Actually Audhd - Blog Posts
Update that's probably long overdue. The memorial/funeral already happened. There were a lot of people there, so at least I know my cousin was loved and did love a lot.
Shit still sucks, I have recently dropped or been dropped from all but one class [I had three], so that's great [/sarcastic]. I am really starting to wondering if college is right for me, I will definitely be taking at least one term off and if I go back to college it will probably be a different one so I can pretty much have a fresh start. I luckily don't need a college degree to do what I want to do, which is to become a dog trainer specializing in service dogs.
I also need to try and work on getting myself a service dog, which I believe I mentioned a while ago. Motivation is so hard to find to do shit so I can actually live a somewhat "normal" life.
Sorry about the rant, life just kinda sucks rn. But there's also good shit. This is just about the bad shit rn.
Something good is I'll be going to see that side of my family again soon for a barbecue [is that spelled right? I have a specific learning disability (what it is listed as on my paperwork, lol)] so that'll be fun.
I'll actually be able to talk to my queer cousin about shit again, lol. My father and brother in this life are homophobic and transphobic and shit so that's not fun, but I do have an old cousin who is queer that I love hanging out with and wish I could hang out with more. As well as my younger cousin [who was the son of my cousin who died], he's cool to hang out with as well, lol.
My older cousin streams, but I don't know if I should say their username or not. I'll not say it for now at least.
Hope ya'll are having good days and shit! :3c
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it mainly)
Edit: I forgot tags
[TW: Death and shit that comes with that, idk maybe more? If you find any more things that should be in this trigger warning pls tell me.]
Also, shit is happening in my life rn. I recently [on September 11th] lost my cousin, she died and we aren't sure how exactly yet. So, yeah. Death is fucking weird and I don't think I process it normally (AuDHD). So I may end up not posting for a while or might end up posting like every day.
Just sharing so ya'll know what's going on if I disappear for a while [even though I would likely do that even without this shit happening].
We aren't sure when the funeral thing is happening yet, I slightly hope it's soon so I can see my family, I don't live by that side of the family, sadly. Probably gonna end up missing like a day of college, but whatever, my family [my pack] is more important to me.
My cousin left behind a son. He is a kid. He's younger than I was when my mom in this life died. [I was like 16 when that happened, and I won't be sharing how old my 2nd cousin is]. So I really wanna see that side of my family, so I can try and be there for him. He's gonna need people there for him, and if I could without getting in trouble, I would drop out of college rn to be around him while he is going through this. (Protective wolf/dog instincts?)
There's just a lot of shit going on rn with my life, I wish it would stop for a bit.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe/ze) :((
[We is referring to my family, btw]
Cause no one else will, I am sending in my own ask to myself about memories from my life as Zuki.
This feels very weird but whatever, lol.
Y'know what, I am asking myself to mention what I remember about how I got adopted by Dadzawa and Papamic, lol.
- :3c
Lol, love this memory. This is about what led up to me actually being adopted by them. This happened sometime after moving into the dorms, not long after cause Eri wasn't around yet.
Start of the memory:
Me and Izuku were in either mine or his room, I can't quite remember which one or what exactly we were doing, I think we were just hanging out on our phones.
Anyways, Aizawa walks in to ask us something, I think [I don't remember exactly what he said, lol]. I do remember not looking up and saying something like, "What's up, dad?" Once I processed what I had said, I just went widewide-eyed and stopped doing what I was doing on my phone, and blinked a few times to try and make sense of why and how that came out of my mouth, lol.
He asked me to repeat what I said, but I (almost) didn't want to bc I was slightly embarrassed, lol, but Zuku decides to repeat it for me [thanks annoying little shit], and dad asked me something like "Would you actually want me to be your dad?" And I was like "Yeah I didn't have much of a father figure growing up, and you're a great dad to Shinso."
Dad said something about working on adopting me, and once he left the room, I turned to look at Izuku and asked something like, "Did he just say something about adopting me?" And Izu just nods before going back to what he was doing as I just stare dumbfounded at the wall of the room.
End of the memory
It's awesome and shit to look back on this memory. I'm also gonna remind people that I was 18 when this happened there, lol. The best part was Eraserhead and Present Mic were my two favorite heroes (tied for 1st favorite, lol), so to be adopted by them was amazing. I will definitely go into other memories more. What would you guys like to hear about? You can send it asks with specific questions or just a general memory question.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it + canine/feline/canines/felines/canineself and feline/canine/felines/canines/felineself [technically these specific pronouns were "made" by me]) :3c
I'm gonna talk about something that's not kin [alterhuman or nonhuman] related real quick.
My account is not really gonna be a place for a lot of donation asks, I am sorry, but I don't have the time or energy to really check each ask to make sure it's real or anything. I didn't do this for any of the previous ones I uploaded, so bare that in mind when you see them.
I probably won't upload any more asks about donations, once again I am really sorry but it's just not something I can check up on in a way that makes it feel like I wouldn't be maybe helping people get away with lying. I am not saying any of the ones I uploaded or that I've been getting are lies, cause I don't know and that's why I am not answering/uploading posts with any of these asks.
I hope everyone understands where I am coming from and if they need help, I hope they get the help they need.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe)
Edit Oct 8th: I am gonna be deleting the posts I have posted of the donation asks cause I keep getting anxiety about how they might not be genuine and shit but idk if they are or not, I just know that if I don't delete them my brain is saying bad things will happen so yeah. Sorry for those that sent the asks that I posted but I am deleting the posts.
[TW: Death and shit that comes with that, idk maybe more? If you find any more things that should be in this trigger warning pls tell me.]
Also, shit is happening in my life rn. I recently [on September 11th] lost my cousin, she died and we aren't sure how exactly yet. So, yeah. Death is fucking weird and I don't think I process it normally (AuDHD). So I may end up not posting for a while or might end up posting like every day.
Just sharing so ya'll know what's going on if I disappear for a while [even though I would likely do that even without this shit happening].
We aren't sure when the funeral thing is happening yet, I slightly hope it's soon so I can see my family, I don't live by that side of the family, sadly. Probably gonna end up missing like a day of college, but whatever, my family [my pack] is more important to me.
My cousin left behind a son. He is a kid. He's younger than I was when my mom in this life died. [I was like 16 when that happened, and I won't be sharing how old my 2nd cousin is]. So I really wanna see that side of my family, so I can try and be there for him. He's gonna need people there for him, and if I could without getting in trouble, I would drop out of college rn to be around him while he is going through this. (Protective wolf/dog instincts?)
There's just a lot of shit going on rn with my life, I wish it would stop for a bit.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe/ze) :((
[We is referring to my family, btw]
What's an OCkin?
Hello! Thanks for the ask!
So, an OCkin is a type of fictionkin [someone who identifies partly or fully as a fictional character] for OCs, which are original characters.
For me, I have only OCkin types when it comes to fictionkin types. My blog is based around one of said kin types (I kinda hate saying it like this, but it's the "correct" way of saying it and makes it easier to understand), Zuki, who is a My Hero Academia OC that I made before realizing that I am Zuki.
In my case, this identity [and most of my other alterhuman/nonhuman identities] comes from a past life. Not everyone's does, though, and no matter what someone's identity comes from, it's valid [whether their identity is psychological, spiritual, physical, or if there's any other types they are valid].
This has kind of gone on a slightly similar but also different tangent, lol. If anyone else has anything to add to my post here, feel free! Also, I hope this makes sense to you!
- Zuki Shay Lupo [They/xe] :3c
Heyo!! Good to see another MHA non-canon being around.
Im not great at starting conversations, so I'll share a memory of mine- there was a couch in the League hideout. It sucked, cheap and stained and falling apart, but I spent some of the best moments of my life there. Just sitting with my pack, the people i love. Watching shitty TV while braiding Himiko's hair, Tomura preening my wings and Dabi half asleep against us. Good times.
-Tokoyami Eztli
Hello!!!!! It really is good to see another MHA non-canon being around!!!! I'm also not great at starting conversations, lol.
That's so cool!!! Also, I love that you also refer to the people you love as your pack!!! And it's really great having good memories!!!!
Thanks for sharing!!!
- Zuki Shay Lupo :3c
I have actually edited stuff on this post before, so you might wanna reread it anyways, lol.
But this is basically just me adding on to this post, that I didn't mention some things that happened, though I think that's to be expected, especially when I haven't even watched all of the anime nor read all of the manga [or any of the manga except for what people have posted of the newer ones].
The stain fight happened, though it's a bit different, I think [besides the fact that I was there in my canon, lol].
Also, I was friends with/close to the LOV. I'm not gonna talk about this a lot rn, just something that I wanted to share. [This might lead me to being protective of them, btw. Protective wolf/dog instincts as I say, lol].
I don't think there's anything else I have to add rn, will probably edit this post if I think of anything, though I may reblog for more things to add, lol.
- Zuki Shay Lupo :3c
Editing: will be done in bold italics. Oct 8th edit.
Not really anything to add except to check out how I'll do my editing in posts.
Edit 04/15/25: These are really old posts that we will probably end up deleting soon.
Hello! This is my fictionkin/OCkin account! My name is Zuki Shay Hara-Lupo, but I prefer to be called Zuki or Shay or Lupo if you prefer using last names! I am a kin of a noncanon character/OC for My Hero Academia or Boku no Hero Academia!
My canon is quite a bit divergent than the manga and/or anime. By that, I mean;
UA was a college instead of a high school. So me and my friends/classmates [Izuku/Deku, Bakugo, etc] were all around 18 years old.
Some of the fights and shit didn't happen. What did happen that I remember is the USJ, the sports festival, the summer camp [plus what happened after bc Bakugo got kidnapped], and uh, that's all I can think of currently for main fights and shit that happened. What didn't happen was the actual war, and Izuku leaving UA, I wasn't gonna let one of my best friends, especially one who was like a brother to me, leave UA like that.
Some of my friends would likely be different from the manga and/or anime.
They are also more noncanon characters that I am/was close to as well.
Some other things specifically about me are;
The gender identities I use are pretty much just genderqueer and trans masc enby - both as Zuki and with this life/body.
My pronouns are they/hx/he/it/paw/wing - both as Zuki and with this life/body.
Sexuality and shit are aroace spec queer [more specifically cupioromantic and just ace?] - I've realized that this probably isn't worded quite right, this is my identities I remember from being Zuki, although I'm pretty sure I'm also cupioromantic in this life/body cause of course [also somewhere on the ace spec in this life/body lol].
My quirk/power is hard for me to explain, lol, but one aspect is that I had animal attributes [wolfdog ears & tail and crow wings + some other animal characteristics]. The best way I can explain the other part of my quirk is that it's like the quirk from Dis(associate) by BeyondTheClouds777 on AO3 (loved this fic, felt relatable and shit!).
I was adopted by Aizawa/Eraserhead and Yamada/Present Mic! My adopted siblings were Eri and Shinso/Hitoshi! I called Aizawa dad and Present Mic pa or papa lol! I called Shinso Toshi and bro! I called Eri sissy mainly!
Two picrews that are basically how I look like [add the tail from the second to the first or the wings from the first to the second]; - Will be changed to the drawing I plan to do if I decide to post it
I am also an alterhuman in other ways in both this life and my life as Zuki! [Btw yes to me, this identity comes from a past life].
That's all I can really think of, so with that bye! You can stick around with my account, or you can leave. Any hate will be blocked.
- Zuki Shay Lupo! :3c
Yeah, let's start normalizing this!! [Other nonhumans or alterhumans feel free to add onto this!]
Hello, I'm Shay, and I'm a wolfdog, cat, crow[maybe? I'm starting to question this again], questioning dragon, and uh, I'm also ockin! Also questioning other kintypes but whatever, lol. I almost forgot, I'm also a fallen angel, though that also goes under one of my ockin types, lol.
i wish being nonhuman was normalised. i wish i could go to new people and introduce myself like "hi, im Talon, im a dragon" and they could just say "oh, nice to meet you!" and act, you know, like normal.
sigh...
I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.
When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.
I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.
- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c
Can people send in asks about my memories from canon? Cause I wanna rant about some memories and shit but wanna make sure that people would even be open to hearing about them and shit. [Send in specific asks if you want to or send in just asks about what memories I have, just pls send in asks sjdjjdjejskdks].
DHJDJEJEJRJDJD, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, JDJDND
- Zuki Shay Lupo! :3c
"STOP MAKING A TANTRUM!!1!!1!" im tapping my foot aggressively. learn the difference
