Amimi - Blog Posts
help i'm crying
like today i had to make a doctors appointment and go to the doctors on my own for the first time ever because my parents were busy. that sounds childish but as a 16-year-old hermit it was painstaking. like the doctor asked me a very embarrassing question and i turned to the chair next me and then realised my mum wasn't there.. and then slowly... turned back to the doctor. she was so nice, asking about a levels and trying to make me comfortable. still, never seeing her again.
a (very rare) math/science post.
hey! so i'm a british student but you'll see me putting things in brackets to help clarify things for my non british readers. so i did my GCSEs (i think the american equivalent is SATs?) back in may and june and one thing about me during my last year of school is i was in some deep shit. so i didn't really do that well. I got a bunch of 6s (B+s) and7 (A) in eng lit. i found i was couple marks off of a grade 7 (A ) in almost all my subjects including math and science. now i can deal with a B in art and a B in sociology because I'm doing them for A levels ( google tells me the americn equivalent is AP examinations) so doing well in them means that my gcse grade will be dismissed since i did better at A level today i asked my math teacher if there was any way i could resit and he cut me the following deal: if i resat my exams in either november or june of next year and got a better grade then he'd cover the fees and same goes for science. now, i just started sixth form/college so i'd have to learn in my own time somehow. i don't have anyone to teach me and i can't afford tutoring but i was offered to sit in the back of lessons during my free period every tuesday and that afterschool i can ask whatever available teacher for help for anything i really really can't teach myself should i go for it? please interact and tell me what you think.
Salut!!! I am here to give you some resources that helped me learn french! <3 I will warn you that I learn very informally. I hate taking notes or like seriously studying.
Langauge Transfer- a free podcast lesson that is FANTASTIC for getting a good base in the language and for making connections from english to french. You can listen on youtube or soundcloud
netflix- once you can at least read a bit in french, i would highly recommend the show Lupin on netflix. Watching with french subtitles and then graduating to sans sous-titres will really help! It is a wonderful show and I think that Omar Sy´s accent is really easy to understand
TV5Monde- they have a really good listening comprehension test and then give you resources to improve. You might watch a video about an art exhibit and then answer some questions about it.
Youtube- I can not stress this enough. Not only can you find teachers, but you can also find native french content to practice. BUT the most useful is the comments. That's where you can learn a ton of slang and vocab
I have never been a huge soccer fan er I guess le fút lol. But i am now. Paris-Saint-Germain has a great channel with interviews and games with the players.
CRAZY SALLY
cam summers
Piece of French (teacher)
French Avec Nelly (teacher)
InnerFrench (teacher) and he has a great podcast too!!
Easy French (interviews for people learning french)
lingoni french and french with Alexa (these two were never my cup of tea but are great quality)
Duolingo- some people really do be hating on it, but it has gotten a lot better. I wouldn't recommend it as a only/primary source of learning, but it is a great supplement to get some more vocab in. Plus if you join in on the leaderboards and challenges, it is fun
I do make flashcards as a way to review vocab and I go over them when I get the chance. Quizlet made a lot of their stuff premium :( so i use Brainscape which is pretty great
The best way to get better is to talk!!!! Even talking to yourself for a few minutes a day will do wonders
Bonne chance! <3
oh my, i love you <3 merci beaucoup!
i'll definitely check out all the resources!
chloé stafler's french cover of sweater weather slapped me across the face with a french textbook and i took the hit gladly
rediscovering my love of french and wanting to pick it up again, i used to hate it in school but now i realise how the structure of school and exams just ironically kills of the feeling of wanting to learn. please interact and tell me your fav methods of learning languages? or just your experiences with learning french in general?
august accoutrements
we're really really reaching for the alliteration at this point. do family reunions just always suck or is it just me? anywayssss after ncs i went with my mum and brother to have a little reunion almost with my mums side (her siblings/ my uncles and aunts and all their kids/ my annoying chaotic mess of cousins) it was okay for like a week but icl i want to go home. i haven't done anything for my a level transition work, i brought my art equipment but i can't get it out due to all the kids so i'll have to just grind it all when i go home. haven't done a lot of sixth form shopping, bought a few cozy tops for the colder weather (a dark blue sweater, a chunky knit pink jumper, a giant oversized cream sweater which i swear is the softest thing i have ever touched, and a brown and blue oversized flannel, as well as a ribbed dark grey top) i plan on going out and buying more bottoms and such later until next time Amina
i love and hate having a crush, idk why my heart feels heavy. like im not that good at speaking to people irl but i'm crazy over text, but with him i'm so nervous i can't even do that? its a different kind of torture - and then the few times everything goes well though i'm super happy but then also scared to death of saying something wrong so i pretend to fall asleep or be busy or something like that. it's weird how i feel like i'm barely hanging on to composure and he's nonchalant and uncaring
coming back from ncs (week one) [pt 2]
in case you haven't read pt 1 i hate that i cant post it at once. but carrying on! thursday was definitely the most interesting, watersports was the main event, canoeing and rafting, i almost drowned (i'll get back to that) . so first off we went rafting and just waded around the quarry while also panicking and failing to row away from our other demonic friends, got soaked after having water flicked at us and then row back to shore. everyone was screaming and it was terrifying but amazing. we were getting ambushed and had more water flicked at us as we got onto the canoes, there was a conga line with all 200 people in the marquee and big talent show where i sat next to who im calling bracelet boy (i realised how much i actually liked him after he snapped my glowstick bracelet and my cheeks burst into flame) , i made my first moves towards bracelet boy and accidentally accumulated a squad of wingmen including my ATL.
i probably could've written a whole post about thursday night by itself. i snuck out with two of my best wingmen and we went stargazing and listened to music in the night, i had nettle stings all over my legs and our cameras couldn't pick up the stars but i wouldn't change a thing. we were tucked away in the corner of the campsite in the dark and whenever we saw a flashlight we turned everything off and lied down in the grass while trying not to laugh. at one point we thought we saw boys sneak out of the tents and went to go check which was such an adrenaline rush, upon approaching we heard the voice of a stern staff member and started running, a flashlight quickly approaching and i tripped and grazed my knee but kept running which we laughed about as soon as we got into one of the tents. it was the most exhilarating thing i have ever done.
friday i talked to bracelet boy more and packed away, socialised, play games and made more friends, we took group pictures and i got bracelets insta (i'm screaming internally i've never liked someone so much). he's adorable (is that the right word to describe someone twice your height?) and said our final goodbyes as we got ready to go.
i would do anything to go back. it felt like something out of a dream.
there's so many things that i probably missed but i'll likely come back and edit this post later that's all for now! ~ Amimi
[ Mon, 1st August - 20:27] [ i think i lost the glowstick bracelet :( but i plan on making him a bracelet for when i confess ]
coming back from ncs (week one)
Sat, 30th July - 12:39 i'm back woahhh. this is going to be longgg. the first day of ncs was definitely the worst, but it was still interesting. i got to meet my group and surprisingly most were from my town, i was expecting it to be a lot more mixed with people from different places. the majority of my group (16 people including a Group Leader (GL) and Assistant Group Leader (ATL). in all honesty, my GL was overly enthusiastic and too strict but i really liked my ATL she was super duper cool (i'll talk about her more later) . the part that dragged it down was mainly expectations icl. i thought the place would be a lot nicer than what it actually was (we were expecting cabins but actually stayed in tents, the bathrooms being public were not amazing and the layout was kind of awkward) the food (a poorly made pie) was awful but it slowly got better through the week. the second day was mainly games - we did have a mini olympics but i didn't take part in much so i can't really talk about that - debates, getting to know eachother and a presentation on a sensitive topic - creating a social media campaign which was really cool, one group did a whole rap and it was vibes but they somehow didn't win :(. i made sooo many friends during free time who were mainly from my hometown which i was super happy about. there was some typical teenage drama and oml, tiktok was really not lying when they called it a teenagers love island because it literally was. the third day there was an almost 7-8 hour hike which included lots of activities, it was super sunny out and everyone wanted to go home after the torture but then it was just more free time, small games and activities and chilling so it all calmed down. it did not feel like as short as a time as it was. the days go SLOWWWW. so many instances where i thought it was like 3pm and it was only 11:45am. head on over to pt 2 bc i ended up being so long tumblr would not let me post it lol!
a post about NCS at 00:05am
Monday 25 July 2022 i know when you use 24 hour time format you aren't supposed to specify am or pm but idk i can't say the time without it. it feels like there's something missing i am going on my residential trip for NCS in less than 8 and a half hours, and as a brown girl with strict parents that's exciting
i've scoured tiktok and i'm kinda scared ngl, why is it being described as love island?!?!?! that's like the worst thing you could say. (to any love island fanatics, i do apologise if this is insulting, i have in fact seen one clip of the show in which the islanders seriously discuss how lizard people in suits run the world and immediately noped out and never touched it again) anywaysss my friend kota said it was pretty cool, i'm kinda disappointed because she's not going to be there with me (we signed up with the intention of it being our last summer before we go to different colleges and likely never see eachother again) but oh well. i'm going to be forced to make new friends and do sports. i'm going to scour twitter and tumblr for posts about NCS and then go to sleep see you in five days! Amimi
we love conan
Tuesday 12 July, 11:23pm
this was supposed to be a post about me planning my sketchbook a thought dump but i'm vibing so hard with conan i can't think properly
june jingle
exam season ended and i have officially finished secondary woah, however i'm going back for my schools sixth form so while it won't be the exact same i'll still be in the same place. i don't know why but it doesn't feel like everything is over, i still feel like i should be revising or something and i can't shake the feeling. it's super weird. i need to buy clothes for sixth form and ncs, kinda stumped i wont be going to prom but that shits rigged anyways so whatever, i'll probably go somewhere with my bestfriend which will be super cool. i should really get to cleaning my room since guests are coming tommorow so i'm gonna go do that that's all for now! - amimi
the last day of secondary school (surprisingly never cried)
i'm making this post as just a literal dump of all my memories today so forgive me if its all over the place. this morning i was in a panic over my chemistry exam (which i definitely didn't get an A in but oh well) i showed my outfit to my friends (a cottagecore-inspired thing with puff sleeves and a small flower pattern, black tights - i was supposed to wear pumps but i forgot them smh) and i really found out who my real friends were. upon showing them ( O and L is what we'll call them ) for my irl friends on here it's very very obvious who they are. L, i found has a problem she won't say to me - i dont want to look back on this with bad memories so i won't go into detail. O is one of the greatest friends i've ever had. she makes me feel like myself which is the best thing a friend can do for you today i danced (like a stripper at some moments) in a party with my best friend, in a hall with a DJ in the booth, smoke machines and flashing lights with a cup of ice in my hand. (and maybe heartbreak number one was staring but i found i didn't care about him) Life feels like a movie. I went to town, i felt like i was having a real teenage experience for the first time on the last day of secondary school. today was a confidence boost. maybe i got looks from cuties too (but don't base your self worth on men - gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss) i felt pretty for the first time in such a long time, even with my skin breaking out. when i walked back to school to pick up my bag and the equipment, i didn't go to the blue balcony outside the art rooms like i've done every day for a year to reminisce and cry. i'm so tired of crying. i think today i reached some kind of self acceptance too, which is one of the best parts. The sky is so blue today. God, I Love Life. ~ Amimi
may (miserable, not magical)
taysway ftw eng lit exam tommorow i haven't posted at all recently due to exams but i'll be back to it right after exam season is over (which means after june D; ) i thought i'd just hop on here and have a quick monthly diarypost which is actually just a dump of my thoughts for tommorow so my exam board is eduqas and they are the Hecate of all exam boards tommorow i'm doing two 1 hour papers - one on Macbeth and one on Lord of the Flies the topics (themes/ characters) i'm revising are: Macbeth Lady Macbeth Ambition Kingship Appearance vs Reality (i have given up completely on macduff but maybe i'll attempt banquo)
Ralph Simon Jack Piggy (brief on Roger) Savagery vs Civilisation the aim right now is just a 6 - then i'll resit it and do better in november next academic year wish me luck because i need it badly - Amimi
april anniversaire (always awful)
anniversaire = bday en francais oui oui mon francais est progression (yes yes my french is improving) i have my official french speaking exam in 4 days
i'm not prepared. i hope i can grind some revision and get a B. it was bday on the 15th! sweet 16! i had a nice countdown with friends and nice messages and wishes. otherwise, a pretty normal day i think lack of confidence is my fatal flaw similar to that of macbeths "vaulting ambition" being his hamartia. i'll ttyl! - Amimi
april aches (among added actions)
google dictionary really came in handy for the title this time i missed out march my bad, it's in my drafts somewhere, i'll post it another time. anywaysss, its the easter holidays and i should be studying but i really don't have the motivation, which sucks alot because exams are soon and i still have all of macbeth to cover. at this rate i really don't think my gcse grade goals are going to happen. MINIMUM i wanted 7s in everything and a 6 in french. however, right now it's looking like a whole ton of 5s my 16th birthday is tommorow! oh and my first official exam (french speaking) is on the 25th wish me luck i'll turn it all around Amimi
things i've been doing lately ( and things i should do be doing)
- notion, i found just messing around and looking at inspo on pinterest helped me a lot more than looking at videos - watching videos for learning - corbettmaths vids are soooo helpful - trying not to stress (kind of failing but we'll get there) - making a revision timetable for school and sticking by it kind of a lackluster supposedly weekly post but we'll get there eventually until next time! Amimi
exam season is in less than 100 days , mocks are soon (and i’m fucking screwed)
21:05 - Wednesday 16th February
SOOO IM GONE. - french mock tommorow, i’ll likely do foundation french (which i’m not too bothered about - makes sense since i can barely speak my own language let alone learn another one) je ne suis pas parle francais
- mock exams on the first week of March - that includes every subject, HOPEFULLY, i can do further maths and maths and do them well.
- ENGLISH IS A MESS. i haven’t even STARTED macbeth and i need to cover it in a week and a half in time for the literature mock - holy shit don’t even get me started on english language - story writing can suck a dick, i’d be the sickest damn fantasy author ever to the point i’d boil my spaghetti in JK Rollings tears BUT EDUQAS REQUIREMENTS ARE THE MOST IMAGINATION LIMITING THING - it’s literally like non-magical harry potter went to a public school. - math, math, MATH - so i got dropped from set one recently, but i was given the chance of a two week trial and if i did good i’d move back up, ends in two days so wish me luck! haven’t posted lately due to being real busy but i thought i’d give you all a lil study update until next time Amimi
january jive (jovial and joyless)
yes, alliteration in the title of every monthly random diary/mood/whatever this is post is going to be a thing now sooo i had my careers interview not too long ago which was actually pretty cool! now you ask (because i’m sure you’re dying to know), “was it anything like what you were expecting???” no - i was expecting it to be incredibly formal actually but it wasn’t at all, in another school nearby who had theirs back in december everyone was told to come to their interviews in formalwear - which i’m glad we didn’t do because i would be agonising over the perfect outfit. also i turn 16 in exactly 76 days waowwwwww - so i’m already considering part time jobs and such but it’s crazy crazy because i have no idea how to apply even after my job interview. my job interview was just a very nice old person (a self employed gardener) asking me about things i liked, stuff i’m currently studying, interests and how they tied in to what job i’d like to do - and also asked about what my siblings do which i’m wondering as to why that’s relevant but hey, brotherthing 1 and brotherthing 2 i really hyped you up. (catch that dr seuss reference :DD ) @mohkomx bday also went by and i did my best to quickly whip up a birthday card which turned out okayy! but omlll, on the night before the envelope i had bought ripped because the card was slightly too big to fit - and so i did my best to follow a so-called easy origami tutorial to make an envelope - then i gave up halfway through and held the thing together wish pretty gold washi tape. 9/02/22 - i somehow put this in my drafts and just never posted it lmao wtf, better late then never
thoughts after finishing euphoria (s1) (pt3)
18:47 - 23 Jan 2022
i suggest checking out the other two `thought while watching euphoria` posts before reading this one! SPOILER WARNING - OK BUT THE ENDING - THE CHOREOGRAPHY AND MUSIC OH MY GOSHHH LABRINTH AND ZENDAYA REALLY ATE THAT SHIT UPP. - love fez #fezcosupremacy - cassies figure skating scene had me on the verge of tears, I love the callback to her childhood and innocence through the use of it, and like the costume being almost the same blue to the doctors scrubs?!! - FUCK NATE JACOBS - the fight between nate and his dad, when nate was screaming you could hear the pain and anger. - MADDY FINDING OUT ABOUT THE CAL JACOBS TAPES - i was NOT expecting that. - mouse is horrifying, like he hasn’t even gotten violent or anything but his presence just manages to give you that silent kind of fear. posted a bunch this weekend so don’t expect anything until later this week, i hope to do a season one overall review, maybe analysis?? and binge season two when all the episodes are out that’s all for now! ~ Amimi
euphoria (first thoughts)
17:22 - 22 Jan 2022
just started binging euphoria and thought i’d share some stuff that came to mind a : this show is like visually amazing - like holy shit, costume design, effects, and oh my gosh can we talk about the hallway scene where rue’s high off her mind and everythings spinning? - that was some next level cinematography and set design right there b : a LOT more graphic then i was expecting, like they really put the detail into every scene, warning that some stuff you may see (if you haven’t alr watched it) can be triggering c : not a realistic portrayal of teenagers at all, could have easily set them as being in college or even like early uni days - idk if its different for an american audience but teens over here do not act like that. d : casting and acting is cool but in some small moments i find it lacking, like kat’s a bit too calm for a girl who just got explicit videos of her leaked, because if that was real i would be crying my eyes out. so far i’m halfway through ep three but i’ll do another post when i’m done watching - feel like the twists and turns have lacked the shock factor but that’s likely mainly because i’ve watched all the spoilers on tiktok. i’ll post some more later today or tmrw so look out for that!! - Amimi
in dire need of 90s movies recommendations
send me some my ask box
notes for future me (because 2022 is in three hours)
New Years Eve 2021 - 9pm
-confidence - work on speaking to people, noones going to hold your awkwardness over your head
(and anyone who does deserves to have all their movies spoiled and their favourite characters brutally murdered)
- study your ass off - this is your last year in secondary school. do well on your gcses and mocks. make it count, you want that scholarship you have to work for it. - you do you - let’s try to be ourselves and not care too much about other people and their irrelevant opinions this year and never cry over those who are undeserving Next year I want to sincerely better myself, please work on yourself too. I’ll see you next year ~ Amimi
26/12/2021
study/diary post
general - motivation is something i’m really lacking, mock exams for sociology and french are in jan starting the week of jan 17th - i’m also expected to prepare myself and write applications and such for mock interviews with real employers. it’s weird because i don’t feel old enough to be doing these things, i’m not sure if that’s because of covid or if it’s due to other reasons. times passing awfully fast but slow at the same time?
english - i need to start going through macbeth which has already proven to be a challenge, shakespeare really isn’t my forte - language is something i’m really struggling on too - when it comes to timing and reading questions properly and not panicking - a christmas carol, lord of the flies and macbeth are the three books that will be covered in the literature exam - i hope i’ll be able to go through macbeth and completely memorise all three by march
wish me luck!
au revoir pour le moment ~Amimi
christmas day (and a christmas carol)
Sat, 25th Dec 2021 - 3:18pm
Merry Christmas to all who celebrate!! last night (or rather early this morning) I had a cute small interaction with the first blog I ever followed here on tumblr years ago and was so starstruck I didn't sleep for an hour lol. this is kinda silly but i'd like to think it was the worlds little christmas present to me, cheering me up in these crappy times. since i don't celebrate i'm probably just gonna binge movies as there are lots streaming on tv today and i'd like to get started on some movie reviews that'll be gradually posted in the upcoming weeks so look forward to that! in honour of today, i also plan on finally reading A Christmas Carol in its entirety and also for the sake of revising for literature and being somewhat productive today. as of tomorrow, I plan on revising for my upcoming sociology and french exams in late jan/early feb as well as catching up on literature. although languages and shakespeare don't exactly come easy to me so we'll need motivation for that! - i'll be sure to post about it and keep you updated! while writing this post i also came across the new beta editor and so far its pretty cool! i hope you liked this amalgamation of a studyblr/diarypost?! see you soon! until next time! ~ Amimi
something new
Thu, 23rd Dec 2021 - 6:23pm
heyo! as you can see changes have been made, i hope you like them! to pay homage to my og 2019 phase i decided to keep my pfp bts themed lol
things to look forward to in the future
more scheduled posts after new years ( at least one post a week )
movie and book reviews
studyblr content
possibly extra content to do with writing on the side?
monthly diary posts
that’s all for now!
Amimi
december daze (depressing af)
Wed, 22 Dec 2021 - 11:28pm -11:57pm
damn that
alliteration
decembers been kinda dismal ngl,
(take a shot every time you read a word beginning with d on this post)
feel like i’m in a daze, these past 5 days of christmas break have been lying in bed and listening to p!atd and maggie lindemann on repeat.
(productive i know)
it’s crazy to think i’ll be finishing secondary school within the next few months
i feel like i was robbed of two years of my life and it’s so weird because it’s like how can you feel nostalgic for something that was never there?
nostalgia in definition is
a sentimental longing or wistful affection for a period in the past
that’s not quite what i feel. i have a longing for a period in my past that never happened. i don’t feel wistful affection. i feel grief and loss for a time that never was. i’m almost 16 but i don’t feel that way. i feel like i lost what would have been two of the greatest years of my life and it’s like damn, 2020 and 2021 happened in a blur. where did they go.
(love that over dramaticness for me)
exams will be done and over with within the next 6 months, i’d like to make the most of that time inbetween studying to experience what i lost in that time stolen by covid.
NOTE:
i’d like to do monthly diary posts like these as something for my future self to look back on - from now on i’ll be including the date and times i started and finished writing posts at the top.
til next time ~Amimi
november is a no from me
i’ve been away from tumblr alot due to a mix of problems and exams, this blog has been really inactive and it sucks. gosh and bonfire night is supposed to be the best but here i am - lets hope things get better by the third of december so i don’t need to wish i were heather