Pretending - Blog Posts
i have a hard time eating in any other place but my home ,such as restaurants or other peoples houses ,to combat that i'v started pretending i'm in a mukbang video so that I actually eat ,it helps me a lot especially when i'm traveling because i'm not home so I don't eat and then I get sick from not eating and I end up feeling miserable ,so yeah ,i'v just started pretending I'm in a mukbang video to help myself actually be able to eat(I wouldn't say I have any eating disorders I just have anxiety(not diagnosed but I think that's what it is)when it comes to eating anywhere but at home
~ Yeah, sadly I got used to being left and ghosted. I mean it still hurts, but I am not suprised by it. But honestly, you can still go and fuck yourselves!^^
/ One of the ugliest action a person can do! /
whole life convincing yourself that you’re emotionless, cold and unbothered only to realise many years later that you created that version of yourself because in reality you couldn’t bare the thought of being vulnerable in any way
and when you finally realise that it’s not something to be proud of you also realise that it’s too late to re-learn everything
you feel great shame because you finally see that you weren’t actually strong - all of it was a weakness. the thing you hated the most. you couldn’t embrace it
and worst of all - you realise that you’ve become exactly like the person who hurt you in the beginning
Pretending
They say, "what are you good at?"
I say, "oh, I'm good at-" I give them a paper and they read it,
-pretending being Happy
-pretending to be fine
-pretending to be strong
-pretending a smile
-pretending I could do it
-pretending I don't cry.
Help me.........
His eyes where in shock.......but for me, I'm fine with it,