Bpd Feels - Blog Posts

my thoughts when someone says "I love you" is just

ha ha. no, you don't. you just love the idea and perception of me that I have given you. you don't love me.

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO GODDAMN COMPLICATED AND CONFUSING

honestly just getting more and more afraid to ever get into another/new relationship because of this. I'm afraid, I'll be constantly afraid that they'll just suddenly leave one day too. I'll get overly too attached and clingy. on top of my already constantly splitting on people. I'm just fucking afraid now because of him.

all I keep thinking is

fuck you

and

i hate you

shut the fuck up just shut the fuck up

i hate you, I hate you all

i feel so bad to the point I wanna cut

also cry, but I can't cry so I'll just sit feeling like this

3 months without a response feels like dying.

i can't get you to understand a single bit. so why bother trying, why dont I just leave again, and not temporarily this time.