Autistic - Blog Posts
Neurotypicals entering my room immediately take 1d10 psychic damage
Eating with the big spoon just to feel something
Does anyone know how to stop myself from stimming?
"you've been really quiet recently, what happened? Why don't you talk as much anymore"
maybe because everytime i get excited and start talking to you, you say I'm being too loud, shut up omg, to calm down and "wow you're really talkative aren't you?"
like what do you want from me at this point???
autistic people whose special interest is some piece of media write the absolute best fanfiction about it. i need to read more fanfiction from people who are as autistic about x-men as i am
My favourite characters would all benefit from a diagnosis.
When you're watching something and a character really comes across to you as autistic
Ruth Madievsky, All-Night Pharmacy // Suzanne Scanlon, Promising Young Women // Robin Roe, A List of Cages // Hayao Miyazaki, Kiki's Delivery Service // Susan Sontag, As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 // D. H. Lawrence, The Plumbed Serpent // Jennifer S. Cheng, "So We Must Meet Apart" // Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart // Alice Oseman, Radio Silence // Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice
Me having nightmares every night about getting fired from my job. Because I ramble and talk to my coworkers about conversations I’ve had with other coworkers. Not in a talking behind your back type way but in a, their really cool and supportive I feel safe here. I just dunno how to say it to them all without it coming off as me starting something. It’s my only job and I’ll be shattered if I lose it. So I’m just gonna work a full day mostly mute and hope they won’t be upset at me :(
I'm here with you on this. It's such a scary thing to have to look them in the eyes and see a different glance staring back. It's especially hard to have to rationalize everything that happened in your head, just enough so to make sure your friend has some sort of clue what you're talking about when you explain the situation later on. Cause they're gonna ask. And you'll have to answer. And it's so nerve-wracking. Ugh
Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them
Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were
The shame makes me want to rip my skin off
I didn't know how much I needed this.
happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!
Fun fact! There's this thing called misokinesia that's similar to misophonia but is triggered by other people's movements, often repetitive movements like fidgeting or stimming.
I had this as a kid really bad, I was always having meltdowns cause no one would understand just how distressing it was for me so it's really nice to find out that it's an actual thing :3
Wishing that everyone who deals with misokinesia isn't forced to stay in a space with triggering movements 🥰🥰🥰
"you can't change, you'll always be a monster"
What about you can't change, you'll always be a kind hearted person who sees the best in people. And maybe the people you've met so far haven't deserved it but one day someone will and they will be the best experience for both of you
Vent below
Ppl are so mean :((( I don't like me friends and I hate that I have to be friends with them cause we're in the same sport. They all joke about being autistic then say they don't like those ppl cause they're too autistic and then when I say they're not autistic enough to understand that you can't just "start socializing" they say there's no more or less autistic and like yeah there isn't but you clearly don't know anywhere enough about autism or disability to understand how one condition can cause people varying levels of disability like you're self diagnosed and haven't even done research, you do not speak for the autistic community*. You tone down your definition of autism to mean being a bit weird so you can fit into it and then when ppl talk about the actual affects of autism you say that's not a real thing cause it doesn't fit into your definition. I hate them. And they're like just talk to people and then say they don't like other people cause they talk too much. I hate them I hate them I hate them.
Like why are we talking badly about ppl behind their backs. I get shitty on ppl who have done bad things but they were literally saying "he's just too autistic for me"
I hate how autism has been mainstreamed to mean quirky then people feel comfortable shitting on actually autistic people because they're "a bit autistic"
They're sooooo mean and I hate them and I miss being a kid and when people said mean things adults told them not to but now they're all like we're adults, but that doesn't make being mean okay!!!
*this isn't anything against self diagnosed ppl who did literally any research and don't use their label as an excuse to be ableist. Self diagnosis is very important for ppl who can't get access to assessments or for whom having an official diagnosis would hurt but there are more ppl now adays that use their ability to self diagnose badly
SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK 👏 and thank you, I feel seen 🫶
happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!
I just broke the dish I eat out of. I feel awful. I want to find the exact same, but I know I won't be able to do so. I don't know what's I'm going to do without an eating plate.
I don't like loud sounds either, but the real problem is how people use them.
The purpose of them is to prevent accidents. If for example someone is crossing the road without paying attention the horn should be used to get their attention and prevent an accident. Most NTs just let anger get the better of them and use them incorrectly.
The car horn is such an allistic invention. “Hey, I do not like how you’re handling an 800 pound mechanical craft, here’s a loud, sudden noise to voice my displeasure.”
I love cooking so for me it is as follows.
Eating my samefood: :)
Cooking my samefood: :)
Eating my samefood: :)
Waiting for my samefood to cook: >:(
there are two sides of neurodivergency: socially awkward and awkwardly social.
being autistic is being overwhelmed/overstimulated by how messy your place is but not having the spoons to clean
Hehe thank you... I uh.... Sorts have a collection
This is towards any Autistic and other neurodivergent folks who feel they must always work at 100%, it's okay to be lazy when need be. To give 50-60% instead of 100, to get a C or a B instead of always an A. We're told that we're lazy and less capable than our neurotypical peers, so we push ourselves, often far past what's expected of others, just to prove them wrong. Yet when you're always running at 100%, you will eventually burn out. Often, at the worst possible time. And other folks will see us struggle with something we do everyday or with a little bit extra work added on top, not understanding that we're already running at 100% when it comes to work. Don't let your maximum become your normal. Work hard yes, but more importantly work smart. Not everything in life always requires your best. So take advantage of those quiet moments in life, at work or school to slow down a bit. That way you can save your energy for when you actually do need to give it your best.
Hey anybody wanna listen to me infodump about Bug Fables: The Everlasting Sapling? Just reply with whatever aspect of it you want me to ramble about and I can go from there.
yeah so if i disappear randomly you know why!
https://www.cbsnews.com/amp/news/rfk-jr-autism-study-medical-records/
Do any other autistic or adhd people relate to like, feeling scared of losing a hyperfixation or special interest? Like, its this thing that means so much to me and makes me so happy and the idea of not enjoying it anymore scares me in a way, i guess.
To lovely humans who were excluded from invitations, left behind when they tied their shoes, forced to walk in the grass when the sidewalk was full, spoken over when you tried to contribute, whispered about or laughed at, given side-eye when you tried to fit in…. you are so worthy of love.
Reminder that Auti$m $peak$ is an anti-autistic hate group that has zero autistic people on its board, and which focuses on the "burden" we present, and that the puzzle piece and "light it up blue" campaing are from them.
If you're looking for colors or symbols to show acceptance and support for us, please use the ones we, the autistic community, have chosen: Gold (because the chemical symbol of gold is Au), and the infinity symbol.
Thank you.
And if you want to "light it up," please do red, not blue. When we see the puzzle piece or "light it up blue," both of which are promoted by anti-autistic hate groups, that tells us you don't actually care about or respect us.
Not gonna argue about this; I'll just block.