Endo Safe Space - Blog Posts

Istg dude my partner's incubator has called them SEVEN TIMES today for random bullshit rants and I just wanna talk to my lover I'm so fucking done 😭

-???

Guys I'm on idle until I get my new phone HELP

I would have played all my favorite games already if my phone didn't have only 32GB, my speaker/mic is blowing out anyway so I'm lucky I get a reward for academic success

This phone has always been kinda bad but so has everything else, I can barely play online at all because of it, however this time I get to choose the phone and with the suggestions of my partner I'm getting a whole new phone type (from android/samsung to iphone)

Honestly idfk how to feel??? Like don't get me wrong I fucking LOVE the idea of going from 32GB to 520-something GB but that's a lot to process 😭 I don't even know how most iPhone mechanics work (I used a friend's once and couldn't figure out the home/app button thing)

I'm gonna miss separate volumes, but it's a price to pay

-Innie

Ultimate goober energy

When I say I like jesters ion mean Shadow Milk Cookie, ion mean Jevil or Marx, ion even mean Dimentio, and I ESPECIALLY don't mean Fizarolli, when I say I like jesters I mean Three from Numberblocks on CBeeBies Kids

My partner loves to have me watch them play because it makes their playing 10x better, (I sorta have that too but not as much, not the topic here) I prefer to play over watching and if I watch for too long I end up falling asleep due to being understimulated.

Today, we found a workaround.

For context, we don't have compatible devices and they are much more skilled than me, so there's very few games we can play together. When there is a game we can co-op, my devices end up having problems or our skill levels end up either boring them or frustrating me.

My partner wanted me to watch them play Project Sekai, which I end up zoning out during due to pretty lights before eventually falling asleep. We ended up talking about it, and the solution that made us both hyper was-funnily enough-essentially giving me an unplugged controller!

They streamed their setup like usual, but they put it on my skill level and I got to basically phantom play if that makes sense? Then they put it back up to their skill level and played before moving to a new song. It felt like I was progressing through the actual game and they got me to watch them too! We essentially just took turns long distance!!

You guys I'm so happy I'm gonna explode

-Innie

Albedo turning into a rasin because he hasn't drank anything since like 9:30am (its 2:53pm/14:53): somethings not right..

-Scaramouche

Dawg I just saw a DARE mobile at the same intersection as me!!! Like oh my god!!! DARE is still up???

Mr Jason I'm sorry for drawing on your girl (a girl in the DARE book)

-Minho

I'm curious systems, what's the craziest form that's ever happened for you? I just saw a post signed off with "lesbian" and I just imagined a headmate who's source is the general/average oncept of lesbian. I always giggle at concept forms because they're so cool and often unique, people need to give concept forms more attention

-Blurry

Thank you Tumblr for the free block posts and free block culture because I've blocked so many bad people like goodbye suibaiters and unsolicited venting and HELLO to my inner peace!!!

Thank the lords for my amazing partners. I just had the best sleep of my life because of our psys

Perfect temperature, perfect positioning of the blankets, perfect everything

Thank you to the Minho of our psys and our insys Han

-Chris 🐺

Plain chip: Yoi can eat me when meals aren't too close or at meal

Chip with fancy yellow/orange saucey stuff: I am meal, I am all you need

Chip vs nacho debate? Very interesting. Why chip in fancy clothes meal? Just fancy cloth, no need for meal label. Plain chip, very normal chip. As animals, chips no clothes. Chips side, dressed chip is meal

(I WROTE THIS IMPUSLIVELY AS A JOKE BUT I THINK I JUST DISCOVERED WHY HUMANS THINK THEYRE HIGHER HELLPP)

(FANCY CHIP IS DRESSED AND IS IN A SOLID CONTAINER, PLAIN CHIP IS NOT DRESSED BESIDES SEASONING AND LIVES IN CAVE)

(CHIP BAG DEN??? NACHO BOX HOUSE????)

Humans are just fancy chip. Animal is plain chip. Still chip, just dressed different

Constel update for my little guys

Fennec fox and border collie :p

-Seungmin

I am so sorry to the anon who gave me wonderful advice I've already put off drinking water and then forgot for 3 hours and the only reason I remembered is because my father gave me my medication

(This isn't a serious post I know that I won't get the routine perfect so fast but I think it's a little goofy)

-Chan

hi i read your hydration sitution post and wanted to send an ask instead of rb because my social battery is low...

idk how the average joe does it because were disabled which affects our urinary tract but we always have a water bottle take a sip or gulp depending on how we feel and make sure before leaving anywhere to use the restroom no matter if feeling like its a need we just go

or like if we know were staying home for the day just going every so often (it helps our bathrooms are close)

maybe since youre not used to it set alarms have reminders and keep that schedule so your body gets used to it? maybe like an hour or hour and a half for water and use the restroom, itll feel weird yes but building the habit is a good step

wishing you the best!!

Hello! I tried to answer this earlier but it didn't let me :(

Tysm for letting me know about this! Unfortunately there's a law where we can't have our phones at school so I can't set reminders 5/7 days, however I'm trying to get better now that I get small craving-like feelings!

If I was allowed to bring water bottles I had to school I would've probably developed this sooner, even if a little. I only had opaque water bottles growing up in elementary and only transparent ones were allowed (not the craziest rule, we could only wear non-logo socks with two color choices)

I'm actually glad you sent in an ask instead of reblogging, I get really happy when I see asks in my box and someone insys actually deleted the og post about it, so I don't think I would've seen your suggestions had it been a reblog.

Tysm for coming! I hope you have a good day and good sleep :3

-Chan

*Good thing happens*

Han: "I'M SO HAPPY!!! IM GONNA KISS MYSELF ISTG"

If we say I'm gonna kill myself when bad things happen I wanna start people saying I'm gonna kiss myself out of context when something good happens.

Imagine

Oh my FUCKING god WHERE IS THE LAST KOROK ILL KILL MYSELF

OH MY GOD I DID IT!!!! I FOUND IT IM SO HAPPY IM GONNA KISS MYSELF!!!!

-Felix

Hello leglesscat I see you followed me

Idk who you are and ik I said this on my side blog but your Simeon pfp is cool! It's been a long time since I played Obey Me! Shall We Date? but I really loved it when I did play it :3

-Hyunjin

In Your Eyes Now by NightCove_thefox as well as other older songs have been stuck in my head recently. I didn't realize how much of a coping mechanism it was.

I can totally see someone listening to it and thinking

Yeah. I didn't think about hurting others either. I was a little girl, I just wanted to see something/someone too.

And then some of them will think about their detachment to the world and others, pushing others away as to not burden them, but hurting both others and themselves in the process.

And all they can think is, "Holy shit. Did I become my abuser?"

In Your Eyes Now is very interesting and I need to do a longer post when I'm not so close to my wifi locking

Controversial take, but I think if you're pretending to be in a minority to genuinely help the minority it's okay.

Let me explain (by retelling a story I saw online)

The main person is a straight cis guy. His friends are straight cis guys here too.

The antagonists are clearly drunk (setting is a bar) and yelling homophobic slurs. They are very agressive and they're clearly showing violent signs

The main straight guy (and all his straight friends) then said they were gay. The other men turned around, yelling at them, the friends continued to say they were gay.

The men beat up the guys. This was the main guy's goal, as there was a very strong bartender on watch and they could get charged with hate crime.

They took the beatings, told the cops they were gay. The men did get arrested on hate crime, as well as assault I believe.

The main guy and his friends were pretending to be gay, yes. But they did it to put harmful people in jail. If they did not do that, eventually someone who was actually gay could've been hurt.

In my opinion, these guys are heros, even if nothing bad happened yet as far as we know.

As a misce citizen I can confirm I do knead

-Hyunjin

Nesting, scenting, purring, scruffing... A lot of animalistic behaviours have been attributed to omegaverse characters. But there's one I've never seen used, and that's a shame. Have any of you heard about... Kneading?

Also known as making biscuits.

It's something kittens do with their mums, but older cats often do that with their favourite humans or soft toys and blankets!

It's associated with nest-making and scenting. Famous omegaverse things!

(as well as with heats in queens, but I'm trying to keep the post sfw, so shhhh)

Pups could do that with their parents! Omegas (and other nest-makers) could do that with their nests! And everyone could give friendly little massages to their friends!

(or make them a pizza, but like, as an Omegaverse Instinct™ thing)

So consider: kneading.

Writing this right after the last post (this will be scheduled sooner than that one so you'll get it later) but here's a recent drop of stuff I've made

These are all gifts except the last image and the middle and right bracelets in the bottom left! The last picture is one of pair of the first earrings I made, it has a matching necklace I haven't taken a picture of

Anyway have fun today!!

-Felix

Scheduling this for when I'm at school so yeah but like listen

Being a system is the wildest shit because NONE of us look like the body. We happened to stop looking in mirrors a good while ago because we just- didn't look in the direction of a mirror or care to look at ourselves so every once and a while it's just:

"Man I wonder if I have plaque on my teeth rn lemme lo-" cut off by the staring and internal thoughts of "Wait where did my brown hair go why am I covered in acne and why are my teeth so wack-" and scanning the body in the mirror like it's a foreign object in mf Subnautica in disbelief. Then it hits that you ARENT a cute lil cis man with small hands but rather a fat white trans man with uncomfortable everything.. and small hands unfortunately that stays-

BUT THEN IT GETS W A C K BECAUSE A SECOND REALIZAYION HITS THAT YOU'RE A GROWN ASS MAN IN THE BODY OF A MINOR??

I feel almost like a creep for just sitting here like 🧍‍♂️

But then again our headspace is all grown men except like three teenagers in which only ONE is actually a woman??

AND THEN WHAM WHAM WHAM TRIPLE WHIPLASH BECAUSE NOT ONLY IS MY ANATOMY NOT CORRECT BUT ITS D O U B L E NOT CORRECT BECAUSE IM MISCE SO LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!!

Ain't nothing right here and my only meds is time and money to mold myself into a new shape (man) like pottery.

BUT THAT ONLY SOLVES TWO WHABLOOEYS BECAUSE MISCE DYSPHORIA CANNOT BE PHYSICALLY FIXED WTF

..yall it's too late at night for this put me down

To sleep.

My least favourite pipeline has to be the shocker-whiplash-triple whablooey because it happens within five seconds and my life crumbles before my (and the body's) very eyes

-🐥