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Do you know what I hate? What I'm really, really angry at?

We're not allowed to express love.

And it pisses me off.

Yes! That boy in my class looks stunning in that green sweater! I gaze in awe at the way my friend looks like an urban goddess at midnight drenched in street lights, surrounded by dancing teenagers at a party in the theatre parking lot! Another one looks like dawn and summer fields fell in love with her! I adore the way my classmate dresses like a punk fairy, with dirty blonde braids reaching to her hips and grazing her red leather jacket! The boy who lends me his eraser has the most fantastic sense of humour, the way he looks down for a second before he grins!

I love herb gardens! And perfume oils! Old books and fantasy novels! Dope-ass boots paired with a nice coat and conservative scarf clashing with my pink hair! I love poems! And jasmine tea!

I love how the old Vietnamese lady runs the best soup bar in town. How excited my seat neighbour gets over fancy notebooks. I love it when a fellow teenage girl hesitantly smiles back at me across the street.

Why is she hesitant? Because there's that ever-lasting question. Is this the socially designated response? Am I supposed to react differently? Am I supposed to react at all? Wouldn't it be "cooler" to ignore me?

Is it weird when I tell a boy I hardly know that he looks epic in that sweater? Is it over the top when I tell that girl in my French class how cute her boots are every time she wears them? Is waving at people I barely know but I get a happy vibe from bad?

Is it wasteful and expensive that I love perfume and essential oils? Is me wearing my mother's expensive coat with leather boots and purple hair childish? Is my idealism and wide-eyed hope to be laughed at?

We're not allowed to express love.

I had so much of it.

okay so like i dont know why but jesus fuxking christ i am tired of random ass people following me and they’re accounts are just nudes like— honey aint no body wanna tap that! save your body for PH and OF

anyways unrelated i ate tonkatsu today so thats cool

Anyone else get skipped?

     Ok, so my area’s stores that had Hazbro’s “Titans Return” products, sucked. They are the worst. O K, so what happened was, they had the same four or five figures, for a year. I’m not kidding, they had the first two waves for a year. And you were super lucky to see anything new. So then what happened, is that they finally stocked 3/4s of wave three. Which again, stayed the same for months. So months go by, and I expect the final wave to come out. NOPE! They skip it. Just goes straight to “Power of The Primes”. (Does a Prowl.)

     Cut to now. They stock “Power of The Primes”. I’m mad, but I can still get the final wave online. But, I like to look just in case. And what do I find today, a month later? F******, wave two Voyagers. (Does a Prowl even harder.) Like, COME ON!

     Now, I don’t know if the last wave/waves were supposed to be online only. But come on.

     Also, bare selves. Almost every time. Thanks crappy movie merchandise.

     So yeah, I got skipped. Angry five AM rant over. Sorry if something doesn’t make sense.

     P.S. I know I can buy stuff online, or drive to other areas. But I hate wasting more money on something then I have to.

Holy ****, TF2′s contracts are terrible.

     Ok, I know everyone knows that, but come on! F####! So ever since the pyroland contracts came out, I’ve been stuck on the dragons breath contract. Kill 5 people in a row. Now you might say, “You loser, that’s easy”. NOT FOR ME APPARENTLY! Noooo, lord Gaben hates me or something. Worst part is that I have all the other contracts, and bonuses done. And that’s bulls***. Why do I need to do this one s***** thing, even though I’ve done everything else?

Bah, rant over. Valve, fix your s***.

My local library has thrown away its reference section. "That stuff is all online, now."

They have thrown away most of their archive. What remains is buried in the basement under junk, and all record of its contents is lost. They have no interest in doing anything with it.

For job hunting tips, we direct you to the three biggest job hunting websites.

Homework help and tutoring comes from a local NGO, when they can afford it, although they do use our building.

We do finally have crafts, though! We turned the quiet room and the young adult reading area into a luxurious crafting station.

Legal aid isn't available. We can refer you to a local lawyer, or that local NGO. But you can look up documents online, and print them for free!

I tried to provide compassionate human connection when I worked there, but that's one of the reasons I was let go. Apparently that's something patrons are supposed to provide each other.

And we still have books! We have more and more books about fewer and fewer things, and soon we will have more fiction than ever, we just have to get rid of all the useless nonfiction that's not about hobbies, home renovation, cooking, or poetry. Nobody ever reads those books, they're just taking up space we could use for James Patterson novels!

Truly, there's no better time to visit your local library.

sonic 3 credits spoilers below

okay but if sonic three pulls the fucking romance card on sonic and amy's relationship just because she's a girl and he's a teen boy, im going to fucking lose it

like i love sonadow, but you dont see me actively shipping movie sonadow (outside of platonic relations), bc that's not what the sonic movies are fucking about

i HATE the idea that paramount might actually make sonic simp for amy and/or vice versa, i hate it so fucking much, with a burning passion

because the sonic MOVIES specifically are about (PLATONIC) love, family, overcoming grief, making friends, being better people, seeing truth and doing what's right; etc etc etc

AND SO HELP ME SONAMY SHIPPERS IDGAF IF YOU COME IN HERE AND SCREAM AND WHINE AND CRY AND YELL I DO NOT FUCKING CARE, THE SONIC MOVIES ARE NOT FOR SHIPPING, AND ANY AND ALL SONIC MOVIE SHIPPING BESIDES MADDIE AND TOM IS UTTER BULLSHIT, I AM NOT SORRY

COME FIGHT ME, I DARE YOU, BUT PARAMOUNT- MY OPINION STANDS.

DO NOT PULL A KUNG FU PANDA FOUR AND FUCK UP MY ENTIRE VIEW OF THE FRANCHISE, DO NOT FUCK UP THE SONIC MOVIES REPS.

DO NOT MAKE SONIC 4 HAVE A ROMANCE SIDE PLOT OR I WILL COME AFTER YOU.

(also a quick edit: stobotnik is safe guy, dw, i love those gay old men, and it makes sense in the plot <3)

Dude, I'm getting so pissed off today

People are deadly annoying

I've felt like crap

I hardly eat, today is the only day I've had a good meal

I keep getting Doey the Doughman bullshit-- I'm not even in the Poppy Playtime Fandom anymore!!!

I swear, Doey at this point is overrated. Like him all tf you want, just my opinion

I've just been like-- SO pissed off, man

I have this just like burning fuel in my chest that keeps flarring up with anger whenever the smallest inconvenience comes up

I don't even KNOW the word peace anymore

Nobody can even get a hint that I wanna be left alone-- nobody gets anything anymore!

I swear tho, I might just break my phone if I keep getting Doey bullshit, like it's actually annoying me

I ain't ever fucking around with you bitches again season 4 of the umbrella academy only been out for TWO FUCKING DAY and someone already spoiled it for me, ive been waiting so fucking long for this i deadass cant anymore 😭😭😭

scum love (new playlist, cause my bf and I broke up on monday)

slutgarden - marilyn manson

no mercy - deathbyromy

zitti e buoni - måneskin

cockroach waltz - jack off jill

wait and bleed - slipknot

skinny little bitch - hole

rabbitteen - jack off jill

la paula de buio - måneskin

everything's brown - jack off jill

angst - leftovers

dead! - mcr

w1nner - tj_beastboy

kinderzimmer - leftovers

bla bla bla - måneskin

she said - the jins

underjoyed - jack off jill

du bist schon tot bevor du lebst - leftovers

left behind - slipknot

endless, nameless - nirvana

(if I would need to describe my relationship I would say: jack off jill and leftovers songs)

Good GOD

Trying to find character templates such as THE MONOPOLY ONE

Or the CAR one

I can't seem to find ONE with SIX CHARACTERS

Found sooo many with five even more with seven but little to none for six

If someone can find one or has one, PLEASE let me know

Saw two posts that contradicted each other perfectly but there’s A STUPID ADD IN THE WAY SO I CANT SCREENSHOT THEM GET OUT GET OUT GET OUTTTT

holy shit this is so annoying but the amount of times ive met alt girls (particularly punks) that will make their whole schtick being alternative and progressive then turn around and have racist, white boyfriends is insane.

like i genuinely hate calling people posers but holy shit. that is genuine poser activity. call me soft or wtv but i do believe that whoever you are actively dating says a lot about you and your beliefs.

like sorry dude but i find it hard to believe youre actually in the scene when your bf is a borderline racist, you actively make racist jokes, you dont even try to understand the history behind the scene, and the most punk thing you do is repost pictures of punks online. like dude can you and your racist crusty bf gtfo. no one wants you here

like, i get my entire brand is being involved in the punk scene, but outside of this account i dont even call myself a punk, yet somehow im more involved in the subculture than some of these leeches are.

idk this could just sound like elitist bs and if it does ill self reflect on that part but otherwise i genuinely hate performative mfs that claim to be alternative then turn around and act like or date complete assholes. like jokes or not idk if u and ur white bf should be joking about police brutality. maybe gtfo, break up and self reflect before turning around and trying to act like youre some "omg xd dirty rat saurr punk and aesthetic" girl despite never having evolved your political beliefs beyond "yeah queer people are cool".

yes this is targeted leave me alone i needed to rant

My SO is stuck in a house with her creepy mom’s boyfriend. He’s peeked on her in the shower and that was the last straw for her. He’s done other things but nothing as bold and disgusting as this. Now she’s trying to get out ASAP but she doesn’t have enough for the deposit in the new place. I sent as much as I could but I’m scared that she’ll end up stuck with this creep. This is such bullshit. Why do sick fucks like this exist? Why does rent cost so much in certain states that the deposit is so expensive? I want her to move in here already but it’s just not realistic with her work life yet. So so sick of this.

Update: she moved out

School. Photos.

School has begun. I don’t remember going to school. I don’t know why. I do know that at some point I was there, though. Why?

Oh, and my dumb phone DELETED EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. OF. MY. PHOTOS. 🙃🙃🙃

Please distract me so I'm not tempted to look at the dumpsterfire of a website known as Facebook.

The Pedro hate is insane on that shitbox of a website. Already having a bad night, don't need to read that shit.

People saying he's "creepy", that he's "probably on drugs" because he's lost weight for F4, that he's "in everything", someone even said he's an "illegal alien and should go back to Chile". He's lived in America since he was 9 months old ffs.

I'm just done with it all. I know I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does. Pedro is the kindest, sweetest soul on the planet and he does not deserve to be hated on like that. Go hate on someone who deserves it. I can name several.

Sorry, rant over.

I truly do not care if it "ruins your immersion". YOU NEED TO TAG UNREALITY PROJECTS. Sure, some people are able to discern that it's not true, but you are still presenting (oftentimes horrific) concepts to a wide audience as truth. presenting the idea of "This creature will hunt you down if it knows that you're think about it" to a child or someone who already struggles with discerning what is reality without properly allowing them to brace themselves is CRUEL. It's the same idea of knocking someone who has mobility issues over without warning just because "well my other friends who don't have mobility issues can just get back up"

I feel like people forget most trans guys still had to grow up as girls.

We were still forced to be mature early

We were still told to not to take up space

We were still subject to female beauty standards

Our bodies were still treated as inappropriate

We were still pitted against each other

We were still excluded from “male” activities

We were still treated as lesser the boys

Those things don’t evaporate once we transition they’re fucking internalized. I constantly have to remind myself I’m allowed to exist. We don’t stop dealing with misogyny.

The minute you stop putting bigotry in little boxes of “oh it’s an x thing” or “it’s a y thing” and accept that bigotry is intersectional and doesn’t care about boundaries, you can start helping yourself and your fellow targets of hatred.

Being sexualised without consent isn’t just “oh it’s a girl thing! Welcome to the club trans women!!” It’s about being an “other”. Bigots don’t care about you identifying as a woman or a man, you’re just an other whose identity has been presented through media as inherently sexual. This is why gay men experience it as well as gay women, why trans men, non-binary, and trans women also experience it. This is why the buck doesn’t stop at women. Misogyny, racism, transphobia, and homophobia all intersect in disgusting ways that effect everyone who’s a target.

am I saying it’s bad to vent about your experiences? FUCK NO. I’m saying it’s going to make you lonely when you divide your experiences from other people’s, especially when they relate. DONT MAKE YOUR LIFE HARDER BY SHUTTING OUT EVERYONE ELSE.

RANT!

I hate how I’ll spend hours on a drawing and barely anyone notices. Meanwhile, another persons little doodle is blowing up. I’m about to give up art as a whole.