Finally... someone had to say it...so so true
You know what’s worse than living in underprivileged circumstances? Living in an emotionally unavailable home.
This isn’t to say that poverty isn’t a struggle, it absolutely is. Lack of money brings its own hardships, ones that can break a person. But emotional neglect? That breaks you in ways no amount of money can fix.
Yes, I can have lavish birthday parties with lots of gifts but not a single real smile or moment of warmth from my family.
Yes, I can cook delicious meals or order my favorite food but I can’t even enjoy them because my parents are too busy fighting.
Yes, I can celebrate festivals with grand decorations but every festival brings another argument, another reason to feel empty.
Yes, we can travel anywhere we want but in my family, people would rather stay home than spend time together.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that money is essential for survival, but it’s not everything. Because what’s the point of having everything if it still feels like nothing?
When your crush probably had a crush on you but you were emotionally unavailable so you gave them the ick...
How to force myself to feel emotions my brain doesn't allow me to feel
whole life convincing yourself that you’re emotionless, cold and unbothered only to realise many years later that you created that version of yourself because in reality you couldn’t bare the thought of being vulnerable in any way
and when you finally realise that it’s not something to be proud of you also realise that it’s too late to re-learn everything
you feel great shame because you finally see that you weren’t actually strong - all of it was a weakness. the thing you hated the most. you couldn’t embrace it
and worst of all - you realise that you’ve become exactly like the person who hurt you in the beginning