Megalophobia - Blog Posts

Day 60: There is a thunderstorm outside.

The sky is flashing so much, it needs a seizure warning and the thunder sounds like cannonballs.

I am afraid of dying. Our neighbors have a huge tree in their yard and in a strong storm it could break off and crush our roof.

I don't want to be crushed to death.

It's hailing outside too. Big ice balls, not yet big enough to Crack the windows but still making lots of noise.

We pulled all possible plugs. TV, Computer, Radios, even the coffee machine. They might get destroyed if lightning strikes.

I hate the noise that thunder makes. Thunderstorms, especially heat storms make me think of suffocating, burning and pressure.

Sometimes I just want to hide in a small nook with no bad noise or feeling.

I hear the wooden supports of our house making noise, it's horrible. I want to leave but outside is dangerous.

I don't know what to do.

I hate thunderstorms.

Here’s the characters I made that I think phobias would look like as people

I'm going to be 100% honest. I don't get afraid very often. I get startled, jumpy, anxious, worried, and many other things, but great fear and dread are not things I often experience. When I first finished Survivor run in rain world, however, I learned of a brand new fear of mine: megalophobia. I really hate ascension in rain world. Not because of the act of swimming down and down and down, no, but the incorporation of void worms. I hate them. They scare me so badly. The idea that in order to finish a run via ascension I have to swim past these beings so large and so fast that there is literally nothing I could do if even just one decided to simply look at me. The fact that they are so large that I am nothing more than a powerless speck of dust before it. The fact that they could easily crush me without even so much as noticing me. The fact that all I can do is pray and hope they don't hurt me. I dislike it so much. It makes me so fearful, so dreadful. It silences me. I really really hate them.