Frustrated - Blog Posts
Seriously. Why do they think all women want a short ass tee? I went to 4 different stores (I'm not counting TJ Maxx as their selection is hideous) before I found 2 tops. I've lost 50 pounds at this point. It. Shouldn't. Be. This. Hard. To. Find. Something. That. Fits.
Lol watching the Black void in the corner of my screen get bigger because I keep fucking up my phone
1. It got cracked bc I'm a clumsy bitch
2. It got cracked more
3.I dropped it on some fucking concrete AGAIN and now I can see for 1cm on the entire left of my screen
4. Now I have to use the 1 handed setting for my keyboard to even understand what I'm writing
5. There is a little black pocket void on the bottoms left of my screen
6. Everytime I get upset I keep fucking up my phone worse.
Oh- why didn't you get a case? OH Yous ShoulA GottTenn A CaSe
I FUCKING KNOW
STOP TELLING ME SHIT I ALREADY KNOW
I'm so pissed off right now
This is like my 23rd personal device
I’m so GODDAMNED FRUSTRATED at the state of Irish poetry.
I’m not talking about poems in English by Irish poets, I’m talking about poems in Irish by Irish poets! Especially ones you learn in Junior Cycle Irish. Stuff like ‘Stadeolaiocht’ and others. Want to know the premise of Stadeolaiocht???
a man is waiting at the bus stop
he goes to check the bus app on his phone to see when the bus will arrive
as he’s looking up, the bus is driving past him, bus driver staring him down.
that’s it. That’s the poem. The poem they want us to write a couple of paragraphs explaining the themes of. This is what we have to work with. Another one: Jeaic ar Scoil (Jack in School). This poem entails a mother whose son, Jeaic, is walking to the bus stop for his first day of school in junior infants (4-5 year olds). This poem supposedly signifies a mother’s love and a child growing up. While this is true, it’s all fine until you see what we’re studying in common level English.
In English we are learning and studying poems such as After The Titanic by Derek Mahon, a poem which details the degrading mental state of the manager of the White Star line, Bruce Ismay, after he got away from the sinking titanic and how he felt that he died that night with the sunken. This is a beautiful and complex poem MADE BY AN IRISH POET!!!
Ireland is known for our incredible poets and beautiful language! What I don’t understand is why poems as gaeilge do not have the same emotion and meaning as the poems in english! Could it be that the Department of Education is so desperate for Irish poetry that they will take any of the poetry as gaeilge that they can get!
PROBABLY!
THIS WILL BE THE SUBJECT FOR MY CBA2 IN ENGLISH THANK YOU.
rant over return to sane tumblr
And now for the actual reason I logged in...
My email got hacked. Now sorting through over 8,000 mail delivery system responses to the crap that got sent out via my hacked account. Looks like it was mainly “Singles in your area” posts going out and maybe some free movie or whatever spam. Did have one good response- a definitely manual unsubscribe post, in caps, very angry. I would have responded manually about the hacked account, but I decided not to, just out of security fears. So Andrew H, sorry I got my email hacked (and I hope he gets a better spam filter). Anyway, ran all existing scans, updated, restarted, ran the scans again, added a new malware scanner, ran that. Ran the other scanners again, then talked to what I call “in-house tech support” and had my password changed. Hopefully that ends my other laptop’s career as a bot-net member.
Livejournal, you’re killing me.
So, i can’t log into either of my lj accounts. I get a “password out of date - reset it” message. But it’s been like 5 years since I last used those accounts, we’ve changed ISPs I don’t know how many times since then. To be able to reset the password, I’d have to change the account to my current email address. To change my email address I’d have to log in, which I can’t do unless I reset the password. Oh, and old accounts aren’t deleted after years of inactivity (but their passwords can expire!) just how many accounts are there I wonder, where people have the password, but can’t use it because it’s “out of date”. It’s maddening. .... about the only solution I can see is finding out if we have records of who our ISP was in 2016, hoping they’re still around and signing up for a very short time, just to get an old email address back, so I can reset the passwords, change the email addresses then cancel the account with the ISP. Or, actually get a hold of someone at livejournal, have them see that the email accounts associated with the accounts don’t work anymore, and either let me log in with the “out of date” passwords so I can change the email address, or have them change the email address so I can reset the password. Does anyone even work at Livejournal anymore? For all I know, it’s all been automated, and the only human beings involved are whoever cleans rooms the servers are in. ......yeah, I’m not gonna hold my breath.
Inside every broken teenager, there's an innocent child who witnessed the terrors of the world too early.
I would like to paraphrase a quote said by me when I was 10. It was originally about English grammar but I think it can apply to a lot of things.
"This is only the way it is because enough people say so. So if we got enough people to agree to do something else then that is what would happen."
I don't have a specific point in this atm. I just feel frustrated right now and I like to remind myself that most of the problems in my life rn only exist because not enough people have decided to put a stop to it.
Heyyyy not my usual humor but something more serious, skip if you want
But I'm so frustrated with clothes shopping. Like, okay so I'm a bit more on the big side - but I should still be able to shop at stores like pacsun and hot topic and other stores for clothes. I should be able to go to Kohl's for shoes, but I can't
Like for example; a pair of shorts I got at pacsun, they were so cute!! Black and white flowers. And they were a size 30, so I assumed they'd fit well. Well fuck me in the ass with a chicken and color me surprise when I discover that they are too small
I, wear a wide 14-16 in normal jeans. So why can't a size 30 fit me? It honestly makes me feel like crap.
Not to mention underwear, oh my fucking god I just want to buy underwear that covers the entirety of my ass cheeks without buying underwear too big. I buy boy shorts panties and still half of my ass is hanging out. I should not look and see my butt cheek popping out like it's a neighbor coming for a cup of sugar I should see that shit quarantined like it's still covid lockdown
It is a pain to find clothes and shoes in my size, and I know many others have it worse when it comes to clothes but it's still fucking frustrating. I should be able to wear ripped jeans from a store like pacsun and be able to do a squat in them without feeling like someone tied plastic around my thighs and belly to extract blood.
I should be able to wear ripped jeans and shorts without my thighs or legs popping out further than the fabric itself and making me look like a damn balloon animal freshly tied. And for God's sake it's even WORSE when I get tights and they look fucking see through on me when they're my size
That's all, just some frustrations about my body and clothes shopping
Stores, do better.
Domme searching a sub
«What I demand. Necessarly needed: A large, big cock (everything beneath 7 inches is nothing for me, I do also like thick dicks) and if possible big balls – one of my fetishes, a huge turn on.
Age: between 18-42, I enjoy young, active and sportive men.»
– Actually this announce turns me on so bad, also because I wouldn't be able to fulfill her needs. Never even if I train hard because I'm just too small sized. That's so hot to read for me but maybe abit sad or frustrating too. I'd so love to obey her with no chance of sex at all, specially because she lives in my city.
Fell Asleep!
So I was sexting my wife last night after a night out drinking. She told me to edge for her 40 times. I woke up this morning with no pants on and a bottle of lotion next to me. Lol. Apparently I only completed two of the edges, and I feel asleep. Now I don't get to touch myself at all for the rest of the day! 😩
If you’re going through autistic+ADHD (auDHD) burnout, you may experience:
*anxiety
*depression
*extreme lethargy
*inability to ask for help
**memory issues
**loss of words or selective mutism
**reduced executive functioning (e.g., staying organized, making decisions)
**trouble bouncing back from daily tasks
*suicidal thoughts
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**Feelings of fatigue and constant exhaustion.
*Low self-confidence coupled with high self-criticism.
*Lack of motivation and drive to complete tasks.
*Anger and resentment toward responsibilities, obligations, and other people.
What do we need to exit the burnout realm:
Stimming and sensory stimulation/deprivation
Food, water, medications
Physical safety (e.g., a home, your bedroom, a place to stay that is away from harm)
Social support (e.g., can someone help you with chores? managing your schedule? explaining neurotypical norms going on around you? doing tasks that require engaging with others like making phone calls?)
Time for special interests
Time for sleep, recovery, and rest
If someone you know is experiencing auDHD burnout, be gentle with them, they're already barely holding it together with straws and Scotch tape.
Don't add to the burnout, requiring us to submit more energy spoons than necessary, and understand that the size of your energy spoons are different from those of neurodivergent people. We have less spoons to dole out, and they're tea spoons compared to your serving spoons.
Let us rest. Send us home early from work or class, let us do our work in the safety of our home environment during burnout phases. Everyday interactions that are energizing for neurotypical people are extremely energy draining for those with auDHD, especially during a burnout phase.
Help them if you are willing and able. Those of us with auDHD most of the time don't know or understand what exactly our needs are. Having a support system around that can see what is needed and offer assistance could mean the difference in those of us with auDHD between crashing or being able to recharge.
Be kind. This isn't the time to bully or make fun of the person with auDHD. There is no need to be a jerk in the first place, but we live in the real world, with real, neurotypical people who do not understand how our brains work so differently as to cause situations like burnout that affect others around the person with audhd. Just be kind, those experiencing burnout are already fragile emotionally and probably spiritually. Being a part of our support system as opposed to someone who is making it more difficult to survive this experience could mean the difference between recovery or crashing.
For those with auDHD, find support groups online. There are so many other adults experiencing auDHD and burnout in today's demanding neurotypical world. You're not alone in this.
Lady in the aisle next to me at Target: Oooooo that looks nice... They don't have MY FREAKING SIZE! WHAT WAS I EXPECTING?
Me: i know this feeling
Me, Upon Looking Up District 9 on Tumblr.
"What the fuck is this generic boyband doing here? Gimme me Ugly-Ass lovable Aliens and Sharlto Copely saying Fook!"
27.05.24
[Exams 3/4]
The last exam was terrible, the exam writer was lazy (repeating questions, using questions on the mock, asking lots of questions about a tiny part of the syllabus, etc,) it really knocked by confidence and uspet me. I think I should have done better, and don't see the exam as a true reflection of what I can achieve. In all honesty, after the exam I went back to my dorm and cried- out of both upset and frustration. I hope that despite the poor creation of the test, I have done enough to get the grades I need. I have one test left, and I'm definitely burnt out. Everything got on top of me all at once, I miss my family and my sister has recently had a baby, but I haven't met him due to being in exams. Not being around family during such a momentous occasion has made me feel bad about moving away, and about my plans to move even further for the next academic year.
Not being able to see my nephew is a huge sacrifice to me, so to go through that only to sit in an unfair exam was the straw that broke the camel's back. After my last exam, I will be going out clubbing (not something I'm particuarly excited for right now, but I know it will help my social life), then all I want to do is go home to meet the newest member of my family.
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Oh, you want me to give you feedback, Uber? What a delight! Because, boy, do I have some things to say...
why am i always stuck in the talking stage ? what will it take to get past it manh😭
Why is art so difficult? Art block shouldn't be real, we are all made by skillful hands and minds anyways. This isn't fair 😔
I cannot express the mind numbing bullshit that is having a complete creative block. I can’t write anything. I can’t draw anything. I can’t come up with new designs for soaps I want to make. I can’t get anything creative out and it’s pissing me off UHGGGGGG
I need to hit me so I can be productive, this procastination shit is so lame😩😭
Oh man I sure am glad I get to be spammed with completely unrelated shit just because there's a new feature on Tumblr 😃
I love crafting, but i hate it, but i love it, but i hate it, but i-
Yes let’s perpetuate the myth that one of the greatest songwriters of all time didn’t know how to work hard. I know it’s supposed to be cute but John produced his own albums in the 70s. He contributed the majority of songs on the Beatles early albums. John wasn’t a workaholic like Paul but he was a hard worker. He learned those chords because he was determined to learn the guitar properly. Music was his passion too you know
John learning to play upside down for Paul... Something about that always gets me, John is the guy who allegedly didn't like work and wouldn't stick to anything. But he learned to play upside down because he would need to borrow Paul's guitar or to learn how to play something... he put that extra effort in just because Paul is left handed...
It's a small gesture but it means so much
🥺
I know Anon, he really did that.
It was love 💕
As One Of The Tags Says, The Wyvern Can Kiss My Ass. WHY IS IT SO HARD?! I Like It’s Design, But It’s Such A Hard Boss, Never Before Have I Gotten So Angry!
i wish that i could get into other media other than mlp. it has been my special interest for 15 years, ever since mlp fim came out, when i was 4/5 !! i am interested in a couple other things, like homestuck, psychology, true crime, and disabilities. other than that, it is VERY VERY hard for me to get into anything else. i am horrible at starting new shows, and finishing them ! it makes me so frustrated because i would love to join my partner in her interests but i just get really bored and would rather listen to a true crime case i have already learned about 5 times or draw pinkie pie for the 1,809,263rd time.
I've only been to therapy twice so far and both times my mother was there and both times we mainly discussed my schooling. Why?? I know I'm failing right now but why is that so important when we could discuss how last time I thought of someone hugging me I almost cried??? I jus thought that Therapy would be more about me getting to say what's on my mind and less avout being lectured about how shitty the world is. I like my therapist and I know she's trying but I can't get a word in between my mother assuming how I feel and my therapist making assumptions off of what my mom says. Could she not see how uncomfortable I've been?? I had to leave saying I was going to the bathroom because I was crying and I clearly hated crying in front of my mother. Is this how its supposed to be?? Cause I don't think I like therapy if it is...
Over The Years...
Season 1, 13 and 15