Jirai - Blog Posts
"Good morning bro"
I was about to break down. Thanks.
Good morning bro.
Every time I feel like crying he shows up. We rarely talk about our problems, but we both understand that we both have them.
We have mutual respect for waiting until we're ready to bring it up.
I wonder if he's going through the same things.
...We're both too good at masking, because we're the ones who taught each other how.
Im the reason it got this bad.
I’m the reason you got like this
I’m so sorry for everything. I ruined everything for you and I’m so, so sorry.
I have a better relationship with my brother than I do with any of my real family.
I might be stupid and angry and cruel and mean and an absolute idiot, but i care, i really do.
I was barely thinking during any of what I did. I’m not sure if I was even actually happy.
Sometimes I wish you were able to stay that night.
And sometimes I wish I had said something sooner.
hey if you're seeing this please send me asks or something i wouldnt mind interaction.
"Goodnight bro, see you tomorrow"
He doesn't understand how much I needed to hear that, to know that he's going to spend time with me willingly. Sometimes it feels like people only talk to me because I initiate, but hearing those simple 5 words made everything feel okay. I feel like I'm back in 8th grade, making plans to go over and hang out in his backyard I feel like I'm free from all my troubles that came later. I'm free from the changes that I never wanted to make and were forced on me by... some bad people.
I feel like the person I want to be again. I feel like I am who I should be and who I would have been if not for all the shit I've went through.
I hope this feeling stays around for a while.
I hope he says those words again tomorrow. "Goodnight bro. See you tomorrow" Goodnight, bro.
I'll be here, enjoying the feelings those words gave me. It will be a good night.
I'm oddly calm for all the things rushing through my mind.
I guess talking life through with my brother helps.
Not my real brother, of course.
But I consider him family.
What have I done?
This isn’t how I imagined it
I don’t blame you
Why are you blaming yourself?
It’s going to be okay.
You’re going to be okay
If you’re okay I’ll be okay
Everything is going to be okay
i set off an explosive reaction just now didn't i
Being an empath sometimes means knowing what people actually think even when they lie.
first vent post/introduction i guess?
So, first things first. I'm Ticking Time Bomb, which originates from my first interaction here, about me being an explosive landmine. I'm not a great person but I'm trying to get better.
I have a bunch of things fucked up with my life.
I kinda messed up some stuff with someone I consider my best friend.
My life is on a rapid decline, but i've pulled it up from rock bottom before.
i feel like the "jirai lifestyle" is more like a "jirai mentality" cuz its not really like a full on lifestyle n more like a mindset somewhat
yeh... no therapist is "fixing" me im rotten to the core
overdosing on INTERNET all day everyday
i love being a landmine girl!!
love bomb me. ignite the fuse. pls :3
i love jirai fashion sm!! but i HATE the prices.
filter: slicing tearing box cutter stabbing
filter: bone skinny bruises scars
