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This is a joking rant so don’t mind me

I love Drukkari fanfiction, they’re usually so cute and adorable. But some of it is so unrealistic. Like what do you mean Makkari was living peacefully in America during 1775? I’m not sure if people remember but that’s when slavery was around. Also, why don’t people ever mention slavery, homophobia, or ableism in this fanfics. Like how do you wanna write about World War Two, the plague, etc but not slavery. You can’t write them thought out all of history but ignore racism because I’ve seen fanfictions where they’re in certain years and they talk about how Makkari or Phastos was chilling in America like why are you lying?

Also I low key wanna see the eternals jump some racists for Makkari, Phastos, Kingo, etc. like jump them like the characters in JJK be jumping curses.

I am not usually one to post but I just need to rant about the teen wolf movie. *spoiler alert*

They did everyone but Scott dirty. And I know the ending was about how great Derek was and how he is the best person ever. They are not wrong but his son has so many problems with him and when they finally start to get along. DEREK DIES!!! Like what the heck. And how they only mentioned stiles like 3 times and they carefully edited him out of important sense and yes I know that was partly because of Dylan O’Brien and legal issues but still. And how easily sterek could have been cannon. Like all Eli had to do was call the sheriff grandpa and there sterek. They already had a grandpa-grandson relationship. I mean the sheriff came to threaten and this fool went “oh it’s just you” like buddy. And Derek and the sheriff had a father son relationship. And also how Eli is basically a mini stiles.

Scott is such a bad alpha. Like why would he leave his territory like that. He didn’t even tell his mom he was coming back. Didn’t even try to help with Eli only at the end. Like the first three season he only cares about Allison and everyone else can go fuck themselves. Love Allison but still.

Not to mention all the plot holes. Like who’s Eli’s mother? What up with stiles? Why bring back Allison but not Aiden? Who is the girl with Liam? Where were they at the beginning of the movie? Why do they have the nogitsune and why is it not with Chris or the hale vaults? Are the sheriff and Melissa together?

And how Harris doesn’t tie in with the whole thing. Like what.

There are so so so SO many other things but I won’t. I just feel like screaming, it was so bad.

Thank you for listening to my Ted talk. Have a nice night.

Another rant about my friends bc I am in a bad mood and everything annoys me.

So let's give them nicknames.

D1 -is my best friend

D2-is my friend but not as close to me

C-is my friend but more closer then D2.

If you saw my other post about my friend using mlp character as aesthetic that was D1.

All of us have a gc which the arguments happen.

So this annoying person called D1 keeps changing her pfp to characters in shows/any media I love and knowing nothing about them but using them for 'aesthetic reasons'.

She recently changed her pfp to Mari from Omori and I asked her 'do you know anything about her character', and she replied with no and said she's cute.

And it annoyed me that she didn't know anything that happened to Mari or even the game she's from like your using her as a pfp at least know something about her.

And the most annoying thing of all is that I told her about Omori so many times, that it annoys me more that she said 'she doesn't know about omori'.

The most worst thing is that I always tell her to stop using my favorite characters as aesthetics and with the 'Mari incident' she just said she didn't even know she's a character, that's okay but I did tell her a lot about Omori and even told her who Mari is.

Ik this is petty but I am legit in a bad mood bc of my family so anything annoys me now.

Now here's a serious question: in Valisthea, are dragoons (and everyone if they have the training) able to naturally jump like this, or do they have to be using magic - perhaps Light magic specifically? Some of Dion's attack jumps are specifically using Light magic to create the shockwave, but in this instance we see he doesn't have to be doing a Jump/Dive attack to be able to just launch himself further than any regular jump should manage.

One of the more hilarious things in the game is that the jump button for Clive makes him jump like a NORMAL PERSON. Unlike in, say FF13 (the sequels especially where there is a designated jump button), he can't naturally launch himself from a dead stop to arguably higher than his own height (magically enhanced or not). I question the inclusion of a jump button if it's going to be so useless and you have Garuda powers to launch you in the air if necessary.

So does that mean in Sanbreque, with their prejudices against Bearers, technically the dragoons are using some kind of magic-infused armor or weapons while still not wielding actual magic themselves? Is Dion the only one capable of using a Jump/Dive without it needing to be an attack? Is this why Dion always has his spear when he Primes - to help him focus his magic? When shit went down in Twinside, he Primed *without* holding his spear, but it was present when he eventually De-primed, suggesting that it is somehow tied to his Prime (or the devs needed him to have his spear in the next cutscene and didn't want us to think about it that hard).

Sidenote: why did the game feel it necessary to tease Dion dying here? Did it feel like that to anyone else? Like "I will be with you anon" as the last man to fight to buy the ship enough time to eacape...and he does - proving in the process that he is far better to be the last man buying the ship time when Clive's escape against the Sleipnirs ended with him barely clinging to the Enterprise and telling Mid to punch it. Dion is able to actually jump a long distance even when the ship is taking off. Cool. But why focus on Dion buying them a few extra seconds? Just to show off for ONE scene? Why did it feel like they were teasing that he might not make it...when he easily does?

Anyway, I rant as always

DION LESAGE ↳ Elusive Jump

A Long Rant About Why Hope and Snow’s Arc is Brilliant

"You've changed, haven't you? Seems like you've toughened up."

"I'm a l'Cie. I had to."

"The only ones that ought to be fighting the army…are us dumb grown-ups."

"You think it's stupid to fight?"

"It is if you get killed. Anyway, just lay low. Let the dummies duke it out. The army's no match for NORA, right?"

"He was…he was smiling!"

Let's talk about this. LET US TALK ABOUT THIS!

In just one scene this game managed to make you believe that Hope and Snow are going to implode.

Right before this, when Hope was with Lightning, Hope was on the path to healing. He'd confessed what happened to his mother - for the first time since the incident, I might add, - and how much he hates Snow. The Gapra Whitewood alone is amazing but let's stay focused.

Lightning and Hope are brilliant together, with Lightning seeing what her influence as a role model is doing to an innocent kid. She's a maternal figure, both to her sister and eventually to Hope, but she's been running from her failure to save and believe in her sister as well as losing her entire home and identity. She finally realizes that the warpath she's on is unhealthy and the wrong path for her. Maybe she'd succeed in toppling the Sanctum, maybe she wouldn't have, but an enemy and a goal are things she can kill and accomplish.

The only problem is Hope. When she gives him the advice that she herself is following, to control her emotions, find an end goal and block out everything else, she starts to see how unhealthy her choices are both physically and mentally. She's sent Hope on a warpath, and when she finally announces that "I made a mistake!", Hope is still left angry, thinking there's nothing left if he doesn't have anyone to fight. Hope is shouting at her "Then what battles do we fight? And against who?!"

When she finally convinces Hope to calm down, he says "I'm sorry, I messed up" and you can feel his anger slowly fading as he regains his reason. At the end of that section, Hope's final words are, "Snow believed Serah, didn't he?" That one line demonstrates how Hope is willing to see past his first impressions of Snow and listen to who he is as a person, that maybe Snow really was just trying to save everyone. Both Lightning and Hope together are on the path to forgiving Snow and healing for their own sake.

Then, the next scene happens. They're reminded of how little hope they have of surviving, how they're on the run, how Rosch reminds the army that they aren't people, they're targets. Lightning immediately volunteers to sacrifice herself if it will give Hope a chance to live and find himself in whatever time he has left - "You survive."

Snow was a bonus, since she doesn't want Hope with her while she takes on the whole army and draws their fire so Hope can get away, but leaving him with Snow is safer than bringing her with him. She chucks him at Snow saying "Take care of him", knowing Hope will be uncomfortable but he'll be protected. She likely didn't account for Fang following her and hadn't intended Hope to be left alone with Snow.

Fun bonus is that when Hope is thrown off of Shiva and the soldiers converge on him, Hope rises to his feet and is already in a battle stance. When Snow last saw this kid, he cowered at nothing but the hopelessness of their situation, much less a soldier aiming their weapon at him, but now Hope was fully ready to kick those guys' butts if Snow hadn't intervened. And so began the slow descent as Hope started seeing everything he hated in Snow - Snow automatically assumed he couldn't defend himself, that Snow needed to save the day.

Hope had begun to forgive Snow, hearing Lightning coming to the realization that he believed Serah when no one else did and believed in her when she was ready to give up because of her fate. Then Snow is back in his arrogant glory, treating Hope like a kid because he hasn't seen all the growth Hope has gone through. Lightning treated him like a kid until Odin happened and she started properly supporting him to grow stronger rather than just "babysitting" him. She talked to Hope like he was an adult with a little less life experience - which is how you should be treating a kid as smart as Hope.

Then the scene comes up.

But Snow keeps calling him "partner" in their battle quotes and taking charge when Hope clearly already knows what he's doing now thanks to Lightning.

Hope is a bit confused at where Snow's been and what he's been up to with a branch of the army trying to kill them, but he's passive aggressive at best. Just because he doesn't want to kill Snow anymore doesn't mean he has to like him. Snow does not get the hint, still seeing Hope as just a kid and he has a right to teen angst considering all he's been through.

"The only ones that ought to be fighting the army…are us dumb grown-ups."

From Snow's perspective: he's telling Hope that kids shouldn't have to go through such a horrible thing, to have the whole army training their guns on you and calling you nothing but a target. Hope shouldn't have to be running for his life, taking on the military that's supposed to be protecting citizens and kids like him. Adults are just dumb like that, getting ourselves into trouble. Kids should be smarter than that - be smarter than that, Hope.

From Hope's perspective: Snow just called any adult who tries to fight the army a fool - including his mother when she volunteered to help fight their way out of the Purge. She fought because Snow asked for volunteers (he knows but often forgets that her main reason for joining was to keep Hope safe; Snow hadn't even thought of asking for volunteers until a bunch of people asked to help them). He just called Nora a fool for fighting to save Hope’s life at Snow’s behest.

"You think it's stupid to fight?"

"It is if you get killed."

Whew we're just gonna stop right there mid-sentence. In those two sentences we managed to create two sides of a conversation that perfectly encapsulate the miscommunication between Hope and Snow that’s driving a 14-year-old kid into a murderous rage even after he'd begun a path to healing.

Snow just called adults stupid for fighting the army, then he goes and pushes it further by saying that it’s only really stupid if you get killed. From Snow's perspective, this is a perfectly reasonable thing to say. It helps no one if you run into battle and get killed - no matter if it's just your life on the line or if you have others you're trying to protect. The people you're trying to protect don't necessarily benefit from your sacrificing yourself by throwing yourself at the enemy in a desperate kamikaze, and Hope himself shouldn't just give up on his life even when the army has them outnumbered and they have no plan - he'll find hope to go forward, he should never just give up and go out in a blaze of rageful spite.

From Hope's perspective, that idiot just insulted his mother! He just called Nora stupid for fighting the army even though she had multiple good reasons to have volunteered - Snow asking for volunteers and putting civilians into the line of fire (even though they were already and Nora joined for Hope and it was entirely her choice). Then he calls her especially stupid because she got herself killed.

In essence, Snow just voiced the thoughts of everyone who hates on Nora's character in general. “She was a MOTHER, what was she DOING volunteering to FIGHT, “Moms are tough”? psssh she DIED, what an idiot.”

I was angry for Hope in that moment, man. I was ready to stab Snow too.

"Anyway, just lay low. Let the dummies duke it out. The army's no match for NORA, right?"

Ooof, and then we have the final line where Snow uses the name NORA as his acronym for "No Obligations, Rules, or Authority." As Lightning had told Hope in the Gapra Whitewood, (let me quote the datalog entry for that moment): “They wish to live without restrictions, she explains, though some might argue that what they really wish is to live without responsibility.” This means that Snow just used NORA in the context of ignoring the responsibility of those who he himself brought into the battle under his leadership. He was in charge of those volunteers, including Nora, but now he acts as though he’s forgotten all of the weight of their deaths that were directly or indirectly his fault.

So in conclusion, Snow just insulted Nora Estheim in three different ways in the span of one short conversation. Nice going, bud.

To be clear, it’s made very obvious in the beginning that Snow is absolutely crushed by the guilt of everyone who died under his command. Nora in particular has traumatized him because he blames himself for letting her fall out of his grip (see this post for that rant). Snow isn't a children's cartoon character telegraphing his every thought and the lesson you need to learn from him; he's repressing his feelings and he's very good at hiding it. He is brilliant at acting like he's happy and fine and running away from the guilt because if he let it crush him, more people would get hurt because he was too distracted and didn't protect them.

His breakdown when Hope presses him explains the final puzzle piece: he didn’t know how to possibly atone - so he just kept avoiding it.

“There is nothing that can make something like that right again. When someone’s dead, when someone’s gone, words are useless…I know! It’s all my fault! But I don’t know how to fix it! Where do you start? What do you say?”

When Hope finally wakes up, Snow has finally come to terms with his guilt and confesses it outright. It was his fault Nora died, he shouldn’t have said a lot of what he said before about words being useless, how he could never make up for someone dying so he needed to keep going.

“I thought if I couldn’t make up for it, then all the apologies in the world wouldn’t mean thing. So I decided I had to find a way to pay for it first, before I’d even have the right to say sorry. But, it’s like you said. I was using that as an excuse, so I could run from my own guilt.”

Snow finally acknowledges that he’s been running, that Nora’s death is his fault, and notice that he hands Hope Lightning’s knife, telling him to dish out any punishment he wants. Hope could kill Snow right then and there, but instead, he just finally confesses, “She’s gone, Snow.”

Hope closes the knife. He lets go of his hate.

Let’s quote the datalog again, because no one likes reading except me, apparently, but the datalog has genuinely brilliant writing: “He didn’t survive this long to see revenge - he saw revenge as a means to survive.”

Palumpolum concludes three character arcs:

Lightning

She admits how she snapped from losing Serah and her life all at once and went down a dangerous warpath (dragging Hope along with her)

She finds a new goal in surviving to see Serah wake up

She apologizes to Snow!

Hope

He gathered the strength to pin the blame on Snow despite knowing it was the Sanctum’s fault for killing her, despite knowing killing him wouldn’t bring her back

He acknowledges that he went down the wrong path, even if he did it to survive

He accepts his mother’s death

He forgives Snow

Snow

He admits that Nora’s death is his fault and that he’s been running from the guilt of not only her but many who died because of him

He was too overwhelmed by the idea that he didn’t know how to atone for his actions, so he just kept avoiding his responsibility

He faces the consequences, apologizes even knowing that it won’t fix everything

Anyway, if you made it this far, here’s a picture of some chocobos and sheep just hanging out in order to form a barrier:

On the next edition of Final Fantasy XIII actually had really good character arcs: Sugar and Rainbows

Some more things that frustrate me

My father basically tells me all the time that I have no rights that my generation didn’t go through the hardships of their generation, full of violence and abuse and fear of that abuse meaning that we don’t go to school eat, broccoli, or do anything correctly and go on murderous rampage to stab pizza delivery guy

Right, believe everything you hear in the news and second of the news tells you things that sounds like they’re happening every day but they’re not they’re just bad things that seem to happening every day because it’s the news it’s meant to make you feel terrible

Bad things happen all the time and isn’t because of parents, taking a lax way of taking care of their children

Hurting your children abusing them in anyway, mess them up, and then you expect them to know things or do things a certain way that you never taught them

Say that you want them to be better than you? Oh wow and how are they meant to be better than you when you don’t better yourself at all you don’t even try you just want the next generation to be better for no reason except your stupid pride, because in the end we never will be to you you just like, saying that you’re better than us and use anything to just bully us

It’s honestly stupid

I feel like we have grown up this society and become better

But at the same time I feel like we keep getting worse in some areas

Maybe it’s just me and my family dynamic

I’m just tired of hearing my father say that I have no right that everything that belongs to me isn’t mine and everything I am my existence. My body isn’t mine

That all my issues and troubles are my own fault and people who are rude to me, bully me or harass me it’s because of my fault

I never asked for any of that. I usually just accept it and try to move on.

But that’s not how things work they’ll pile a lot then pin you down and make you feel like you should just give up on everything or just have a breakdown

In the end, I think my father’s wrong

People aren’t going on ramp, murder spree, because you don’t beat them or hurt them enough to think otherwise, and the same goes for eating or for school

I just don’t understand what he thinks when he says that children are stupid and they should know better. That’s the whole point of children they’re idiots. They don’t know better because they’re still learning and if you don’t teach them how the world works or how to take care of themselves, they won’t .

Sometimes I think I’m losing hope for humanity, but I have to remember he’s just one of Many and there are many good people out there

Anyway, I feel better. Writing my issues on the Internet about a arguments I have with my father now I didn’t know that could make me feel better

Just to write about my issues 

Hello, I just wanted to talk about something that really frustrates me

My family likes to say I use my mental health as an excuse

Or they ignore very obvious signs of mental health issues to just call me lazy or just an excuse to not do anything at all

I had depression at the time and it was really bad for my mental health for people to just say I was lazy and didn’t want to do anything. It’s true that I didn’t want to do anything but it wasn’t because I was lazy or I didn’t want to. I just didn’t see the purpose and doing anything at all or existing that’s not lazy.

I also have ADHD And they tell me I can’t use that for an excuse for why I can’t do stuff, but I never said I was using it as his excuse or say I can’t do things at a normal person we can do because I have it I can I’m a functioning being

I’m just really distracted with everything else in existence

I also have extreme anxiety which doesn’t help. When the slide is noise can set me off on a random rant about I’m gonna set the house on fire if something comes near me And I even sent myself up an anxiety attack

Yes I have difficulties doing a lot of things but I’ve never used it as an excuse for why these things are happening. It just makes it harder. But I never said I couldn’t do it, but they still say I’m using it as an excuse.

And then when they actually talked about mental health, it’s things that I don’t have and they use it to belittle me I don’t like eating in front of people, very picky about what I eat and being forced to try to eat certain things that I’m not comfortable eating at the time makes my anxiety gets set off which makes me feel sick and sometimes even vomit when I’m eating

Then they said I have anorexia and basically make fun of me for it and they shouldn’t make fun of me for this saying I have this or use it against me in any way

I do enjoy eating. It just happens that I have an anxiety that makes it difficult to eat sometimes or it could be the ADHD forget that’s against that I have necessities as a human being and I should definitely eat sometimes

Straight out ignoring mental health issues or accusing someone as using it as an excuse or saying people have mental health issues that they don’t have is extremely frustrating

Especially when you’re young, and people who are meant to support you, making you more confused in the end just make it worse

But in the end, this is just a rant about my life and my frustrations in it but this was a good ranting about it made me feel better