Rao Holkar, Maharaja of Indore”. Jhala, Angma Dey. Courtly Indian Women in Late Imperial India (2015). Taylor & Francis. ISBN: 9781317314448 . The Inside Story of Mumtaz Begum. https://archive.macleans.ca/article/1925/8/1/inside-story-of-mumtaz-begum
random desi chaotic academia things I've done:
spent the entire evening reading topics totally unrelated to my studies instead of studying and then panicking about how i hadn't learnt anything for the exam the next day.
wrapped my mother's saree haphazardly around myself and danced to my desi academia playlist at 3am and then collapsed due to the blood rush to my head.
spent an entire night reading my mother's Rabindranath-er Golpogucchho (A Collection of Stories by Rabindranath Tagore) instead of doing my homework due the very next day and ended up not submitting it.
sent random quotes of sylvia plath and f scott fitzgerald to my best friend at 2 in the morning and then talked all night about it.
danced to rabindra sangeet in my room while reciting his poetry
exhausted my 4 months worth of pocket money on books by indian authors and still not finishing even half of them.
stopped on my way back home from tuitions to buy jhumkas from a roadside stall and got yelled at for coming home late.
scattered all my books on the bed because i couldn't find the right book to feed to my emotional state.
added more and more accessories to my already unorganized jewellery box, some of them i wore once and some i have never worn till today.
had an unhealthy obsession with greek, roman and egyptian mythology for years and spent countless nights reading articles on them over a cup of masala chai.
intentionally tried to get my dupatta stuck in a guy's watch to get my very own om shanti om moment.
been overconfident in myself for an exam, spent the whole time reading articles about random topics that i will never require, thought i screwed it over and then topped the entire class.
filled up my notes app with poems at 3 am when i had an exam at 8 the following day.
fell asleep while reading a book on the floor, and woke up alarmingly early the next morning with smudged kajal, puffy eyes and a runny nose.
dried flowers from my backyard in between the pages of old books and used them as bookmarks.
had an unhealthy amount of chai to stay awake but fell asleep on my books halfway through and still passed.
جمال احسانی نے اپنی کتاب کے دیباچے میں لکھا تھا کہ
Jamal Ehsani had written in his book's book that
" کہ میں نے اپنے ماں باپ کو ایک سکھ جو دیا وہ یہ ہے کہ میں انکی زندگی میں فوت نہیں ہوا"
"That I gave one relaxation to my parents is that I did not die in their lifetime"
Relationship should be 50-50 right? So:
Tum ruth lena, me mana lunga.
Tum bolti rehna, me sun lunga.
Tum hasti rehna, me hasata rahunga.
Tum nazare churati rehna, me nazare milata rahunga.
Tum sazti-savarti rehna, me tasweere le lunga.
Tum sun lena, me bol lunga.
Tum gussa kar lena, me pyar kar lunga
Tum nakhre karna, me utha lunga.
Tum muh banana, me pareshaan kar lunga.
Tum mehndi me mera naam chhupa dena, me dhundh lunga.
Tum payal ki zid karna, me tohfe me pehna dunga.
Tum chhupke se mujhe dekhna, me nazarandaz karne ki koshish kar lunga.
Tum zulfein khuli rakhna, me unse khel lunga.
Tum apni gaud de dena, me usme apna sar rakh lunga.
Tum loriyan ga dena, ne kahaniya suna dunga.
Tum apni shikayatein batana, me apna kandha de dunga.
Tum gajrey ki khawaish karna, me la kar tumhare baalon me laga dunga.
Tum phoolo ko pasand kar lena, me tumhe pasand kar lunga.
Tum chai bana dena, me khana bana dunga.
Tum kitaben padh lena, me tumhe padh lunga.
Tum geet gungunana, me tumhe dekh "haaye" kar lunga.
Tum pyari lagti rehna, baaki sab me kar lunga.
-Om
Wtf is Netflix and chill let's listen to ghazals at 3 am in our own candle-lit balcony while writing poetry in Urdu
my thoughts on the romantics
WOWOWOOWOWOWOWW
when i first saw the trailer for it i was so excited. this def lived up to my expectations.
i learned that i really dont know anything about desi cinema (lol) and i have alot of catching up to do on the old classics which i till now classified as outdated and stuffy and patriarchal. but seeing the artistry in the clips made me really want to go back and watch everything.
i also learned alot about the sociopolitical and economic context to alot of the movies and how it played into their success or lack thereof, which was really fascinating.
i do wish they delved more into how alot of people seem to agree that the industry has fallen off a little bit? i really cant explain it.. maybe im overly biased to the 2000s because those are primarily the movies i watched growing up. but still. i just feel it in my bones sometimes when i watch a good number of desi movies post-2010.
seeing rishi kapoor in the interviews :,) sad (also i wish they couldve gotten preity zinta and aishwariya to do interviews but oh well. i also wonder what sridevi wouldve said in her interview if she still was alive since they were mentioning her alot)
all in all, 100/10, i without a doubt will be rewatching just as much as i rewatch my favorite video essays on yt, if not more often. just amazing.